I have been a nice person for what it takes. My job wants me nice and tolerant. I went through a helluva training period followed by a strenuous career start. Got married and have an adorable little kid. My ambitions are way ahead of my finances. I have a killing chronic back pain that requires disc surgery according to some doctors. Maybe it’s the depression from pain, may be the feeling of unappreciation at work and never getting any decent appraisal, maybe the low funds issue. Maybe because I never enjoyed really Marital life or sex life. I considered committing suicide more than once. It’s that small image of my smiling little boy that holds me together. I am a young doctor and I am sick of hearing people complain when I don’t have time or money to do so. I am overly sensitive and I have nothing to do about it. I work for more than 60 hours a week excluding transportation time and that kills my back even more. Please I know I may have been a bad person lately but I want to die peacefully without disgrace. I don’t want suicide.