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Hard workers finish last………

Posted by in Work on May 26th, 2011 | 6 comments

I’m married with kids. My ideas have and will change the company that I work for. I have been a direct and indirect cause of sales increasing 6 times in my area interest from 2009 to 2010. Also, with sales to double this year. I worked real hard only to have me disregard and passed up for opportunities. I have had problems with my boss with the outcome to be him making my life more difficult. He praises and promotes the workers that are his friends.

That is where the sorrow comes in. My wife and I are very good with our money. Yet, I struggle to pay bill despite all my hard and the value that I add to my company. The company says they promote with in the company, but I have been told about job only to have them given to someone else. There are many times that I don’t want to go home because I feel like a failure. Sometimes, I wish I would die and angels of glory would just come for my soul and carry me to God’s holy present. I think that someone could do a better job providing for my family than I can. I want to end it, but I want God to do it not me. I’m taking meds that have been driving me crazy lately. I think other ways to get out of my life that are less grotesque.

I’m tired of going from job to job only to have this happen again. I’m try to please everyone in my life only to have no luck with getting some where in life. I know that I not the only one who feels this way. I know that there are other people that are worst. But it does not change how I feel even if I try to get into that mind set.

I’m so outta here

Posted by in Work on Apr 28th, 2011 | 8 comments

I want to scrap everything, move to the Caribbean Islands and start over. I’ll give my two week notice at work and then quietly walk away from it all without telling anyone. Friends will only find out where I’m at when I start posting FaceBook updates from a tranquil, serene coastline with pictures of the sun setting.

Somehow I just know a way to do it will present itself to me soon.

Going Crazy

Posted by in Work on Apr 27th, 2011 | 2 comments

I love being a nurse, I love it and I don’t want to do anything else in life. At the same time, I feel like I need psychological help, and I want to get my life into order. Board of Nursing is not being helpful on whether or not that would put me in jeopardy of my license. I just want to get better, get everything squared away. I don’t want to be put on probation or constantly observed for something that has never put a patient at risk, I just want to get some peace of mind and help.

Family, friends and aquantiences think I have a great “job”, with great “co-workers” and “kids”.

Posted by in Work on Mar 3rd, 2011 | 8 comments

For the past year, I have played that I have a job working in a preschool that is an hour away.

Truth is I’m not working. While my parents think I’m at “work”, I’m at a cafe, in the library or at a public internet bar where I’m looking for actual work.

The staff at all the places I go to know who I am.

When my mom asks why I’m not showing I’m being paid, I lied and said that it is in another bank account and I’m saving for a place of my own.

I know they have had their own suspicions and even once drove past the place of “work” to see if my car was there. Which it wasn’t and I made up that I got a lift from a “co-worker” when questioned.

My own boyfriend has also been suspicous as I don’t talk about being at “work” and if I do I normally say that the kids did this or that and never give a name to any individual child.

I have had outings to various places and have to rush back home for “work”. I even make up my own hours so then it seems feesiable that I do work. My mom is so chuffed that I have a job that she will tell anyone who listens even the people in town.

Because this lie is getting to much I have taken to telling mom that I’m now doing volunteering work at said pre-school and that my “hours” have been “cut” because of some false reasons.

The other day I was at a cafe near home and a woman came up to me asking how work is. To which she told me that mom told her that my hours have been cut. So now mom is telling her friends and everyone she knows what is going on in my career.

It is getting to the point I’m in deep depression, and the money I am making is from selling items on eBay that I buy at charity shops.

I just want this nightmare to end!

How little I actually work

Posted by in Work on Mar 3rd, 2011 | 4 comments

I make my own schedule at work an get paid salary of 40 hours per week. I maybe work 4 hours a day. I screw off so much and never get caught. When my productivity dips, I just work harder for a few months until it gets back to normal. And then I screw off again.

I have even slept with prostitutes while on the clock. I want to stop and be a good person.

Enforcement of the Golden Rule

Posted by in Work on Feb 19th, 2011 | 7 comments

I’m lucky enough to work at a retail company that allows me many freedoms to take care of customers needs. I’m authorized to give up to 50% off if I deem it necessary, without contacting any supervisor. Normally, I use this power very often to make customers more than happy.

I drove 15 mi. across town to another store in my own car during my lunch break to pick up an item that we didn’t have, and bring it back to a customer. just because the guy was really nice and respectful. He couldn’t believe it.

