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No Privacy
My ex made rules for when I was allowed to have privacy.
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His smile, soul, mind and heart is with somebody else
God, I don’t even know what I am doing. I never knew he would be the one stuck with me when I for sure know he would never look my way now. I didn’t know what love means until I wish him all the best even though it means seeing him with somebody else and without me being in the picture with him. I remember when I first saw him in elementary school, he was just a boy who means nothing to me but little did I know he would be someone that I couldn’t have but be tattooed in my heart. As time goes by starting from elementary, I notice more details about him but for some reason I hated him and his friends who were stud jerks. This one time in six grade I had the chance to sit with him in a table group……I was invisible to him, he could even talk or look at me. I didn’t took that as an offence because my feeling for him barely developed at the time. Didn’t hurt as much when I heard him talk about other girls with both my ears next to the guy he was sitting with. This and that happened and I had to move away with a guy in my heat who I have mixed feeling for. My life was an upside down struggle, I couldn’t barely keep up, new school, family drama/struggle, my father sickness and more stuff I don’t have the energy to mention. Freshman year comes along and I was starting to be in pain mentally and physically, I gained weight, no friends, stress, grade lowering and ( *there is a lot of stuff that I didn’t mention*). To put it in a word I was behind and left out. People always using my kindness as a weakness not just that I was basically becoming someone who I don’t even know, that old funny me turned into complete silence, can’t form a word. I see the people around me living their best live achieving their goals, in fit and having friends in general. While I was just the opposite. On top of all of that I start to grow more feeling to that guy when again for sure know he doesn’t even remember my name or me. I ask myself how can I grow more feeling for him when I am far away from him in distance and mind. Sophomore year, I came across his and his girlfriend on Instagram claiming how they are each other’s soulmate and gift. He is happy, in love and I know for sure if you saw what I see he would never leave or let her go mind and body, I know that look in his eyes…………………………………I wish him all the best in life (god protect him for me) and he is and will always be in my heart.
I am fifteenth years old and their is more to life than him, so I will keep facing my journey cause life moves on pretty fast without a heads up, I just know he would always be in my heart even though I can’t have him.
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None
Ill betaking my life shortly. I moved across the world for someone only for them to leave me in person. we have been together for 6 years. I thought he would propose. I have nothing left.
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I’m scared my beloved doesn’t actually love me
I am a Teenage girl and my beloved is also a teenage girl, and I confessed my feelings to her and she agreed. I absolutely adore her and would do anything to make her happy. we never really put a specific name to anything gut she adds loving and kind honorifics to my name when referring to me.
knowing her, she is pure and would never do anything to hurt anyone. so if she didn’t actually love me when I confessed my love to her, it is possible that she was lying in order to protect my feelings. she is usually busy and so we don’t have a lot of time to be together, I’m afraid that she doesn’t actually love me. and we weren’t really particularly close when I started catching feelings. what should I do?
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I Don’t Actually Like Her
I feel awful typing this out.
For the first time in my life, I’m trying out a romantic relationship. I am a teenage girl dating another teenage girl, and it’s nice, I guess? I realize that I’m not as comfortable around her because I didn’t really know her before I started dating her. It kinda showed me that I really have to know someone before I develop feelings for them, I’m not invested in this relationship at all. I can’t honestly say that I adore her, that I want to spend all my time with her, that I’m attracted to her. To me, she’s kind of just my girlfriend in name. I feel like there is nothing connecting us. It doesn’t feel like a relationship to me; it feels fake.
On the other hand, she’s as affectionate as you can be towards someone over text. We don’t get a lot of opportunities to see each other. But she says that she can’t wait to see me, that she wants to be with me, that she’s so happy that I’m her girlfriend. We never talked about labels, but I’m really just going along with what she says. I match what she gives me, so I don’t think she has suspected anything.
Why not break it off? My friends are rooting for this relationship, and I’d hate to disappoint them. My girlfriend also hasn’t had decent experiences with dating, so I at least want keep this up enough to give her a soft landing when I do inevitably break up with her.
But yeah. I really can’t tell anyone about this, except for some strangers on the internet. Everyone who knows me that know about her are under the impression that I’m just shy about talking about my love life, which is why I don’t gush over her every second.
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What I’d Like
I am a man recently separated, my kids live with me. I just keep thinking about things. I have discovered I want a strong woman who is musically talented and independant. I want someone who is the opposite of what ive had. I want someone who can sing
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I’m disgusting
I’m 13 years old and I have a friend who is 17, I am completely obsessed with him. I’m sure it’s because of untreated trauma or something but I am in love with him basically obsessed as well, I know this is wrong, Thats why I feel so disgusting. I think it’s because he was there when I was still healing from being molested (by a 17 y/o) and he helped me so much I gained a crush and brushed it off as “a little crush”
It wasnt a little crush, it turned into the most twisted form of “love” Yeah you guessed it obsession, I am no christian but I begged to God to take this obsession away, I hate this. Ive hated it from the start and Ive wanted to die because of it, but if this is truly how it is. I’m not afraid to speak my truth.. I will do anything for him, I’ll even block my actual soulmate for him. Even if he uses me, Idc, as long as I can consider him mine and consider myself his.
Have I gone mad? I’m entirely bonkers, but here’s a secret, all the best people are.
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just wanted to get this out
we were all drinking and somehow i ended up cuddling with her on our friends bed. while they’re all occupied with something else, i stroked her hair and kissed her forehead multiple times, only when my friends weren’t looking. she doesn’t know i did that, she was asleep, i even admired her face while she was sleeping….
on the way home in the car, she leaned on my shoulder and linked arms with me, doing that thumb rubbing thing on my hand…how could i not have felt something?
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Indeed
Even though you’re not a great person most of the time, even though you treated me worse than anybody ever has, even though you have a new girlfriend, even though my friends and family hate you, even though you aren’t at all interested in me anymore, even though you valued everything above me I’d still do anything to get you back.
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what goes around comes around
I’m scared that you’ll leave me for her again.