I killed my baby
Posted by Anonymous in Family on Mar 6th, 2009 | 174 commentsI killed my baby son….its benn three years…my husbnd is in jail for it
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I killed my baby son….its benn three years…my husbnd is in jail for it
One consolation, to this, your baby son is definitely in heaven – and Jesus is looking after him…he is in the best care.
For whatever the reason, only you and God know, why his life ended that way; I am not your judge. You need to turn to the Lord, in a quiet place….on your knees and confess between you and him what you did…Ask the Lord to come into your life…for the truth will set you free…and he will lead you the way you should go and show you what to do…I wont forget you.
It maked me sick to think people truly believe there is a God, and Jesus looks after people. It’s the sickest thing I hear everyday.
If it makes you feel good, keep it for yourself. Such stupidity actually hurts people, you know.
I don’t hate any religion. I only hate the fact that you affirm things you don’t know, and act as if everybody agrees with your mental disorder.
Seriously, find a cure, get locked up in those hospitals for insane people like you.
The person is only saying this to bring comfort to this person who feels remorse for what she did, so what if it makes you sick this might actually make her feel better
i concur
you lot are disgusting
She shouldn’t be comforted for ***** sake, she killed her baby, wtf is wrong with you people? do we live in a society where people think its ok to kill there babys? and there is no god, religion is slowing down humanity
i totaly agree with you
that was perfectly put
before a judge is a husband and wife sentenced to death the husband pleads with the judge to save his wife and he will go gladly the judge then agrees kills the husband and immediately afterwards kills the wife. the husband died at peace even though it was not true in the end the judge was humane for lifting his burden and cleared the husband of all blame that way.
what im getting at true or untrue religion is for peoples fears to be tamed. if you didn’t get that and obviously you didn’t it makes this statement above obsolete
Do you actually hear yourself talk. believing that one’s life actually has some sort of meaning is anything form being insane. in fact, if anyone is insane, its you, the wanna be atheist who doesn’t understand what atheism is to begin with. You are the dumb ass of the world who thinks that preaching of atheism and insane asylums makes you the least bit cool. It is very pathetic when I meet or hear talk of an atheist prick or bitch who truly thinks that they are the right ones in matters like this. What is your explanation for how life was created? The matter just somehow happened to turn into living cells that evolved? There is no proof to show half the shit that science tells us (evolution, gravity, big bang), so why the **** would you believe that, and not religion. Face it, all atheists are hypocrites, and you are no exception.
No proof to show us the shit science teaches us?? You wanna live in a world without science? try for one ******* day to live without science, let’s see how that will go!
And it isn’t arrogant claiming that you know how all of this happened? scientists, and atheists say they want to know what happened, not that they definitely know, like religious people. This makes us hypocrites?? And not religious people, who despite claiming to be peace and love spreading spend so much time refuting everything science has ever taught us and spreading hate towards people who believe different than them. It’s sickening, and frankly you are being the hypocrite. Stop judging others before you have a good look at yourself. You’re setting a bad example for Christians everywhere
you sound and spell like youre about 15. thats still way too old to think evolution is just a theory. you have internet access. use it. educate yourself. no proof of gravity? im not sure ive ever in my life heard anything quite as ignorant as that. if youre all about proof why dont you show us some to back up a claim, ANY claim the bible makes. adam and eve? a talking snake?? just because people believe a lie for centuries doesnt make it any less of a lie. do some research on how christianity came about. the zealots said youll believe in jesus or we will set you on fire. not exactly a ringing endorsement. you claim to be a christian yet you spew all this vitriol and hate at anyone who dares disagree with you or have a differing opinion, well, that makes YOU the hypocrite.
k well evolution has alot of proof behind it, it is basically unquestionable and to deny it is simply ignorant. gravity is proved just by letting go of something, and the big bang is just a logical theory, much more logical than adam and eve having an inbred family tree that is humanity.
but i have nothing against religion, it just bothers me how religious people say that things like evolution arent true just because your told otherwise. if religion closes your mind to the obvious or the truth, then i wont have any of it.
