Secret Confessions

I think I’m in love with a guy that is at least 15 years older than me, married and with 2 kids. I say “I think” because I’m not really sure whether it is love or just a not-to-last passion. God, I’m not sure bout what I feel.

I do love hearing his honeyed voice and I do love the warmness of his body when he embraces me. Besides, I’ve already dreamed of kissing him and doing other stuff. He just makes the world feel all right, and I feel really protected when I’m in his warm arms…He’s got this easy breathing, this calmness in his eyes that makes me feel…balanced.

Thing is, I think I’m in love with him because I had an absent father…And now, I’m trying to fill the missing gap that my father left in my heart and mind.

Oh God, I wish I could take him out of my mind.

And, of course, I would NEVER, NEVER make something in order to harm his relationship.