But, when customers come in the store and insist that I do this or that, “because the customer is always right” I purposely go out of my way to not give you things. I will try my best to make sure you pay the most and get the least.

I will not accept coupons for some made up reason, I will “fail” to find the size you need in the stock-room even when there are twenty of them sitting on the shelf, I will not let you return something because of a reason that is BS.

It has nothing to do with race, gender, or anything like that. It has everything to do with you’re attitude.

A customer I “helped” paid $148 more than she would’ve had to because she basically said that I work there cause I’m too stupid and lazy go to college and get a “real” job. Never got the chance to mention that I am CURRENTLY a student at university and working two part time jobs to cover it. The company I work for is now $148 richer than they could’ve been because this lady was a total bitch.

And I feel no remorse at all for my actions. For the good and bad.

Baseball

Posted by in Work on Jan 4th, 2011 | 5 comments

My life’s dream is to pro play baseball. But I’m a girl…

I hate my path

Posted by in Work on Dec 6th, 2010 | 2 comments

I hate the course Iam studying so bad that I would rather do anything than study or write essays. I dont want to follow this path in life at all but I am so scared of disapointing my parents/family/everyone who knows me. The worst thing is I know I am good at what I do. But if I could potentially have a successful career in this field and it would lead to happiness in all other aspects of my life does this balance out the fact that I would rather be doing something else every day? I want to be able to provide for my parents and this is what motivates me (they don’t pressurise me I just pressurise myself because I know their proud of me now) So should I be more motivated by these considerations or motivated by selfishness to be content in my job.

A Trade

Posted by in Work on Dec 4th, 2010 | 4 comments

I work in health care. In my work I see people live, get better and other die or have already passed in horrible ways. These are always in the news an I find myself sometimes visiting these sites. They always have flowers blanketing the ground or the street signs. I know that these people were loved. I sometimes think that they had so much more to live for than I do and wish I could trade them places.

oops

Posted by in Work on Oct 16th, 2010 | 2 comments

I’be been with my boyfriend for almost two years now, but I have a major crush on my boss! It’s not hurting anything, it’s just very distracting while I’m at work. I fantasizeabout it constantly, but the sad part isthat I don’t find anything particularly attractive about him, just that he dwarfs me in size (I’m pretty tall) and that he actually appreciates my work. He keeps his personal life very private so I’d have no idea whether it’d ever work out, but it’s fun to imagine. I’m considering applying for a promotion that would place us on equal levels, but I can’t decide whether its because I really want it or because I want an excuse to spend more time with him. I love my boyfriend, but his mental illness is really draining most of the time, hence the fantasy. I didn’t want to share that with anyone I know, but I had to confess.

My mistake screwed up university’s finances

Posted by in Work on Jul 7th, 2010 | 14 comments

I made a stupid mistake in my code and it caused duplication of charges to the amount of 30k. After the duplicated charges were discovered another person where I work got blamed and I said nothing. The worst part is this person really thinks he screwed up and might be fired for it. But I really need this job and since I’ve fixed the code problem and since no one else ever looked at the code I will never tell and will never be caught.

I must be a Drama Queen…

Posted by in Work on Jun 9th, 2010 | 1 comment

My work colleague pisses me off. He likes to moan about his wife/work/money/wife/work all the time & I let him, regardless of my private eye rolling. Sometimes I encourage it as I feel he has no-one else to talk to.

We used to have so much fun about 18 months ago, but redundancies we’re made and our ‘group’ was seriously reduced. His moaning became a constant annoyance, and mishaps happened at work and we became angry with the company and one another. Unfortunately I was typing an email to a friend(to be honest, it was a full on bitch session about him – and it wasn’t pretty). This was never sent and I got rid of the email but stupidly I never checked it was removed from my deleted items…it wasn’t and my colleague subsequently found it.

I understand my own stupidity. I also understand how lucky I am that we have discussed this and come to an understanding and will eventually be able to ‘move forward’. Things have improved dramatically already and several issues between us have been resolved.

What I don’t understand is, this could have all been avoided if I hadn’t been so stupid. I wonder whether I subconsciously ‘crave’ drama in my life as this isn’t the first time I’ve done something so unimaginably ridiculous & not just at work. I’m fed up of hurting people.

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