Excuse me but i think you are such a horrible person. just because you disagree with someone’s opinion doesn’t mean that there wrong. In truth i am a christian, but i have people in own family who are athiests, and i don’t critisize them or call them rude childish names!
religion and science are in two different areas… Science deals with facts, religion with morals and metaphoric stories… they’re not two sides of the same story… they’re different things… we cannot deny the need for religion, it’s part of the human condition to find explanations to things, and we cannot deny science either (who doesn’t use electricity nowadays, just to mention sth?!) so, please, don’t argue, cause you’ll never reach an agreement… you’re arguing about different things…
but deep in their hearts your family members think you are a fudging retard : D
Did you ever consider that saying that there is definitely some sort of higher power is just as closed-minded as saying that there is none?
except there loads of proof to all of the things you mentioned. shit point you just made really.
wow thts so not nice how could you say this god exists and your the one who should get the help what she did was her choice and she made that choice god will start leading her through her life from now on
God loves you
no i do not , Please don’t speak on my behalve anymore, or i will send you to hell
haha i was wondering when you were gonna have your say
How could you let someone do that!
Your child is a part of you and you just let some man rip that away from you! You could have stoped that by leaving him if you knew he was abusing your child! You did NOT have to let it get that far! And you let if happen to a poor little hepless three year old! I hope you proud of that! And I’m glad that your son is in heaven! Because now he is in a better place and will NEVER be harmed by you, your husband or anyone else again! And how you can still call the beast that killed your baby is WAY beyond me!
her husband didnt kill the baby, she did
yeah anna is right her husband is taking the blame
she killed her baby
hi if you hate to beleave in god thats what you think okay keep it to your self im a 9 year old and is saying this ok KEEP IT TO YOUR SELF.
why are you on a link called `i killed my baby` if your nine?! were are your parents!
i wanna say something but this is to sick to say anything. bad luck in your life soul. maybe it will bring you this luck.
are u insane she killed her child and the most you can say is that the kid is in heven( ******* christians)
How can u live with what you’ve done? How can u live with letting your husband take the blame? Karma is a bitch. You will in the end pay the price for what you’ve done. I don’t believe n heaven or hell or god or the devil but I damn sure believe n karma.
why do you have to swaer so much. you can say something with out swaring like that.
“There is no hiding place from the Father of Creation, and when the man come there will be no no doom” Bob Marley
Just come out clean with all the facts and set your husband free. Don’t be scared of going to jail coz that were you deserve to be. Slowly but surely it’s gonna kill you coz the innocent blood that you shed its crying out.
you can’t reverse the deed, turn to God coznothing in this world can heal you. face it, He will save your Soul even if it means you spend the rest of your life in jail, God will see you through.
I agree actually. How can you live with killing your own little child? It’s cruel, but sad.
I second that Ivy…. Hopefully you will keep your legs shut and never bring another victom into this world.
u cant change what is happened… but what u can do is.. do something that makes ur husband free.
you need to confess. what you did is horrible and justice must be served
TURN YOURSELF IN
people like you shouldnt be around
does your husband know that it was you? Do you visit him and hear how he is being treated by other prisoners??? a baby killer is the worst of its kind. you are worse than that…. i hope your guilt kills you slowly and painfully.
You should turn yourself in. you put your own husband in prison and you have to live with the guilt for both crimes. my friend Vera killed a child for an inhertince and a year later after her boyfriend Henry dumped her for what she had done, she killed herself by throwing herself over a bridge because of the guilt. in the end she told ever one by suicide note.
that guilt is gonna eat you and eat you until you confess.
First of all I commend you for admitting that your son’s death is your fault. I know that couldn’t have been easy. I find it incredible what some people have replied to you, for you can never know a person without having walked in their shoes. It is very judgemental to cast you to the devil without knowing any of the facts in the matter. You never did say if it was an accident or on purpose or how the act was committed. You never even really stated whether or not you feel guilty (though I suspect you do if you confessed here). What you need to do now is decide what the right thing is to do and whether you can live with whatever decision you make. Know that the Lord will judge you on whether you make the right decision or not and that will determine whether you spend the afterlife with your son in Heaven, or in hell should you choose to continue to allow your husband to take the blame. I urge you to think long and hard and then take responsibility for your actions. Isn’t that what you would have taught your son? How to be responsible? He’s watching.
I think you do need to tell someone who can help, I suggest a councillor who will be able to help you come to terms with it and be able help you serve the punishment that you, and society, believes you need to do.
You can’t fix what happened then, but you can stop the consequences of keeping quiet about it now.
Suicide is not the answer, truth is.
Seriously it’s scary you are a real person. I hope you die. You know you’re going to he’ll right? Baby killer
Yo enough with the hate. As humans we are susceptible to everything in this world. What has happened (if it’s true) has already happened and no you won’t go to hell.(I hope you read this). But you have put yourself in a hell by living this way. First off it’s hurt you the most and second if you are not honest with yourself you’ve made your life a worthless fraud. Be strong and face life when you find the strength you will be able to get through it.
