I hate my life – I was in a very abusive relationship – my kids hated their dad, and eventually I got myself strong enough to take the kids and leave. My kids really really hated him and begged me to get us away for well over 18 months. But a month after leaving my daughter threw it all back in my face and left with him – he bought her – no doubt about it – all the stuff I couldnt do plus no discipline. 3 years on and I wish I was back there, being abused and fed up with life – because atleast I had my girl – now Im still as sad and pissed off – so I didnt achieve anything by leaving because I lost her. And there is no way back and no way forwards – so this is it until I die – and I hate saying it but I hope it happens sooner rather than later.