i was an innocent girl, had a bf didnt last. then got with a new guy. i loved him but he pressured me and was jealous…for the past 2 years he has been mean and treated me like property. if hes not doing that he is just iignoring me and he doesnt show me love and attention. im going through depression and anorexia. i recently slept with my ex. am i just a horrible person?? i shouldnt have done it. i dont know whats wrong with me.
I love you. Whoever you are, wherever you are, whatever you’ve done, I love you. I could be the elderly clerk at the grocery store, I could be your boss, I could be the person that serves you your morning coffee. But that’s not important. What’s important is for you to know that, whoever I am, wherever I am, there is someone out there in the world that loves you, just you…
You are NOT a horrible person. You are going threw so much right now. People make mistakes. Honestly, i know you may love a guy right now, You feel guilty but you should forgive yourself, & with everything your going threw you should be focusing on yourself & love yourself more than both of them or anyone else. Try your best to be healthy mind & body first before you worry about somone else. I hope you get threw all of this & find happiness in yourself. =)
You know that you shouldnt be with him. Its NEVER right to be with someone who treats you like dirt. A real boyfriend should make you feel special – and yes, a relationship should have its ups and downs. But he hasnt changed, and he wont.
You deserve better than him, and its hard, but you know that the first step towards healing is to break up and move on. Dont let yourself be pulled in by his crap, and surround yourself with people who make you happy.
Good luck. :)
Leave him. No you are not a horrible person we all need to feel loved.