I CAN’T FORGET MY PAST…

Posted by in Childhood on Jul 13th, 2008 | 3 comments

WHEN I WAS 14-15 I WASNT POPULAR AT SCHOOL , AND HADN’T ALOT OF FREINDS BECAUSE I WAS A SENSIBLE AND A SHY GIRL…AND I USED TO SEE ALL MY CLASS MATES(GIRLS) GOING OUT WITH GUY AND ORGANIZING DINNERS AS A GROUP! I WAS JEALOUS AND ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE NONE OF THEM INVITED ME TO SOMETHING…SO I TOOK A REVENGE AND I WENT OUT WITH 8 GUYS AT THE SAME TIME EVERYWEEKEND! I USED TO FLIRT WITH EVERYGUY AND SOMETIMES GIVE THEM ORAL…I WAS STILL A VIRGIN AT THE TIME.. I COULDNT REFUSE TO GIVE THEM PLEASURE…BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT THIS WAY I WOULD BE LIKE MY CLASS MATES AND BECOME POPULAR !AND THEY USED TO THREATEN ME AND TOUCH ME HARDLY…BUT I CONTINUED TO PLEASE THEM…I DIDNT KNW THAT BITCHING WAS SOMETHING HORRIBLE….TILL THIS TIME , I STILL CANT FORGET THE DAY I USED TO HAVE THINGS WITH THOSE GUYS, BECAUSE I FEEL GUILTY AND PAIN AND HURT AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF AND BECAUSE I CAN’T TELL MY PARENTS :( IF THEY WILL KNOW ABT WHAT I DID, THEY WILL NOT SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!I WOULD HAVE CAUSED A DAMAGE TO THE FAMILY!

3 Responses to “ “I CAN’T FORGET MY PAST…”

  1. Peter says:
    July 21, 2008 at 2:25 am

    listen to me you don’t have to be ashame of your past because you only want to have all the attention in the world. I know that you have done bad but you always have to think what is convinient to you. I’m a boy and I will never do that to a girl if she isn’t my wife for example.

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  2. Nour says:
    June 18, 2009 at 7:22 pm

    i know…you’re so right…but i can’t forget them ( faces names ) and the places were i went with them….i saw once 2 of the guyz in a mall 2 years ago…and when they saw me….they turned their head…as if im so embarasing and started to talk…..i just wanna forget them and what ive done…..should i talk to a psychiatrist or a a priest?

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  3. D says:
    July 7, 2009 at 7:14 am

    its ok, do not let your past affect your future. move on.. take care

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