I’m 16. I’ve had extremely severe anxiety and depression all my life. I’ve talked to countless doctors, councilors, therapists, psychiatrists, and I’m only getting worse. I dropped out of school 3 years ago and am still behind. I don’t have friends and I don’t want to have friends. The closest thing I’ve ever had to a father was an abusive step-dad who I lived with for most of my life. I can’t do anything on my own, I don’t leave the house. I clean all day long. Everyday. I just want it to end. I’ve been having thoughts of suicide every single night for over 5 years now. I’m not going anywhere in life and I really don’t want to. The only thing keeping me alive is my boyfriend who a lot of the time I wish I had never met because I couldn’t do that to him. I don’t know what to do. There’s no one I can talk to about this. I need help. I need it to end.