I am worthless and I want to die sometimes. The only thing that keeps me alive are my children and the thought of them growing up without a mommy. Other than that, I am the crap on the bottom of my husband’s shoe. I am transparent to him and all I’m good for is taking care of the kids and a means to an end. He thinks he sacrifices for me to go to school, but he’s not the one taking the kids to daycare, or trying to go to school for the betterment of this family. What sacrifice?!! I serve in the Air National Guard and they have paid my whole way for school. And I don’t have to work because the GI Bill gives us some money. Nothing I do is good enough. He forgets that I am the one who takes off when they are sick or go to school. He looks at me with disdain when I haven’t folded the laundry in months or clean the house. He throws an attitude when he has to do it. He does nothing but oppresses me and it is slowly wearing me thin.