my son

Posted by in Family on Feb 16th, 2011 | 4 comments

I LOVE MY FAMILY. I HAVE A SUPPORTIVE HUSBAND. I ALSO HAVE 4 KIDS THAT I ADORE. ONE OF MY SONS IS ADHD WITH SEVERE EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS. HE DESTROYS PROPERTY WHEN ANGRY AND REGULARLY BECOMES VIOLENT TOWARDS HIS SIBLINGS AND MY HUSBAND. ON THE OTHER HAND HE IS SO ATTACHED TO ME THAT HE CRIES EVERY TIME I LEAVE HIM . ONLY FOR WORK. HES 6 YEARS OLD. WE ARE SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST FOR ALL OF THIS. I REALLY TRY TO DO RIGHT BY ALL OF THEM. HERES MY CONFESSION. SOMETIMES HE MAKES+ME+SO+ANGRY+THAT+I+ALMOST+CANT+STOP+MYSELF+FROM+HURTING+HIM.
+IM+SO+AFRAID+FOR+US+BOTH.+IM+AFRAID+OF+HURTING+HIM.
+IM+AFRAID+IT+WILL+NEVER+GET+BETTER.+MOST+OF+ALL
+IM+AFRAID+OF+LOOKING+INTO+THE+MIRROR+AND+SEEING+THE+MONSTE
++I+FEAR+IM+BECOMING.+I+CANT+TELL+THIS+TO+ANYONE.
++I+AM+TAKING+MEDICATION+FOR++DEPRESSION+AND+ANXIETY.
+I+DONT+KNOW+WHAT+TO+DO.

4 Responses to “ “my son”

  1. Kittycat says:
    February 18, 2011 at 2:23 pm

    Find a licensed counselor or therapist, NOT a psychiatrist or psychologist to talk to. It is likely that they would be able to connect you with a support group, with other parents experiencing similar emotions.
    I imagine that your thoughts are not uncommon, although they are destructive to yourself and your child.
    Don’t try to do this alone, meaning without professional guidance. It’s hard enough being a parent, let alone a parent to a child with difficulties. Again, a psychiatrist or a psychologist will only write a script for you, they hardly EVER offer emotional support or talk therapy. Seek out a licensed therapist.

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  2. Kittycat says:
    February 18, 2011 at 2:25 pm

    …should have added…I imagine there are also online support groups available to you. I doesn’t make it easier, but it might be reassuring for you to know that others struggle with the same things that you do and they may be able to teach you ways in which to cope more effectively.

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  3. Anon says:
    February 19, 2011 at 3:43 am

    Leave the house/room when you feel like this. It sounds like you are overwhelmed with him and that is normal. Please talk to someone about this and get help. Your feelings are normal but hurting an innocent child is not.

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  4. Sarasota says:
    February 21, 2011 at 1:39 pm

    Ask, ask, ask for help and don’t quit until you get it. A skills worker should be available to you, a social worker, and an in-home therapist. Start by asking within your son’s school, if that doesn’t help, go to your county, your insurance company. You need help, advocate for yourself, your son and your family. This is too much to take on by yourself and believe me, I know. My kids and I have similar issues

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