did u think it was ok, to molest little kids
Posted by Anonymous in Childhood on Jul 24th, 2010 | 3 commentsmy brother is perfect and chill and smart he’s really nice to me maybe he’s trying to make up for the fact he let his best friend molest me for several years when i was 5. his best friend is my 2nd cousin he was a teenager then. one day he asked me if i wanted to do something fun i didn’t know what it was but i though it was normal. he touched me in front of my brother and my brother didn’t do shit, he let it all happen. my brother is still best friends with my cousin and i see my cousin all the time he acts like nothing ever happened and is nice to me and for some reason i feel like i have to impress him. every time he comes over i try to get away from him and every time he gets to close i back away i think he remembers what he did and knows why i act the way i do. i hope it kills him inside, mean i know, but **** him :). sadly i wish i had their kind of friend ship.
because of this i cut off myself and was very quiet as a child this completely ruined my childhood. I told my friend. she laughed. she doesn’t believe me and she’s always complaining about her life and how she was suicidal, because her parents got divorced.
I am a bastard child my parents divorced when i was born (maybe i bring bad luck to people) i had a special bond with my dad (after they were divorced) until one day he randomly disappeared he came back this year I’m 14 he is really happy with his new family they live down the street. i have to hid this from my mom or else she would make us move (which wouldn’t be too bad) only me my brother and my grandma know of his residence there and i have too visit him secretly (but he doesn’t know i have to be secret about it). i pass his house everyday going to school i’m glad he’s happy :)
and i think my step dad secretly hates me but pretends to like me for my mom who is a selfish bitch and acts like she’s the only one who makes and effort. she always compliments herself and complains,
maybe thats why i was interview constantly when i told a friend i was going to kill myself when i was 10 and she told on me. the next day police showed up on my doorstep saying they had to talk to me it made my whole family miserable to my friend – guess what bitch, i don’t give a shit go complain to someone else.
-sorry i felt i had to say something
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You sound like an amazingly bright 14 year old. What happened to you is terrible, I’m so sorry! I can sympathize with you. I was molested repeatedly at that age 5 also.
I understand that you don’t want to tell your mom but I think you really should and let her know at the same time that you need professional help. IMO there’s no other way to get over the trauma of sexual abuse unless you have someone to talk to. Therapy will help in a variety of ways: It will help you get things out, it will help you learn ways to be safe so this never happens to you again (not unusual among survivors to be re- victimized) It can help you have healthier relationships. IMO, it will also make your mother be accountable to someone too when she is a b*tch to you. And your relationship with her may become better. IMO this “cousin” should be held accountable for what he did to you.. If not, I understand but just my opinion..
Believe me, I could go on and on about this subject, I have VERY strong feelings about it. Not only was I molested (repeatedly) one of these supposed “family members” molested my child too (I’m a 43 yo female) I was in such denial, in some ways I feel like I let it happen and it’s difficult to not blame myself instead I continue to work on it in therapy.
You did say something interesting to me, that I have never heard any other survivor say (you’d be surprised we all have very similar symptoms) You feel that you have to impress this “cousin” I always felt the same way in regards to my family, huh! You gave me something to think about.. Please feel free to ask me anything on this subject, also there’s a great group on Facebook, it’s called Overcoming Sexual Abuse. It’s a great place to get support and understanding.. Sexual abuse takes away a persons power and control, unfortunately we need to work on getting it back and please always know: It wasn’t your fault!
I usually don’t give too much of a damn about what people think of me but it i told my mom she would tell my brother he can’t hang around my cousin anymore. then my brother would tell my cousin why (probably) and my whole family would probably hate him and i wouldn’t wish for someone to be alone not even my worst enemy. plus he lives right next to us and knows where the spare key is… i feel like i should do something but i think it is better left unsaid
I understand that it’s really scary to tell. That’s the reason why I was in such denial until I was 40 years old, so believe me, I get it. I do wish however now that I had told earlier. If I had gotten help when I was young, I would have had alot fewer problems in my life. Yes, it’s been hard to tell. And speaking of being alone? Well, my family disowned me, so I understand the feeling of being alone but in all honesty, it hurts but it’s also the best thing that’s ever happened to me. It’s gotten me away from a whole lot of yuckky, unhealthy people that I never really wanted to be around anyway.
But what I think is the most important thing to consider is this: An average pedophile molests (on average) 120 kids in their lifetime and your cousin is a pedophile. It’s also surprising how they can look like normal, everyday people but they’re everywhere.. Most victims don’t tell because of the shame, secrecy and fear. Plus these pedo’s are good at making us keep our mouths shut.
I’m also going to take a guess and assume that there’s a pretty unhealthy relationship going on between your brother and this “cousin” I really can’t even begin to speculate but I’m guessing there’s something not at all right going on there.