I had a red pill moment last year where all of a sudden I saw the world for what it really is. I had been living in a cult. The world soon was a new place filled with wonderful color and beauty instead of black and white. I married a wonderful woman and had a son with her. The moment that I came forward with my feelings to her our relationship dynamic changed. I feel resented instead of loved most days. My family has shunned me and fears me. Most of the people that I called friends have left me. I want to be understood! I want my family out of this cult. I am not the devil, I am not possessed, and I am not deceived by a devil. I want my wife to wake up and realize that the real devil is the dogma that she swallows blindly. When the leader says jump she jumps like a zombie. It hurts to see them being controlled. It hurts to have my family tell me I am i liar and sinner for pointing out that the dogma and doctrine has contradicted reality, and itself several times.