Touch

Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Mar 17th, 2011 | 23 comments

I have not had sex in over a decade. I am a 32 year old woman.

I am not overweight. I don’t have any weird crazy abnormalities. I don’t smell bad. I am able-bodied, in very good shape for even my 30-something age.

However, I am on disability for depression. I have been on disability for the same amount of time that I have been single.

I have not been held by another person in several years. I get a hug approximately every 6 to 12 months from a family member. I am an extremely affectionate person, and was raised to be that way. I crave human contact almost constantly. I am a very passionate person.

Those who know me are of course aware of my situation. It makes them uncomfortable. They do not ever touch me. They make sure to never hug me or extend any sort of physical affection to me, for fear that I will fall in love with them and want to marry them or something to that affect. Men, women, friends, strangers, young, old…it does not matter. They all react this way. They are all afraid of me. They do not know that I am just like any other person and am not attracted to every person I come into contact with, only certain individuals. I don’t blame them when they treat me like some sort of sub-human…I am sure the concept of never exchanging physical affection with other people is unfathomable to them. It is to me, too.

I watch as they put their arms around their friends and family…all the while being very careful to never come into contact with me. I do not tell my loved ones that I love them anymore. This is heartbreaking. If I even tell someone I am glad I have them in my life, or do something nice for their birthday, or tell them they are a great friend to me…I usually either receive A) a polite and carefully worded email stating something to the effect of: I need to find someone somewhere and to get back to them when I do; or B) I do not hear from the person again either indefinitely or after several months of time. This includes family members.

Let me repeat that last part. I have family members, blood relatives, who keep their distance because they are afraid I will want to be with them sexually. I try not to think about this particular aspect too often.

Sometimes when I am at the grocery store or some other type of store, someone will accidentally brush up against me as they rush by. It always feels so strange…but in a good way. On rare occasions I have had to go to the emergency room at a hospital…and the only good part of that whole experience is the physical contact I receive from the medical staff. They have to hold my arm to draw blood and attach IV’s. They put those sticky metal things on my body to check my heart. The feeling of hands on me was so amazing. The only time people ever touch me is when they have to.

Sometimes all I want is to make love just one more time. But then sometimes…I would just settle for a hug.

I picked my future childrens’ names out when I was a child, like the other girls did. I am so glad that I did not know what was ahead of me.

So glad.

One night in London

Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Mar 8th, 2011 | 3 comments

I slept with a famous musician,whom I went on to be engaged to. He made me swear to secrecy. I hate having to keep it a secret. I still love you.

Money for Med School

Posted by Jessica in Sex on Feb 10th, 2011 | 22 comments

I really never saw myself thinking like this before. I come from a modest family I have 3 siblings and my family cares for our frail grandmother. I’ve always been a straight A student, always was on the “right” side of the tracks. A week ago, I found out I made it to medicine school; which has always been a dream I aspired to. I told my parents about it. No. My heart sank and I just imploded; a dream gone with 6 words “sorry we can’t afford it.” I haven’t spoken to my parents since.

Yesterday my boyfriend, who is a med student, and I were discussing my situation and jokingly he suggested I become a “receptionist at a brothel” which we both knew what he really meant. BUT, the idea has actually stuck with me. Should I? Should I not? Will i even get hired? I’m so confused about all of this.

Sorry BBF

Posted by Anon in Sex on Jan 31st, 2011 | 7 comments

I’m sorry BFF, I’m having an affair with your man.

I was with him first, you knew how much I loved him, I didnt care then we were having an affair, behind his previous girlfriends back, but when I moved away coz I couldn’t have him I never wanted him to be with you.

Although I was the bigger person, and gave you the go ahead, I never got over him really. Now we are having an affair again, but this time it’s behind you back.

We don’t want to leave our partners, we like having this affair.

I warned you he wouldn’t ever change thats the kind of guy he is, and all the snooping and restrictions you try and put on him, makes him want me more. if it wasn’t me pleasing him, there would be many more for him to choose from.

