It happened twice
Posted by Anonymous in Childhood on Jun 4th, 2009 | 12 commentsWhen I was about 13 years old my younger sister and I used to get naked and practice pashing each other and touching each other. It only happened twice but it haunts me every day. I am married now to a wonderful husband and my sister and I are really close but I am so afraid that I have hurt her and I know now how wrong it was at the time. I go to church every weekend and pray that God will forgive me every day. It makes me feel sick that it ever happened. I wish I could take it back.
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hey, while i can’t say that i fully understand what ur goin thru, all i can say is that GOD has heard your prayer and pliz don doubt yourself. u can handle this by not tellin ua sister or your spouse coz by telling GOD you have made the load a lot easier. so make ua family happy,make uaself happy. we make mistakes but we need to lock some inside and share them with GOD then let him handle the rest.am sure u’ll be ok.
These are things teenagers do so stop beating yourself up over it. Sound to me that your sister has moved on but youre letting guilt eat you alive.
God forgave you a long time ago. YOU haveta forgive yourself. I would venture to say that it was probably YOU who initiated all that kissing and feeling each other up and this is why you are feeling the way you are feeling.
I would also venture to say that I think you are bisexual and you are having a hard time admitting this to yourself and you look at your sister as the catalyst of your sexual deviation.
You might want to seek a therapist and work on all this burden you are carrying on your shoulders.
Good Luck
You only have to ask God for forgiveness once. Get over it.
This type of thing is fairly normal. You were barely a teen and feeling your new sexuality and there were very few outlets for it. We live in a pretty repressed society. What you did was the act of a sexually explorative child. And your sister probably feels fine about it.
I would talk to your sister about how you feel. If you feel the need to, tell her you are sorry. She prob. has forgotten it happened, I’m sure she doesn’t blame you, and once you realize that you’ll feel better. And yeah you should prob. talk to a psychologist, most people do not have this much guilt. From my perspective, you did nothing wrong, especially considering what some of the other people on this site have done. ^_^
Isaiah 1:18
Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool.
1 John 1:9
On the other hand, if we admit our sins–make a clean breast of them–he won’t let us down; he’ll be true to himself. He’ll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing.
Similar things happened to me and some friends each at different intervals, and like those before me have said its just sexual exploration, for a while i beat myself up about whether i was “gay” or not but i’ve since discovered my sexuality (im straight) and finally feel i can move on. What you did was not wrong,
this may be an old post but I just felt the need to comment…
when I was little I used to play with my parts and even at one point found myself stuck in a closet with my best playmate and was asked by him to touch his private…
this kinda slipped my mind during my child hood growing up and then came back to haunt me when I got older
I used to feel guilty all the time about it till I had a moment of clarity.. its not my fault I was to young to understand but way to curious for my own good I have a feeling most kids are like this when they are young because their parents talk about fairytale like stuff instead of being real with their kids…
at least for me
Why are you feeling guilty?
you were a teenager and it felt good at the time or otherwise you wouldnt have done it.
do you want believe in a god that will punish you for something you are regreted ?
I did the same thing when I was a kid, with my two female cousins. I hate that it ever happened.
Now when I look back on it, I feel disgusted and pray all the time about it.
I think you are going to be okay though.
You aren’t thinking it was fun or anything and you know it was wrong…
God forgives people that are sorry for doing things…
well, at least thats what I think
Holy moly I just couldn’t fancy my sister!
i know what youre going through. it totally tears you up inside and i know how you wish desperately it had not happened but it’s a misatake we did and have to repent on.