I’m sitting in my closet thinking about if I should hang myself today. I’m a single mom of a 15 month old son and it’s the hardest thing ive ever done.. being a single parent with minimal help is frustrating. I’ve always been “suicidal” I guess but now that I’m going crazy it’s becoming more real ( the death thoughts) .. I don’t wanna die. But sometimes I don’t wanna live on this earth or be around anyone because everyone sucks. I just wanna be happy.. where is that? Not in my closet clearly. I really hope I don’t ever kill myself.. I truly don’t think I will but I plan it out in my head every time I feel like dying.