Secret Confessions

I’ve been married for 6 months and my life is not what I wanted it to be. We’ve been together for 4yrs. We have great friends that may not know that we have issues. And I’m not sure she does either. I do admit Im not the king of comunication, but I feel if I tell her how I feel things would fall apart. It sounds crazy now that I vent my problems here but the sex was never exciting like I has been with other partners. I sometimes wonder if its me. But I’ve never had complaints in the past. There is definatly a trust issue with me being jelous as well as her. I think she cheated with a friend while I was in jail and she thinks I’ve cheated by reading a text on my phone. And I have but it wasnt from the girl in the text. It was with a girl I met at my job. She was 17 at the time we met and I was 28. We talked for awhile but did nothing. Then I started to fall for her as she did for me. I knew it was wrong but I wasnt happy with my marriage. She gave me something my life was lacking and I think it was sexual attention. She wanted me and she made sure I knew it. We had some of the best sex Ive ever had. She was 17 and I was her first. I felt horrible after she told me that. Things with me and her got a little to deep and she knew I wasnt going to leave my wife so she had to stop seeing me. We still talk and email but very little. I wish my life was different and I could be happy. If my wife would just want me like the girl I had an affair with wanted me my life would be much better. I feel like my wife is not attracted to me and if anyone has felt that before then you know how I feel.

i do not know if you still look here after your Minor upset in march. i told You that your husband was CheAting on you since onLy A couple of Months AfteR you were mArried. you choSe to believe your lying sack of shit husband. you told hiM whAt youR sourCe of information was, and it put me at ConsiderAble risk. you may find this difficuLt to understAand, but i Actually like the person you are, that is why i tried to bring this inforMAtion to you. he and I aRe long since over, but i ASsure you he is or will be involved with someone else. he has put you at considerable risk, whether you know it or not. for example, your tanning bed was financed through his escort business. that may not bother you but you should know he had sex with every escort he pimped for, and with multiple couples.. I could go on and on, and i do have proof for you if you are willing to protect my identity respond here use a combination of your 3 dogs names as your name so i know it is you.

i am 45 yrs and i am married but my husband never seem to think to help me to fix my ugly mouth maybe becaues his mouth is so perfect or maybe because if i get my mouth fix i may attract someone else so please someone please help me ASAP.

You were so scared babe when i told you i had missed. What IF? What is i was going to have your child, what if i wasn’t? And i thought you would be relived when i wasn’t, but i think you wanted to have a child with me, maybe. You just seemed so dissapointed. My secret? I was a little dissapointed too.

after everything we’ve been through i still love you, miss you, and want you back in my arms.

you’ve cheated on me so many times i’ve lost count. you’ve verbally, emotionally, and even physically abused me and i forgave you for it all.

you ignored me, blew me off, and even put drugs before me, but i waited to be in your arms again.

you gave me HPV because of all the cheating and i just dealt with it.

we got pregnant because you wanted to, remember?, and even when you forced me to get the abortion, i couldn’t be mad at you.

however, when you replaced me with another girl two days after the abortion…you brought me to the end of my rope…

and even after i stood up for myself the other day, and let all my bottled up anger and hurt out, i actually regreted hurting you in the slightest way.

i was more sorry than i’ve ever been.

i went to jail because of this man.
i drove my car into his car because i couldn’t take everything he was doing to me anymore.

after i did it, he punched me 4 times in the head, spit in my face, and pulled a knife on me.
….and i was worried about him the entire time i was tortured in jail.

i am charged with malicious damage of property, and he is charged with battery and aggravated assault.

and i was worried about him…

over two years time he did more to me than any person should EVER do to another, and i can’t believe i still would give anything to hold him close and kiss him.

now my fate lies in the hands of the judge and i have no idea what will happen at my court date.

i’ve never felt more alone, depressed, and the desire to curl up and die the way i do now.

I have not loved my husband in over 5 years, I have threatened to leave, faked affairs, cut off sex, and called my husband really bad names just so he would leave, he is still home. He has told me he would throw my stuff out in the street many times and said he would be happy to show me the door. Well, I found a new home to live in, I am moving out next week and he has no idea!!

My husband’s penis is very small. I would never tell him that and I know size isn’t supposed to matter but I can’t help wishing he was bigger. I love him with all my heart so I would never consider having sex with anyone else, I just can’t help fantasizing about having something inside of me bigger than a finger.

since the year you were married, but don’t worry - he cheats on me also.

My love, your mother told me the man you believe to be your father..is not.

She has begged me not to tell you, I will have to betray her in order not to betray you.

Her secret is my pain. I love you and I am sorry.

No matter what, I am letting my family down.

I have a child by him, I married him, I love him….or at least I thought I did.

I have been with him for 4 years and have a 2 year old child with him. I now have no want or need for him. I feel his ex wife means more to him than I do. I have very little love for him and no longer want to be with him. I just don’t know what to do put keep up the front since everyone says “you are jest having a hard time; it’ll get better”. But deep down, I know it won’t get better only worse, but I will stay for a while at least

My husband doesn’t know I paid for my new sandals in the back room of the shoe store on my knees.

Everytime he and I fight, he gets more violent. I have no money and no where to go. He is in the military, I’m stuck in a foreign country.

I wish he would go to Iraq, but he probably won’t. I wish he’d go, and not come back until he was in a body bag.

I wish I’d not been stupid enough to marry him. He was so nice, calm… now he throws things and yells and calls me names and pushes me.

I’m sorry I wish he were dead but I do. I would be a big weight off my shoulder. I would never have to be frightened when I hear him enter the room, ever again.

I feel worried now that we are married. Like I could do something to him like that again. Even after all this time has past I still know I broke his heart. It is part of why I can never deny him almost anything now. He deserves some thing so good and loyal. So that is exactly what I am trying to be.

God forgive me if I ever hurt him again.

I love my fiance with all my heart. But right now, I blame him for the crap I’m suffering through at work. If he had kept it in his pants, maybe she wouldn’t be targeting me this way. I hate the fact that after putting his infidelity behind me for 4 years, it’s coming back up to bite me on the ass.