I hate my father
Posted by Anonymous in Family on Dec 6th, 2008 | 8 commentsI hate my father. He treated my sibling and I like sports machines. We were only athelets when we won. He forced us to listen to motivational tapes and read books designed for motivating salespeople, beginning at the age of 8. As life progresssed, as long as I was producing gold medals I was left alone. When I decided to give up my sport, I was ridiculed and made to feel stupid, lazy, worthless. I became a burden to him, no longer the one to make him a big man in front of friends and co-workers. He never told me he was proud, I assumed he was because he didn’t berrate me like he did my brother.
He owned his own company. I was never allowed to get a job outside of his company. He went so far as to change my major during a college orientation because I was not allowed to have my own life. He owned me!
While in college, I dated a verbally and physically abusive man. He raped me. I tried to come home, to a place which should have been safe. Only to have my father tell me, men want things and you should have given it to him. Its not like you have never had sex before. I was instructed to take the abusive man back. I refused. College was no longer paid for and I was forced back to work for him as payment for the college education I wasted.
My mother was always verbally abused. He would neverthink of hitting her because trophy wife needed to look perfect! Although words do not cause bruises, they do cause scars. He was never faithful to her. His mistress actually showed up to my mother’s funeral!
During her four year battle with breast cancer, he deprived her of any luxuries, he said there was no money, of course he blamed me for that as I was a failure in running the company.
Six weeks after Mother died, he began to date other women. Lavishly bestowing gifts on them taking them for trips and cruises…all the things mother wanted to do before she died. He said he had a new found freedom. All the while preventing me from getting a raise to support my growing family.
He hated my husband. My husband valued me. To my father I was a breeder and a waste of oxygen.
Eventually my father married a girl my age with very materialist desires. He had put on airs he was weathier than he actually was. She and he blew through 250,000 in less than six months. He then began to blame my husband and I for his financial problems. Once again blaming us for not running a company we never wanted the way it should have been run. Although, we have no power in the company.
Our office manager was stealing from the company. I told my father she was, and he said I was wrong and she was a god send. We are currently in the middle of a law suit against the office manager for
embezzling 100,000. He still hasn’t admitted he was wrong.
Now, he continues to cheat, lie and spend money like it grows on trees. I have realized, I hate him. I have tried to make him proud, I am through trying. He wants so badly to mistreat me as well as my children. I have a suprise for him, I have started my own firm. I will be able to leave him high and dry in a few months. His new will says if he dies, I have to pay his whore wife for a company I helped start. Ha! I will leave her with a floundering company and him with a wife who will eventually leave him because he is broke! He threw away the only person who cared for him. Now I don’t care and I am proud of myself for becoming what I am, in spite of him.
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well… you are lucky…you will soon get rid of him…i hate my father too…he is just like yours except we do not have so much money…i’m 26 e he doesn’t want me to marry…he hates my bf…don’t know why, he’s a very good man..we’re together for 3 years now, and it’s all secret for my father..only my mother knows and loves my bf…also, my father doesn’t let me move from away from home…and i feel like I don’t want to live anymore…why should I?…what for?…he doesn’t beat us…but psihicaly we are tired…i can’t bare it anymore…if i talk to a man he says i’m a whore…he has cancer and he will die eventualy…but until then i don’t think i will stand it anymore…i am not happy he’ll die – or am i? – but i will be free and happy…but till then…who knows how many years i’ll have to stand him….i HATE him so much…now he’s eating and i hate the way he eats soup…god will punnish me for hating my father so munch…i would like to make him suffer just like he’s making me…o..and my father abused me too yours didn’t….i’m sorry for your mother…but be happy you have your husband and kids…love them , be happy, make your father suffer, or not..forgive him…and go on…you are free…i wanna die..i have lost strenght to fight…
been a while since i last read some confessions. your story made me sad at first, but after reading made me happy for you. you are strong on the inside despite, the person who could be there for you, good and bad, is out nowhere with some women and spending money like ***t! i think your father is sad in some way. have you tried talking to him before this happened? your father should have seen you as a grown-up woman now. after letting you listen to those self-motivating tapes and improvement and stuff, you learned. and your hands-on with this situation you are into made you the best person inside and out! no wonder you are so proud of yourself! good luck with your plan!
Good for you, something similar happened to me and I also left my father with his too young, too greedy wife (which is 5 years younger than me).
Now she left him with nothing but my half brother who’s only 3 years old, now he asks me and my fiance for help using the poor child as an excuse, so after me and my fiance get married, which is very soon, we are going to file for custody of my little brother I wouldn’t want him to have to go through the same I had to go through with him, since I was also raised just by him because my mother (which I can not forgive ether) had left when I was 5 because she was tired of the verbal and physical abuse, yet I wish she would had taken me too because I was also verbal and physically abused by him.
But I think now he is getting what he deserves, and I wish it would be more.
Good for you! You are you, and you belong to NO ONE, not even your father. I hope you never stop fighting for yourself and the people you love and care about!
Do what you are doing out of self preservation not out of spite. I think you are justified in doing what you are doing and what you are feeling, but remain honorable in all that you do. Best wishes and blessings for the new year.
You go girl! You’ve tried long enough. It sounds as if nothing you do can or will ever please him. Now that you’re married, you have your own life to look after. Live your dreams, not your father’s nightmares.
God bless u be strong and good luck with ur company make ur kids happy and u and ur husband ar going to be happy remember God is watching and u been a good daugther he will give u all u need take care and God bless u ….
I find your strength very impressive.
I hope you continue to live your life for yourself, your spouse, and your children from now on.
I think you are doing exactly what you should be doing. Congratulations.