Yo and everybody else stop judging and reflect on your own life.
WHY?!
My baby girl died from cot-death. Not a day goes by when I don’t wish to be able to hold her just one last time.
How can you have thrown that away??
Your baby couldn’t defend itself, couldn’t fight… what are you supposed to do when the one person you are supposed to be able to trust, your mother, betrays you in the worst way possible.
i killed my baby too. she wasn’t born yet and i was forced to. she was only 13 weeks old. i miss her everyday and i wonder what she would’ve been like. i know that if i had the chance to see her face i could never do her any harm.. i don’t know what could drive someone to do such a thing. but i know the guilt will be a punishment in itself.
some of you say to judge ourselves before we judge this woman..well i have never killed a baby or any person in my life. so there. this woman deserves what she gets.
It will be a harder life trying to run from this emotionally than officially paying the price in jail. It will be very brave of you to tell the truth. Ask Jesus for help. You need to right this wrong, whatever the price, it will be hell on earth for you mentally to live knowing someone else is serving time. God Bless you as you make the right decision.
You need to set things straight!
I don’t know what were the circumstances that make that you killed your baby, and if it was really you, but what i dont understand is that your husband is in jail. Even if you were in jail, the hardest part is to pass through it, emotionnaly.But i hope that you will not make suffer any other children, or go see a psy or something, but.. really..
Everybody can have its own opinion. But Nobody can change what happened.
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P.S.: MissYouAngel, I think that nobody is never in obligation to do something they do not want to do..
Thats my opinion.
Ah and bravo to told it. It’s probably the first step.
its common knowledge that it is wrong that your husband is serving sentence for something that he is not guilty for.
i dont know the situation in which your son died, whether it was accidental, intentional, or due to a psychological illness.
i am truly sorry. i cant imagine your pain. for what ever reason all of this came to be, you are still loved. i dont know if there is a g~d or not, but you are still human, and apart of this world and the earth and all of its energies embraces you.
people make mistakes. some mistakes are more traumatic than others. i dont know what there is to do from here, only you do. and its up to you.
you are still human. and as a human you still have the right to breathe, love and be loved. we all do heinous things with or with intent. we are all human.
for whatever reason this all came to be
there is still love for you. we are all one family, family is about forgiveness.
No we dont leave people who kill their babies. If someone killed your baby, you wouldnt be talking about forgiveness and love, let me tell you that.
FYI, all you haters out there; there is a mental illness called “Post Partum Depression”. It happens when a mother gives birth, because her hormones are all wack. When severe, and gone undiagnosed, this can lead to the mother killing her baby. This is known as infantcide, and is usually done in the bottom of the pit of depression much like suicide. It’s not uncommon, unfortunately. And as long as there are jack asses like you who judge people, it will continue to be an issue. So grow up, please. For the sake of humanity.
for the author: Nothing I can say or do will take the guilt away. Or the pain. But I hope you are able to find help some where, from people less judgmental than a bunch of internet junkie idiots.
novembermist: That’s really how you feel? We’re the internet junkie idiots? When there are people out there who kill innocent children and blame it on postpartum depression? I don’t know how you are able to justify this person’s actions by blaming it on depression. So, you’re saying that if I claim depression, you’d forgive me for killing your baby? Because that’s what it seems like you’re saying. And if so, I feel sorry for you. But I honestly can’t bring myself to feel sorry for this woman.
Seriously, you make me feel sick. Even if it as a mistake, dont let your husband take the blame. And also, confessing it on the internet, either youre lying or youre pathetic. And learn how to spell ‘been’. Just to remind you what you have done: a) destroyed an innocent life that had barely been introduced into the world. b) you have let your husband take the blame and he is now suffering for the shit that you have committed. c) Its been 3 years – you must go to sleep crying every night (if you dont, i seriously hope that you do :s). d) You have the ovaries to confess on the internet but not in real life !!!!! COwards are the worst type of human being. Let alone a coward that kills their innocent baby (probably throttled it with bare hands you sick person), lands their husband in jail and then has led a lie for 3 years…. e) You give men a bad name – people like you should have been killed at birth – you make me sick and i hope to god i never meet anyone like you – EVER!!! There is nothing that you can do to make up – no way of repent. You are innevitably going to die a lonely and painfull death – you deserve it, thats all i have to say.
