Just bitching

My mom is getting on in age. I fluctuate between petrifying fear of losing her and annoyance at her constant maladies. Not much can be done. Arthritis. Pain in her knees. Pain in her heels. I feel horrible hearing it. Her quality of life is suffering. I tell her to stay with me. It she doesn’t want that. She doesn’t like my husband that much … Continue reading Just bitching

I’ve Decided

I’m getting an abortion. It saddens me deeply, but I’m not sure if it makes me sadder than the thought of my now-newborn going without. My husband and I are just barely scraping by each month. I can’t bring another child into this. I would choose adoption, but I have friends who have, and the amount of hate and vitriolic comments they get over their … Continue reading I’ve Decided

Worthless

I am worthless and I want to die sometimes. The only thing that keeps me alive are my children and the thought of them growing up without a mommy. Other than that, I am the crap on the bottom of my husband’s shoe. I am transparent to him and all I’m good for is taking care of the kids and a means to an end. … Continue reading Worthless

I hate my daughter-in-law and wish she would die every day

My DIL is mentally ill; I suspect borderline personality disorder, but she’s never been diagnosed. She treats my son like dirt, screaming, throwing fits, throwing him out of the house all the time. I have bit my tongue for years, but I finally told him how I feel. Now he isn’t speaking to me. I pray that he will finally have enough and leave her. … Continue reading I hate my daughter-in-law and wish she would die every day