Sex with a jerk

Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Jan 17th, 2011 | 3 comments

I dont know what to do anymore..I keep on having sex with a guy im attracted to but his such a jerk..and we keep it a secret from everyone……….

stds

Posted by sex addict. in Sex on Jan 16th, 2011 | 12 comments

i’m addicted to sex and i have hep b and i don’t tell my partners. i don’t have the guts and it kills me that i don’t. it kills me everyday but i just can’t be honest. don’t know what to do about it. :\ i tried not having sex, but i’m too addicted. i feel so worthless everyday because i might be hurting someone but am too scared to do anything.

Interesting Weekend

Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Jan 9th, 2011 | 5 comments

My fiancee and I have plans to spend 3 days in a rustic B&B in the middle of nowhere with one of her female friends and that friend’s boyfriend. A foursome. Except that my GF has no idea that her friend and I have hooked up a couple of times just to ****. This woman and I have no interest in a relationship, I love my fiancee, and really for both of us it was just about having sex with someone different.

Sometimes I think I should feel guilty about this, but I don’t. And I have every expectation that her friend and I will likely hook up again.

Guilty cousin

Posted by Confused cousin in Sex on Jan 5th, 2011 | 5 comments

I….feel terrible. Usually im a player girl and have no trouble with one night stands. However two nights ago i did something stupid….i slept with my cousin, who also happens to be 17 (im 20). I know i didnt started it and it actually took me by surprise….but its not as if i did anything to stop him. I feel….weird now, not grossed out or anything cause i love him really much ( he is my lil cousin after all¡) but i feel it was my responsibility to say no or something…

Paid for sex

Posted by Anon in Sex on Jan 2nd, 2011 | 8 comments

I paid €100 to feel gross and dirty! Seriously I really wanted it to feel good but I can only feel sick since I did it.

I cheat, but I’m in love.

Posted by Molly in Sex on Dec 26th, 2010 | 17 comments

I love my boyfriend very much and want nothing more than to be with him for the rest of my life. We’ve been together for a year and a half and have been shopping for engagement rings and talking very seriously about marriage, which really excites me and makes me sooooo very happy, but I can’t stop cheating on him.
I’m not trying to find someone else to love me, or even like me… I’m not trying to get off… I’m just looking to have a sexual connection with other people.
I don’t know if it’s because sex is something I’ve been given praise for, so now I want to use it to validate myself or something? I don’t know. I’ve come up with every possible reason. I’m bi-polar, and I know that can cause promiscuity and I’ve only cheated during mania… so maybe that’s the reason? But I don’t want to blame bi-polar for my mistakes. I hate that.
To top it all off, I’ve been cheating on him with my best friend’s ex boyfriend whom she still has feelings for… and he currently has a live-in girlfriend.
Maybe I’m just addicted to sex? Because it’s not confined to just one person and I feel better knowing that the individual mentioned above has a girlfriend because it lessens the risk of any emotional attachment or feelings developing that don’t apply to lust.
I don’t know how to stop… and I don’t know if I want to stop.
I just want to stop feeling this way so I can continue to have a happy and complete relationship with my boyfriend.
I don’t know if this is possible.

I can’t hide.

Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Dec 24th, 2010 | 4 comments

You’re a divorced forty-something and a father of two. You’re also my favorite teacher because…
All I can think about when I’m sitting in your class is how much I’d love to sleep with you.
I’m sorry.

He’s Hurting Me

Posted by Maddie in Sex on Dec 22nd, 2010 | 32 comments

I’m a 16-year old girl,who is just at the end of her rope. I don’t know what to do. My dad has been molesting me since I was 9.It started out with him just touching me, but as I got older he started raping me. I can’t take it anymore. He’s hurting me. Whenever he comes into my room, I die alittle inside. I have no one to turn to. I’m afraid my mom will hate me. I was the reason they almost got divorced and I just want her to be happy. I’ve started drinking to deal with it. It makes me numb. I started going out with this guy a six months ago. He’s nice to me and he makes me feel better. We were hanging out one night and we started making out on his couch. I freaked out. I know he would never force me, but I’m scared of being touched like that. I’ve been avoiding him ever since, and things with my dad seem to be getting worse. I don’t know what to do, I want him to stop and I wanna tell someone. But….I just can’t.