Anxiety for the Future

I’m only 16 but I plan my future life so much that I’ve become intensely unhappy with what I have now. I live in a huge ass city and all I want is to live in the forest. I see people every day and all I want is to see animals and no humans for the rest of my life. I’m now terrified that the life I’ve always wanted may never come. I have to sit through another year in high school. Then 4 years of college. And then I might have to come back to the city to work. I think I’d rather jump from a building rather than be locked in a city all my life.

9 thoughts on “Anxiety for the Future

  1. Please don’t despair! If your high school has any agricultural classes, or environmental management classes, take them! Then find a college close to a national park. Look into working or interning for the National Park Service. There are jobs out there that won’t keep you locked in concrete. And also know that your love for nature is a gift that you can share with others who need that. It may feel like a hindrance now, but it is a gift that is waiting for you to develop it.

  2. I totally know what you mean, I felt almost the same when I was 16. These Humans sicken me!! Now I am 32, and I can tell ja…it gets worse. But one thing chages, through suffering, you learn to somewhat accept it…or handle it if you are lucky. Or take Drugs alc, whatever to get numbed down. For me, it didn’t really get better. But worse. I am thinking about suicide every day really. I don’t want to get your hopes down. This is how it turned out for me, but I failed in life. You, on the other hand, have all doors open!
    There is only one human you can trust and that is you. Believe in you, and maybe achieve what you seek.

  3. Getting a degree in a field that is in demand is your ticket to live as close to nature as you seem to want to be. You can do this! Go for it.

  4. I am assuming you are male only because your sentiments are almost always those of certain introverted young males. Do you feel rejected by those you have crushes on, ignored by or nothing in common with peers? Socially frustrated? Don’t worry so much about them, high school classmates will be gone from your life and each others’ lives in a couple years never to return. Work on self improvement. Work out. Go running, start biking. Take risks. Immerse yourself in things you love doing. Even your family (if they are clipping your wings) won’t matter so much once you’re on your own. Apply for programs like WWOOF to get out of the country and gain new insights on life. Try working at a national park like Grand Tetons, take advantage of foreign Youth Work / Working Holiday Visas before age 30 and immerse yourself in learning a foreign language. I thought I hated cities too until I discovered how great cities in foreign countries are! You’ll start to love people again. All these things open so many doors for you that you wouldn’t have known existed if you played it safe and stayed in your comfortable little bubble.

  5. Study Forestry! At the most rural college you can find. Maybe after a year or so in the sticks, you’ll change your mind. I’m so proud of you for having dreams and goals for your life. I felt stuck as a teenager too but it’s not true. You’re just revving your engine and one day before you know it, you’ll take off like a race car!

  6. Okay, so why not plan to move to a rural area and also choose a college in such a place? Your problem is easily surmountable.

  7. You don’t have to go to college and work at the city.
    Find a small town close to a forest or nature and get a job enough for rent money or rent a room from someone …seems like you don’t care about human achievements so why waste your time with that just try to make the best of your current situation …

  8. When I was 16 I felt very stuck too, it’s a point where you don’t have much control over your life so most people feel frustrated. I thought I’d do something dull at university and end up in a dead end job. It took a long period of depression for me to realise I wasn’t where I wanted to be. By being self reflective I was able to take small steps to do what I actually wanted to do. I took a year off and worked, experimenting with different art forms independently and in groups at workshops I googled. This led me to pursue film school and now I’m making films, documentaries and learning how to sound design in a town by the sea living with people I like. It’s all about breaking things down into smaller steps so you’re not overwhelmed by the future. What can you do after school that will lead to a better life? Work to travel and live in a farm so you can be around animals? Research volunteering schemes etc. It can feel like you have nothing to look forward to it that state but you don’t know what the future holds.

  9. Wrong! The life you want can start in a year. Just find a college out in the country. Many college towns are smaller, and close to the countryside. You may not need to live on campus either.

    Now you’re not going to be able to go without seeing people, but you can certainly minimize the number you see compared to your current situation.

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