I am 20 years old University student, and I treat my parents horribly. I am second year student in a University somewhere in Japan, and I live in student dormitories during the semesters. During vacations I leave Japan to spend the time with my parents. Important thing you guys should know is that, they are freaking amazing loving parents. Unfortunately, I am a short tempered person and tend to get pissed of at my parents and yell at them. Once I have calmed down and relaxed, I start feeling bad and regretting. When that happens many other worries start rushing into my brain, mainly things such as the fact that my parents are amazing and I treat them bad, they are getting old, but they also have another 12 year old son, and 8 year old daughter to take care of, and I do nothing to help them with that. They help me finance some part of the life I live in Japan, they pay the tuition fee of my Uni, which is 5 thousand dollars a year, and help a little bit for pocket money (although I do work part time as a manual labor). And after all that, I treat them Like crap. Do not get me wrong, I love them. The biggest problem with me is that I am a closed and private person, you could say I am anti social. With that being said, I can never get to tell them what I feel. These thoughts haunt me every night. And this is the first time I am letting it out of my self.
Sorry if the text is unorganized, I need to continue study