So I was diagnosed with depression by my doc when i was 16, and took meds till 18 when health insurance wouldnt pay for it no more and it became a real hassle. I am 20 now. I try everyday to stay positive, and have worked to live happy and carefree. The only time i struggle is on holidays for some reason. I decided to throw a new years party to avoid the full on assault. Pay for big party lots of food and invite 30 of my dearest friends and family. The only one to show up was my best friend and his girlfriend for an hour. Im grateful for them but it hurt when no one else came or called to tell me they weren’t going to show up. What is wrong with me? Am i stupid to set myself up for failure like that? Is it just me?