I can’t stop messing up

I’m 23 and I keep drinking to the point of blacking out. I wake up regretting everything and hating life. It’s driving my loved ones away. The longest in a couple years I’ve been sober was a month. I just have no idea what to do with myself sober. I hate everything about myself and am so uninterested in anything. I wouldn’t kill myself but I think about dying all the time.

2 thoughts on “I can’t stop messing up

  1. One life.. are u not going to give it ur all? Can a habit or euphoric state define u to such extent that you become so distant from urself ? No.. we form habits n we can break it.. we start our chain of thoughts n we can stop it. You are born to witness the power of being your true self. I dont know what that is but im giving life a tough fight to find out. Come on..lets do this together

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