32 and lost
Posted by Anonymous in Confused on Jun 21st, 2010 | 5 commentsI think I’m lost. Actually I know I am. IM 32 and Im penny less. I have kept up the charade of being worth something to my friends and family but in all honesty I’m living barely , I think I have some mental heath issues. I have been to therapy as a teen and even be incarcerated in an institute in the past but now i feel I should seek help again or perhaps re evaluate my being in the public as I am not coping well with my surroundings ATM. I’m not saying I’m a danger to anyone or anything awe-full like that I’m just thinking that its getting worse not better and I believe I might need professional help. Now heres the kicker> I have a young daughter and I’m not with her mom for many a reason, Now if i go to get help that gos on my record and I loose any chance of getting visitation when it comes time to go to court .. and it looks like that time is coming soon. Mind you I’m here typing this sitting alone On fathers day so i’m sure thats not helping my mood. So on top of it all. I find my self with out faith to turn to or hope of anything other than a bleak future. All in all at least i have my health right. ?
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Been there done that I’m 32 and although I’ve got custody of mine there was a time when I didn’t. And went through the exact same issue with feeling like crap when I didnt get to see her at Fathers Day.
Hang in there man… don’t let them win.
Showing signs of illness can also hurt your chances. I suggest getting help which will show that you are trying which can can actually help your cause. I wish you all the luck!
Well sweetie, I can certainly identify with you. I am 42 and pennyless yet I still try and live a fashionalbe life style with my friends. My kids are grown and not dependant on me any more so I now have the rest of my life to make it and so can you, you are still young.
If your afraid to seek help maybe just begin with talking to some one or write a journal. That help me release my frustrations. And as for your child, Be praising, supportive and a friend to the mother, that may work in your favour regarding visition rights.
I wish the best for you with the upmost success.
Hang in there! My dad actually had some related difficulties when he and my mom divorced. I was ten years old at the time. Back then, his psychological problems had become bad enough that he had trouble being the supportive father he wanted to be and was difficult to relate to. He was afraid to get help.
Much time has passed. I am now 22, and I value my relationship with my dad. There are many years ahead for us. He didn’t get custody, and only limited visitation, but we were able to talk online and by phone, and visitation increased as time went on. The thing that has made the most difference in my relationship with my dad is that he eventually got help and was better.
If you get help, I know your daughter will understand that you are doing it for her. As a daughter, I’m sure it will mean a lot to her. Relatedly, I developed some similar difficulties to my dad’s; I think it might be genetically linked. But I’m in a loving relationship and getting help. My boyfriend is really happy that I’m taking care of myself and that it’s in part because I care about being able to be there for him in return. I know from my dad that I’m doing the right thing.
Hang in there! I know you’ll be a good dad to your daughter. Think long term. :). Good relationships mean taking care of yourself so you can really be there for those you care about, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I hope you get to see her lots!
Thats a great story. I separated from my ex two years ago and since then have developed a very strong bond with my stepdaughter. She treats me as if I am her father and loves me as such. But, because I have no legal rights at all and am not really entitled to any, struggle constantly with mixed emotions and a terrible fear that her mom might just one day pull the rug out from under me or manipulate her into cutting me out of the picture. This would devastate me … and hurt my daughter in a huge way, because no one really understands just how close we are and how much she relies on me for emotional support. The fact that shes 16 and going thru all of the stuff that comes at that age just makes it even more hard. I feel like I am walking a tightrope all of the time. With no safety net at all.