Confusion
Posted by Sarah in Confused on May 25th, 2010 | 5 commentsI’m so confused I don’t know how to confess. I think I eat just to hurt myself. I’ve started slapping myself round the head and I bit my arm the other day so hard it’s left a bruise. I hate doing anything I have to do because I feel like the stakes are too high. I’m 19 and I’m afraid of getting old and dying alone. I wish I was as pretty as I was when I was 10 and everybody told me so. I wish I had the balls to go off the rails. I wish food disgusted me. I wish I had the stamina to be anorexic again.
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Really! Your old at 19? I should have been old along time ago then. Seriously, you need to go find some help and live a life. Don’t sit there and whine about it, go do something about it.
I’m sorry that you’re so confused these days. Alot of people your age don’t like themselves, or their bodies either.
It sounds like you need somebody to talk to about it, or it’ll get worse. Is there a friend, or family member that would be able to listen to you? IF not, then maybe a professional counselor might help. There are feelings that you need to let out, and holding them in isn’t working for you!
Alot of people also have the fear the being old, and dying alone.. This is something that would also benefit from being talked about with someone..
When we feel this way we often feel isolated, and alone. Please always remember that you are NEVER alone.. These feelings are felt by alot of people just like you!
I hope you find someone to talk to, and learn to give yourself some self love.
Good luck!
Dont let your looks bother you it doesnt matter what you look like i have a tumor over my right eye that makes me stand out i got made fun of all my life and as i got older people stoped making fun of me now im 29 and have a girlfriend who is pregnent with twins so dont let your looks bother you there is someone out there for everyone
I understand what your going through. I’ve physically abused myself the way you have before. It seems like the emotional pain you have is worse then any physical abuse you cause to yourself. But the feeling of self abuse causes such a depression and it feels like nothing can pull you out of it. Please find something about yourself to accept and love. You’re too young to give up on the rest of your life. Plus, if you feel better about something (even if it seems small) other people will want to be around you
You’re half Gay? Like what? You have a marvelous sense of fashion but decorate your home like a frat boy?