This is motherhood most of the time…
Posted by anonymous in Family on Feb 9th, 2011 | 5 commentsYesterday, I spent 5 hours taking nits out of my 7year old daughters hair. The whole time my two year old was crying and hanging on to me needing attention because she was coming down with a cold. Once they were both asleep, I spent the rest of the night washing, boiling, freezing everything in our home. Our family’s scalps and entire house reeks of tea tree oil and rosemary. I only slept a few hours because I was so grossed out at the thought of having a major lice infestation in our house. This morning, my two year old woke up crying and whining, but I was able to get my nit-free 7year old to school on time. After hours of crying and whining and melt downs over things like, the dog refusing to eat her goldfish cracker, a dose of tylenol and an early nap for my two year old was all I could do to save my sanity. I am irritable all the time now. I used to be fun loving and creative. I used to go to the gym. I used to love me.
I went to a prestigious college, and was the only woman in a class of 12 people. I was going to be a cinematographer and a writer. All I could think about last night while digging nits out of daughter’s hair while balancing a flashlight and a magnifying glass was, “what the **** was I thinking?”
This is motherhood most of the time. And if you have a great husband or partner, no matter how awesome they are, they never get it because they are usually never around.
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*Sigh* I feel your sentiments! It will get better, hopefully. It is hard with no help, I know from experience. My mom lives inly 10 minuates away and she rarely comes over to my house, but yet tells me all the time that she misses her grandkids. I know she cares and loves them and she does help with watching the oldest on Saturday nights, but that is not when I need the help. Sometimes I just want to scream!!! I wish I had an answer for you, but I don’t. Just know you are not alone.
I’m gonna start taking the pill now.
I’m 26 with a three year old and a one year old. I haven’t finished college yet. Do the things that you dreamed of doing. Your plans have changed but it’s never too late to incorporate your dreams and your kids into the equation. You deserve happiness. You only have one life. Go on adventures. Make a plan and do your research. Take risks. The kids come first but your partner needs to know what you need and aid you with your goals. Good luck.
They say it’s the most rewarding job you’ll ever have. No, it’s not. It’s the worst job ever and you can never quit. I feel trapped.
Hi,
I empathise with you & admire your courage and honesty. I am a tv/film editor & am in the opposite position. I have acheived everything I wanted. Now pushing 40 & burnt out cant help wondering if I should have had kids earlier? A fear of the unknown now is whether I would regret throwing all that hard work away. What about growing old alone? Wouldnt that be much worse @ the end of the day? Would you do it all over again knowing what you know now? What will you be thinking about in your rocking chair…what a great life/ career I had or I am surrounded ny a loving family etc. Interested to hear your thoughts & insight. Btw who says you cant write? Plenty of ppl do that from home! Hats off to your admirable strength and openess. Never give up dreams 8) Kxo