Hide in Pain
Posted by Grace in Fear on Nov 22nd, 2010 | 5 commentsI’ve thought of suicide. I’ve thought of cutting. I’ve thought of many ways to kill myself because I believe others are better off without me… That he was better off. I would stand in the shower, staring at my razor and wondering what it would feel like to have blood drip from my skin.
I’m scared. I need him to help me but I can’t bring myself to tell him. He knows I have problems but he doesn’t know the half of it. I want to die. One day, I will have the courage to stop my broken heart from beating ever again.
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You need to tell him and be honest about how you feel. He can help you, and if he loves you he will understand. Please don’t end it, get support from the ones you love. Don’t you ever forget that you are loved. Good luck : )
That’s not courage, that’s cowardice.
Courage would be talking about it.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You only get one life. Dont throw it away.
Everyone matters to someone.
listen, i know it seems as if people would be better off without you and the crazy thing is there just might be some people in your life that treat you like crap but the thing is that people will always hate you. i’ve lived life trying to please everyone and ended up being unhappy and still not pleasing anyone around me. people are fallable we are intended to be hurt and hurt people and it is impossible for us to understand absolutely everything. but you gotta hold on to breath and find (something) that makes you happy. you will see that (something) will soon be your first thought in the morning and your last thought before you lay down your head. Let that (something) be your motivation in life. Also, i know from experience that it’s hard to deal with things alone. for me, God worked. Sounds cliche but i’ve always felt like no one understands me and even when people are giving me what sounds like great advice, it doesn’t help me. I had to isolate myself one day and initially wanted to do something bad then i found myself screaming and crying out as if i was talking to someone. i think it’s God’s way of getting us to talk to Him. i heard a very calm whisper in my ear that night and God is so real to me now. Maybe that’s what you need….get alone and try God. you might not hear anything back right away but it will make you feel better:) Maybe afterwards you will be able to talk to whoever “Him” is :) I hope everything works out and you are ok! :)
To Hiding in Pain…here is a link for you.
http://positivepause.com/
Maybe you are walking this path to share your story so others may not fall into the void your in now. Your heart needs healing and honey he knows, is most likely waiting till the time is right for you. Call a hotline, your Doctor, or go to your house of worship. Do this for yourself the rest will fall into place.