I’ve beaten up or been beaten up by every member of my immediate family at some point in my life, even as a young child. I’ve hit my mother, been beaten with a belt by my father, been knocked out by a 2×4 piece of wood, saw my brother throw my mother through a glass window, and many more other instances. When I was little, I thought this was normal, but as I’ve grown up, I realized else wise. I purposely went to a school far away from my parents for college because they drive me insane. They make this temper come out of me that doesn’t exist around anyone else.
And I’m afraid to open up to anyone or even have a family of my own someday because I don’t want this cycle of abuse to continue.
I would suggest seeking help from a professional like a counsellor to help you with the pain and temper you feel. Best of luck to you.
Please don’t let this horrible experience you have lived with your family close you off to other people and enjoying life. I had a difficult childhood, and so did many of the wonderful people I know. If you open up, you may be surprised at who can commiserate with you. The horrid feelings fade over time, but counseling can help and may be free through your college. Therapy was one of the best gifts I gave myself. It’s not for the weak; it’s for the strong who dare face their hardships. Good luck.
Sounds like the family I grew up in, I haven’t had contact with them for 5 years and I’m happier than I could have imagined I could be. Some people are just toxic, good luck
You are amazing!
Just the fact that you were able to recognize this is a wonderful step to healing. Once you are aware of the situation, it has less power over you.
Yes, counseling could help. Also, meditation or yoga. Being honest in your relationships is key! Communicate these fears to any partner you have. Don’t keep it a secret.
Really though, all the advice in the world can’t really help. You sound like you know what is best for you. Good job taking care of yourself.