Uncertainty

I’m gay and I feel so awkward in discussions about the immutability of sexuality. Everyone expects me to say that I’ve been gay as long as I can remember, and I feel like I’d be betraying other gay people if I told the truth that I vividly remember being totally straight as a child.

My greatest fear about coming out of the closet in real life is that I might find myself straight again once I do. I often wonder if I can ever find satisfaction.

Anonymous on April 10th 2008 in Fear

3 Responses to “Uncertainty”

  1. hey said on 11 Apr 2008 at 5:04 am # Quote

    you don’t have to justify your sexuality to anybody, gay or straight. you are what you are.

    anybody who says that sexuality is totally immutable is just kidding themselves anyway.

  2. Jenni said on 11 Apr 2008 at 9:14 am # Quote

    That’s strange. Did you become totally homosexual as an adult? Sexual preferences can, and do, change over time. I didn’t admit to myself that I was sort of bisexual until I was an adult, but I always had feelings for other girls, even as a small child.

    There are periods when I only am interested in guys. I suppose you can’t be the same all the time. I can’t see how you’d be betraying anyone by having a change in sexuality.

    Just accept yourself as you are. If people don’t think you’re really gay, screw them. There are a lot of people that think people choose to be gay. And that’s wrong.

    Normal people are not qualified to go around saying how human sexuality works.

  3. justinian said on 11 May 2008 at 2:21 pm # Quote

    You are who you are, wearing a label is a faulty means of self identification. You don’t need to come out of the closet because the metaphorical closet is what’s trapping you in the first place. Why don’t you simply exist, be in the metaphorical house instead of just the closet.

    Your attraction is all you need…
    Gay/Straight=Person

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