Mother O’ Mother of mine.
Posted by Anonymous in Family on Dec 20th, 2010 | 5 commentsIt was alittle over a year ago I told you I was pregnant. I was 17. You thought it was a joke, then you were excited. You told me it would be hard… But you didnt say it would have been THAT hard. You said you would be here with me threw it all…. But you didnt say that was a lie.
I lied to you too though. I PLANNED my child with my now husband.
Then a month later you kicked him out, you expected me not to leave with him. But I did.
A month after that you stole my taxes a denied it. But the IRS caught you.
A month after that… I turned 18… Then we know what happened between our husbands.
Then the doctors told me to go on bedrest or I will lose my child, they told me not to lift anything over 5lbs. I told you they said that. Because I called you crying.
But 2 weeks later you told me to come to your house and get all my boxes, you said my husband wasnt allowed to help me, and you made me do it all by myself.
You let me leave without a goodbye or a hug. You cried and then went on the computer.
That was the last time I saw you.
A couple months later I had my son. You never called, or cared.
And at that moment I started to hate you with everything in me. I cant stand the thought of you, your face, your voice, or even any memories of you.
You destroied me, you left me when I needed you the most, you said nothing when I needed you to say anything.
You’re a pathetic excuse for a parent.
And I hope you cheat on your husband like you did with the last 2. or I hope he cheats on you like he did to his last wife.
You dont deserve to see my child, when he grows older and askes about you I’ll only tell him all the horrible things you said and did.
But sometimes I miss you, sometimes I just want to hear your voice. Sometimes I need your advice, your care. But no matter what your still not here.
You told me to choose you or my husband.
I choose him, because he treats me better then you ever did.
I just wish you still cared.
5 Responses to “ “Mother O’ Mother of mine.”
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Oh honey you’ve allowed pain and anger to fester ! This is of no benefit to you or your new precious baby! Congratulations on the baby I hope he’s healthy and well . You need to call you’re mother and apologize!!!!!!! Regardless!!!!!! Beg for her forgivness . After all you are now a mom and we all reap what we sou! You pocked a man over your mother , because you felt he treated you better at that moment? Then you wish grief on you’re mother after having been blessed enough to have a baby ! Do you self and you’re baby a favor. PRAY for forgivness and go back home to your mother ! Asap good luck !
I am totally with you on this one sister. I have a mother who is exactly as selfish as yours, I agree with Lovey that you’ve let this fester, but say ABSOLUTELY not to asking for forgiveness from your mother… we all have a story, she’s your mother, she’s suppose to protect you, comfort you, nuture you, did you get any of that, from the sounds of it no, but you long for a mother that you will never have, you have to face it, you love the fantasy of what a mother is, not the mother you have… so, protect you child from this, thats your job, that childs opinion is all that matters, and when he is older and asks about her, you can say you did what any other mother in this world is suppose to do and thats to protect him, when he’s an adult he came make up his mind to find her or not, My kids at older teens, and see their ‘grandparent’ maybe 4 or 5 times a year, and thats only afew hours if that total, they know, and she knows, all I have to do is sit back and watch and be there for them when they are upset at her evil ways….
stay strong… you have a child.. protect him!
You’re right I am a mother now. But you do not know the whole story of my mother. She picked her husband over all 3 of her kids.
I dont have anything to apologize for. I can cut my ties and not regret. She cant.
I dont have to beg for forgiveness, I am happy and God has brought me to where I am now WITHOUT her.
BTW yes my son is very healthy and the complications ended around the 7 month in my pregnancy.
I too have a mother ! As we all have at some point in time. My mother is and was far from perfect. I was molested by one of her many husbands, and you’re correct in stating I don’t know the whole story ! I only speak from my life experiences as well as the few I’ve had the privledge to be amongst . I too had no protection as a young Child growing up but neither did my siblings and my sister became a mother at the age of 13 . I only say beg for forgivness for any pain , anger , or resentment you may harbor or feel for your mother ! Free your mind ! It’s the only way you will be able to heal yourself from your past ! You’re a mom now so god only knows what tribes and tribulations lye ahead ! Forgiveness will help you become the mother you never had ! Best of wishes to you !!!!!
My mother has always been selfish. She just resently got married to her 3rd husband. And after she got married she just was “done” being a mom. She just wanted to party.
She encouraged me and my siblings to drink and often times would get us drunk.
She let my boyfriend move in when I was just 15. She let all of us smoke and do drugs.
She didnt care.
Before I became a mother I thought it was SO COOL.
But then I became a mom and its like I dont see how anyone can raise their kids that was.
I do NOT want that for my son
And on top of it all she used the child support she was getting from my dad to just buy more drinks. I got a job when I was 16 and after that she felt that she didnt have to support me anymore.
Your right i have a fantasy of what a mom should be. I dont think being a good parent is rocket science. Its not hard to be there for your kids.
I just wish she would have seen me as more then a paycheck.
I moved out 3 months before I turned 18, I called child support right away to tell them I no longer live with her.
And she then called me with a sob story about how shes gonna be broke now.
ugh.