RSSChildhood Nightmare
When I was little I was sexually assaulted by a family member of mine. I was 7, she was 13. It went on for 3 years. It ended finally 6 years ago, but I’m still haunted by it.
I want to tell family or friends, but I fear that the truth will rip our family apart. I’ve become depressed and suicidal over it. As well, it’s made me question my sexuality (I am a girl, as was she).
I’m 16, I shouldn’t have to deal with this. But my family doesn’t deserve to deal with it either. I don’t know what to do, and I can’t talk about this to anyone.
Anonymous on January 5th 2008 in Childhood
Anonymous said on 13 Jan 2008 at 11:55 pm # Quote
so if you say nothing…you’ll end up miserable. kinda like i did and still do. if i were you, i’d say something when the opportunity arises, because i’m pretty sure your life and well being is more important than a temporary unhappiness in your family.
as for me, i’m still waiting.
angie said on 16 Jan 2008 at 7:45 am # Quote
well if you want happiness in your life you should talk to someone thats not in your family.Find someone who can help before you end up doing something to yourself and you cant come back.Remember that all things will and shall heal if you have faith in yourself and in god.
L said on 22 Jan 2008 at 7:59 am # Quote
oddly enough, i had the same thing happen to me, i am a female and my cousin was also a female. my parents did know about it and they discovered that her older brother, (which is also my cousin) had been molesting her, so she in turn did it to me. i think if you have the opportunity to talk about it and get help, DO IT. my parents just brushed it off as if it never happened. it started when i was about 8 and ended about two years later. i am 22 now and i still have nightmares about it, so PLEASE TELL SOMEONE so you can attempt to get help.
adyllae said on 06 Mar 2008 at 8:51 pm # Quote
If you can tell it to your parents, it is much better to do it right away. I have experienced the same thing, I dont know the guy, i was just about 4 or 5 but my family knows him. Let me tell you something about confessions like that. I keep it myself for almost 15 years of my life and it does not feel good. The moment i said it to my parents I was feeling totally drowned by deppresion that my parents need to take to a phychologist. I know how you feel, you might think that people will look at you as if you were so dirty if you tell your secret to them, that you were afraid if someone can accept you for who you are but the truth is that was you. You just have to let yourself free and stop pretending to be somebody else. You just have to show-off your real you. Don’t think of the people around you because you were the one who suffers long. You have to accept things the way it was and I tell you, when you let it out, you will feel as you were born again, with a different body, a different mind and a new strenght. I know you can tell it…you’ve been tellin it to yourself, why can’t you tell it to others to stop the pain inside?
a soldier said said on 09 Mar 2008 at 9:44 am # Quote
It really does help to talk things out when he opportunity arises. If it hurts you that much, why should you have to suffer? It wasn’t your fault. And obviously they didn’t care how you felt otherwise you wouldn’t feel this way. Just taking what someone gave you wether you liked it or not is wrong. Beating yourself down for it feels even worse. I’ll tell you what. In my 5 years in the military, i’ve learned that objective eyes are more threatening to a bad guy than anything else. If they won’t face themselves about what they did. Make them, and see how you feel. You can make the option about how you want to take your victory, and you can face yourself on how you handled your hidden enemies.
Writer said on 10 Apr 2008 at 10:57 am # Quote
Hello,
To respond to your support, I still haven’t said anything. It’s not that I feel dirty, guilty or anything along those lines. This really has nothing to do with me. It has to do with the person who did this to me. I can’t tell my parents because the person who did this to me is within my family. It’s an easy choice to make when you’re not faced with it, the answer is obvious, tell my family anyways. I don’t want to cause a huge hub-bub in my family, fights would pursue and seperation. I have a normal, kind and loving family, one dark secret could destroy that balance.
I wrote this in the first place because I was worried that my cousin would do it again. But I confronted her about it (actually, she was quite shocked that I still remembered), and if she does anything like this ever again. I will speak up.
I am not depressed, suicidal or guilt-ridden because of molestation. It’s probably made me a little deviant in some sexual aspects, but I can live with that. No one can change what happened and I have dealt with it.
Thank you for your thoughts and concerns. Take care.
Crimson_moon said on 13 Apr 2008 at 8:03 pm # Quote
I was 6 when my uncle started to molest me. I was 16 before I could walk away. I walk around waiting for him to come back for me. I have since moved from my home town, still at night when my roommate comes to wake me up for my grave shift sometimes I think is my uncle coming for me. I have trusted few with this secret in my life. Even of those people no one really knows what really happened they just know it happened.
I fear that telling my family would drive them farther apart. The thought of telling my dad makes me want to cry becuase I know he would have saved me. I managed telling my mother when I was in middle school, she didn’t believe me and I never spoke of it again. I’m 22 now living in a different state 3,000 miles away and I fear him.
But in time you will learn to adjust, people will tell you to talk to an adult really its up to you because we all know that ultimatly its your choice. You have to deal with you day in and out and you have to do the things that will alow you to live past this and see the other sides. Its horrid what some people are willing to do others, with out a thought of what will happen to the innocent esp a child. Seek a counsler, one out side of school because they are obligated to talk to your parents and you don’t want that just yet, but in time your will need to tell them so you can have closer.