I hit my Mother

Posted by in Family on Dec 22nd, 2010 | 4 comments

The person I call my mother really does not act like one. She drinks (a lot, everyday) but she says it is to “relax” and because it’s “nice to have a glass of wine when cooking etc”.
BULL.
She’s a total bitch and acts like she’s a teenager. She has zero respect and then she blames me for everything. I feel like throwing up when thinking about her.
THIS WOMAN IS NOT MY MOTHER! Well she is, but it’s like I don’t know her anymore, she’s changed into this awful person that torments my everyday life.
I usually end up hitting her, never in the face though. Closed fist against arm or back usually. And I don’t feel bad about it, and it’s really nothing I’m proud of either.
It’s just like, when I hit her, it’s not like I’m hitting my Mom, it’s a stranger. I hate her.

When she doesn’t drink, she’s amazing and I love my “normal” mom. I don’t know what to do. I just want her to stop drinking. It KILLS me.

4 Responses to “ “I hit my Mother”

  1. Tim says:
    December 22, 2010 at 2:44 pm

    Please stop hitting your Mom! That’s not helping her and is only a selfish act of frustration on your part. If you want to help her try to get some family members together for an intervention. Let her know how her drinking makes you feel like she’s a stranger and how alone you feel when she’s drunk. Let her know how she’s hurting you by no longer being the person you know when she’s drunk. I know it’s hard and you’re disappointed. It’s not fair to have to deal with this. But try to be kind to her regardless. She’s emotionally sick.

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  2. Saved says:
    December 22, 2010 at 4:04 pm

    Your mom is using alcohol to numb whatever pain she is feeling. She needs to go to AA and it would be good for you to go to therapy to learn how to deal with your emotions. Hitting her isn’t going to solve the problem. You will regret hitting your mom. It will haunt you one day. You both need help. I wish you the best.

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  3. Bubear50 says:
    December 22, 2010 at 7:23 pm

    She is a boozer and she will never change. Join the army and leave home

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  4. Anna says:
    December 27, 2010 at 6:27 am

    I know this feeling all too well. I know how much it sucks and how it tears you apart. No matter what I say, I can’t make it better. All I can say is I’m sorry xxx

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