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Mother Of Twins

Posted by in Regret on Jan 15th, 2011 | 25 comments

I thought I wanted A baby and ended up getting pregnant at age 27 with twin girls. They will be 2 in February. Every since I became pregnant i felt mentally off…. like I wanted to crawl out of my skin or tear someone’s eyes out. It’s like it changed my hormones & chemicals, totally waked me out. So I don’t know if it’s my hormones or the fact that I do HATE being a Mother. I pray for death every day. My husband slapped himself several times in the face last weekend because they had him so frustrated. I wish I had a time-machine, I would have never allowed myself to become pregnant. That sounds horrible but I love them enough to know that right now I am damaging them mentally. I scream, yell, call them names like asshole, brat & more. I hate myself for not being the Mother I should be… I don’t know if it’s my frame of mind, hormones, or the mere fact I indeed do hate being a mother. I think it’s most likely a combination of all of the above. It’s depressing, hopeless, & miserable. May God help my kids & give me death.

Nothing to show

Posted by in Regret on Jan 3rd, 2011 | 7 comments

I have many dreams and nothing to show for them. I have accomplished nothing in my 37 years of life.

I regret getting caught

Posted by in Regret on Jan 2nd, 2011 | 2 comments

I’m a married woman who had an affair with a married man. We both believe were each other’s soul mates and he wants me to leave my husband, but I’m afraid of destroying my children and hurting my husband (he didn’t deserve it). We both have good spouses and good lives. I regret getting caught. I wish we had been more careful, so we could still be friends.

He makes me sick

Posted by in Regret on Dec 28th, 2010 | 3 comments

Hes everything I ever wanted in a boyfriend. he loves me, he understands me, hes smart, hes funny
I feel sick every time I think of him
I dont know why I dont love him, but he love me so much.
We recently got back together after a breakup, mostly due to guilt. When i said I loved him over the phone the break from the guilt felt so good I guess I confused it for love. Now I’m just trapped and I feel sick to my stomach. I dont want to hurt him but i dont want to be with him either.
nauseous

im an idiot-a heartbroken idiot

Posted by in Regret on Dec 22nd, 2010 | 1 comment

I met him 2 years ago and became good friends, and about 4months later we started flirting by texts and facebook. We kissed for the first time 2months later and became friends with benefits. Mistake nr1. He broke it off twice and somehow we ended up kissing and fooling around again. We never had sex, I think in a way I thought I could keep him interrested that way. Typical girl I am, I fell for him. I kept up the facade of FWB for almost 18months… He knew what to say and what to do to eventually get me into bed. It was the most amazing sex ever!! Guess 18months of waiting can do that. Now, he’s ignoring me and my fear came true. Sex was the last mountain for him to climb with me. The mystery is gone and I’m the idiotic girl who fell for her player friend.

I can’t do it anymore…

Posted by in Regret on Dec 19th, 2010 | 7 comments

I am 15 years old and very depressed. My parents don’t know, and my best friend doesn’t know just how bad it is.

About a year and a half ago, I was sexually assaulted by my boyfriend of that time. It was actual sex, but it’s been very difficult to get over. I thought I was over it, but I’m not. I haven’t slept well in three months.

I cut myself almost every other day. My friends think that I stopped cutting long ago. They just don’t realize how good I’ve become at lying to them. To everyone.

I want to die. Everyday, I wake up and think about how I want to die so badly. I can’t help but think that it would be for the best. Who would miss me? I don’t have a boyfriend. Nothing ever seems to be good enough for my parents. My friends don’t understand me at all. I’m so different from everyone else. I’m always pretending to be someone else to hide myself from the world. I don’t want anyone to know who I really am, how I really feel.

I just can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to wear this mask anymore. I just want it all to end.

Strip Club

Posted by in Regret on Dec 16th, 2010 | 2 comments

I thought I was done going to strip clubs. Yesterday proved that wrong. I also think I’m an alcoholic.

I want out

Posted by in Regret on Dec 15th, 2010 | 1 comment

I married a man who I adored after only dating him a year. I got pregnant 2 months after that. Through out the pregnancy he did and said all of the right things. After she was born he turned into such an alcoholic. He’s lazy, doesnt want to work. And doesn’t ever put any effort in our marriage. I want out, I want out so bad. I love my baby more than anything, but I wasn’t ready for this! He isn’t the man that I fell in love with anymore. I’m tired, absolutely exhausted of my life. I want to start over. I don’t know who I am anymore.

Help me.

Posted by in Regret on Dec 9th, 2010 | 4 comments

I’ve become a person I’ve always hated. It’s become a vice. I need help. Someone take me back…

I’ve always been an angel. A good daughter to my parents… a good student… a good friend… In fact, I believe I had been rather exceptional… exceeding other people’s expectations. Excellent in school, sporty, musically inclined, active in the community… People have perceived me to be close to perfect. Not just in skills but in values.

But starting last month, everything just went… crazy.

I’ve been cutting myself, watching porn, smoking, lying so much…

It may be normal for others but I myself, is surprised with what has been happening to me lately…

I’ve become bad. I’ve lost my path… Why can’t I survive in the real world?

I’m just 17, and about to graduate from high school. Worse things can happen when I get to college… I have to change now. What should I do?!?!

Fantasy comes true but with regrets

Posted by in Regret on Dec 7th, 2010 | 4 comments

This past weekend my girlfriend and I ended up fooling around with another couple and the aftermath of reality is not going well for us. The fantasy of seeing my lady sexually involved with another guy seemed hot at first and then reality set in and we bailed. The kissing killed it for me so i made them stop that part but went down hill from there. I don’t think this is going to hurt our love for one another but we know now to keep it a fantasy. She is really having a hard time believing what she did and her morals are not for that. And yes….drinking was a big part and influence of this.

I think its about time to Quit

Posted by in Regret on Oct 5th, 2010 | 5 comments

Well its been a few years and I have done so many evil things to others and myself that it is hard to swallow. I’m a piece of crap and I treated my wife like shit leaving he here and taking off for Thailand for 2 years. My sister is having a hard time with her marriage. My other sister needs money for food. I have all these things to make financs better for all of them, but I was IRS attached on Friday, so before they get the rest of my money I’m going to withdraw it in cash and give it to my family to make their lives better, then blow my head off. I’m so tired of the pain. The world is a wonderful place, but most of the people in it are pure shit.

Dont do it!

Posted by in Regret on Sep 29th, 2010 | 7 comments

Never have an affair!!! It might be fun and exciting while it lasts (once you get past the guilt. And no matter how much you justify it, its not right!!!
I talk from experience… We were never found out…and nobody knows, but now I have to go through the hurt of a failed relationship all on my own…no shoulder to cry on, nobody to help me through it. The fall is hard!! And not worth it. I wish i could take it all back!!!!

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