Quote. “people like you should have been killed at birth”
Maybe this woman was suffering mentally and believed her son was evil. Paranoid deliousons can be horrific, especially if she was suffering from a depression.
You’re preaching, but still think she deserves to die. Funny.
Internet junkie idiots? You say this yet surely what we apparently ‘junkies’ say is entirely valid? It is a cardinal sin and against the law in all states to kill – let alone something that cannot defend itself and has no choice – to live or to die. Life cannot be simply taken from another – no matter the mental illness – and then go unnoticed and unrebuked. The likelihood is that this woman is not one of the 1 in 10 million people that have that condition you are describing. This woman is confessing on here because she feels guilt – a person who does not know their own actions does NOT feel guilt!! Nobody can argue a defense for this woman so dont even try.
One in ten million? I hope you’re not talking about PPD, thats actually 1 in 10, maybe more.
@Dan Morton, you are an idiot. Go be pregnant for 9 months, have that baby, suffer through the following depression and the loss of blood, while your baby is keeping you up at night causing sleep deprivation, and then you come back here and tell us that it never crossed your mind to do something to your baby.
I’m not saying it’s okay, but you’re a real bastard to judge her so harshly for it. Especially since you’d know nothing about having a baby to begin with.
To the author. I’m sorry for you. You need to get help though because it will eat away at you. I also believe in karma and I know it will come back to bite you some day (or maybe killing your baby was the karma that came back to you for something else) but I don’t think you should be so harshly judged by religious freaks.
for me, it’s rather difficult to offer judgment when i don’t even know anything beyond one undetailed line. it’s amusing how many people are quick to jump on the issue with harsh criticisms. if i were you, unless i were after self-flagellation, i would not post on this website again. it’s clear what kind of people the majority that frequent here are.
You’ve confessed to the whole world, but can’t bring yourself to confess to the police. Maybe its fear, maybe its selfishness. Either way, you’ve just told any number of millions of people but you can’t take the blame. Ask yourself why and you might find a surprising answer.
you need to tell people who understand what you were going through, not random strangers, i dont understand and nor do they as a lot can be judged from one short sentence.
God and the truth will set you free. its not too late
let god into your heart. he loves us all and all it takes to get forgiveness from hime is to ask him. get yourself baptised. start over. i’m sorry for what happened. don’t let those other people bother you. they don’t know your situation. they have problems of their own and the only reason they should even say anything to you is to help you. see a counselor too. it will help. withhout god we are nothing. i can’t imagine what you are going through. you NEED to talk to god and ask him for forgiveness. it doesn’t matter what you did. he may not agree with what you did but he will forgive you. ONLY IF YOU ASK HIM TO! after you do he never will hold it against you. god will do what he needs to do with your husband. if you love your husband, you will visit him. god would admire that. good luck. remember: GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT! :)
The hell with God. You reacted in the best way you could. That you are talking about this on an internet website means that you clearly feel guilt over what you did.
You need to do something about this. Your husband is in jail either a)wrongly being accused of this crime or b)knowingly taking the blame for you.
Post natel depression can be rough, but if you take your life please leave a note that exonerates your husband and gets him out of jail! What’s the point of him doing time if you get off scot free?
BTW: as a woman, I don’t get what you did. You are terrible to me. You don’t exist. That a woman can kill her own child…
that’s awful.
you know that your husband is probably getting the shit kicked out of him on a daily basis and raped repeatedly. baby killers dont last long…
Hey,
Don’t feel bad for what you’ve done. There’s no way you can get your baby back, and I’m sure it was by accident, or for a good reason he died. As for your husband, I say move, go far away, somewhere he can’t find you, and forget about him.
Good luck for your life.
huh??? Are you for real??? She needs to do the RIGHT thing and she, as well as everybody on here, knows what it is!
I don’t get it, why’d you do it? Was it by accident? What you wrote makes you look insane
Give an explanation of how it happend, why it happend.
If you post this on the internet, you might aswell let people understand, what it is you did. I mean, why’d you post it, if no one realy understands, what you’re trying to tell them
You need to ask yourself these questions:
1. Why you did it.
2. Why your allowing your poor husband to be punished for a soemthing he didin’t do. You techincally have framed him.
3. What you can do for justice. The only thing that can make these things a fraction better is to turn yourself in.
Think of your husband, wondering why he is in a jail cell. Its sick that you have framed him like that. When you did your vows, you said to your husband” I will love and honor you for all the days in my life.” Are you doing that?
