Hated homeschooling my girls
Posted by Anonymous in Family on Jun 4th, 2011 | 5 commentsMy husband insisted we homeschool our kids from the beginning for academic reasons, not religious (although we are Christian). I have an adult son with disabilities who goes somewhere during the day. Our other kids are an 11yo boy and twin girls age 9. The boy is continuing to be home schooled, but starting this fall we are sending the girls to a new charter school. I am excited that I will finally have some time for myself!
I have been depressed for the past ten years and on various anti-depressants. My boy is like me, needs alone time the majority of the day. I don’t disagree with the philosophy of homeschooling, just don’t think it is right for mothers who are creative and need time alone.
I am scared to death it won’t work out and they will end up at home again! My plan B is to enroll them in a virtual school, even though there are no free ones in our state.
I feel like crying almost every day just from the stress of being around them. Our son was diagnosed with Asperger’s last summer, and that includes a lot more to deal with. Should I feel guilty about wanting time alone?
The girls found a journal I wrote a few years ago about how much I hated them, so I am thankful to have this blog. Although I also have confessed to my priest; I am Eastern Orthodox Christian.
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There is nothing wrong with wanting time for yourself. Everyone needs time alone, even if its just an hour a day. Try not to worry about weather or not charted school will work. Worrying will get you absolutely nowhere instead enjoy the time you have free right now. Read a book, go for a walk, do what you want to do. If you ever become desperate you could do public school. There are many public school with AP classes that offer and excellent education. Do a little research maybe you can find one close to you. Home schools great to but if you are desperate for more time alone maybe you could find a public school with excellent education programs.
Katie, thank you! As time goes on (days, weeks), I am getting used to the idea. Unfortunately in our city, public school is not an option, the environment is very bad. Like “Waiting for Superman” bad.
Things are getting better now that some new home schooled girls their age moved in a few houses down. They go play at their house a lot in the afternoons.
Of course it is normal to want time for yourself- who doesn’t. You have to manage to make time for you because no one else will. Do something- how sad your girls found a journal where you said you hated them.It is unfortunate but true that the mother makes the house be it good or bad..I think time alone or whatever you need would be better than your kids feeling hated.
Helen, thank you for your response. My girls are enrolled in a new charter school and will start this fall. They are very excited and I think it will be a great opportunity for all of us.
I also like having more time to myself than most people… Everyone is different. Enjoy having time by yourself to create. :)