sad state of the past

my mother died when i was 12 she hung her self in the shower cubical in hospital after being admitted after a car crash including myself,it was deliberate .
My uncle hung himself a yr. before after a drunken fight with his girlfriend ,she found him hanging in the shed , she thought he had gone for a walk to cool things off.

there father ( my grandfather) raped the both of them from age 3 to 16 , my mother fell pregnant to him and naturally aborted she did not know until she found the baby ( the size of palm ) in the toilet bowel .

heavy i know but true .