Jail isn’t as bad as grieving away at home. God will take care of you.
I hope you do the right thing.
you are truly stupid.
Children are precious! what kind of human being are you.
This is absurd, how could anybody possibly try and justify this woman? She murdered an innocent child. Even if you were to blame this on PPD, she still allowed her husband to be sent to jail. And the whole “God/Jesus will save your soul” thing is insane. If their was a God, I highly doubt he would forgive you for what you’ve done. So everyone preaching about Jesus and PPD, please, think about the irrationality of what you’re saying.
its amazing how so much can come from one sentence . this is secret confessions . This woman clearly has been thinking about it . yes , her baby is dead and now will be in a better place , whether its heaven , or after life , i don’t know . its depends on her religeous beliefs . yes , her husband has been blamed . and if she is a true human , which she must have some little form of since she was able to put this on the interent , probably because she feels sorry , since she put this one for thousands to see shows she has guilt for the things she’s done . we are human . we make mistakes . some greater than others . and no , i’m not saying we should just forgive you for murdering your own offspring . i’m not here to write down ” what a terrible person !” i’m here to give advice for what she should do now . i do believe you should go confess . whether it be in a church , or to police . i DEFINETLY say to confess to the police since your husband is in prison for what you’ve done . the guilt will be lessened that way .
all i really have left to say is what has happened has happened . a life has been lost . all theres left to do now is to move on , and talk to the police . get your husband out of prison .
the things you have done are definetly unforgivable . but through time , and obvious improvment , definetly therapy , you’ll be fine . i wish your family well , and may your baby rest in peace .
Why’d you kill your baby? Was it on purpose? Did you have a good reason? Are you lying? Damn thats heavy. You need to get your crap together.
sorry I forgot to add something. Ashitaka your one of the only people in this world who isn’t preaching about God I mean there could be a God but they say all about he forgives anything.
why? i dont understand…
Can you all calm down? Don’t interfere with peoples beliefs, don’t interfere with peoples tradition. It’s a part of being human and in our psychology. I can’t hear any of you complain that your dead beloved ones are being buried in a graveyard, or getting presents for christmas?
The best thing to do is to confess. Not to God, he won’t do anything, he’ll just hope or something. You need to be brought to light, You killed your baby, accept it, now your husband is in jail for it. Get him out confess. It will be hard, but its the best for everyone. Don’t let your husband be blamed for something as horrible as this, when he didn’t do it. imagine how he must be feeling right now. It doesn’t matter if it was an accident. Don’t let there be anymore PAIN.
I have a comment for all the people asking what kind of human being this person is… Originally when we were all cavemen and ran on primal instincts we all killed, there were no nuns, no judges or jurys no vegitarians everyone killed and raped and hurt and committed “the seven deadly sins”. Those primal instincts are still inside of us we supress them tell ourselves they’re wrong but we still revert to them when push comes to shove. Now I’m not saying that what this woman did (if she did it, there isn’t proof) was right or just; motherly instincts are also primal but you can’t be so cruel and mean to her when if it came right down to it, you could kill someone with your own hands in the blink of an eye. In conclusion I would like to say, don’t preach to this woman, not everyone is Catholic or Atheist. Maybe she is Jewish or Muslim. I agree with the person before who said that science and religon are completely different things. He/she is right and they can live calmly beside one another, I am catholic and an evolutionary phsycologist.
I actually cant believe what im seeing, first of all, how can ye all talk abou god and jesus, this is not a fight about religion of who believes in what and who you should turn to, this woman killed her baby and all ye can talk and bitch about is atheists and god, have ye any sense or any respect for any one else.
ummm, really? if you honestly did kill youre child and this isnt some sort of prank, seek mental help. something is really f***ed up in your brain either way.
Wait, is the husband taking the blame for it because he wants to? Or did she tell the police he did it and he couldnt prove his case that he didnt? Did she ruin his life for something she did or does he love her enough to take the blame. Im confused?
GUYS THIS IS OBVIOUSLY A PRANK NO PERSON IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD SAY THAT ON A WEBSITE FOR THE WORLD TO SEE!!!!!
BLOODY HELL YOU LOT R DIM!!!
Sick Disgusting Brutal Person . You Should Be Dead By Know . Don’t Care About This Crap Nonsense About God Is Watching Him . Go To Hell Or Better , Kill Yourself .