Secret Confessions

When we first made Love, I was married but unhappy. I moved out and planned to leave, but I thought I needed to give my marriage one more chance to work, or I would always have questions. By the time you allowed me back into your life, I found out that my wife was pregnant, but lied to you about when she was due, I lied to you about so many things, but we began to make love again, and you told me that your ideal would be to be married to me and raising OUR children. I hate that you were with Mike, and I felt like I needed to do or say anything to make you fall in love with me again and leave his abusive ass behind. He treats you badly and you accept it because at other times he treats you like I want to. I have left you alone, as you asked, because I hurt you so badly. I will go on in a loveless relationship because it is best for my kids, but I cannot get you out of my mind. I treated you wrong, I lied GOD did I lie! But I wanted you to know that I regret hurting you. I could have made you happy, I thought I could explain away the lies, but I couldnt. You are with Mike this weekend meeting his parents, and I know he will ask you to marry him. . . dont do it. You will find someone to love you like I did (DO!) , but treat you better than he OR I did. You are a wonderful person, but Mike will only make you feel miserable about yourself. You will regret it. I hate what I did to you, and I miss being with you and talking. I miss being close, I miss making love with you. I wish you only happiness but I wish you realized Mike is WRONG WRONG WRONG for you.

I’m sorry for all the thing I’ve said,
And for the times I’ve done somthing to hurt you.

My feelings were all I cared about.
Our friendship now totally changed.
Really, I wish I could take it all back.

..Roads now forked in opposite directions.
Your trust I have lost.

I am Sorry for All i Did!=)

on frnshp day i propsed on of best frnd frm that day she in not talking to me i just want to knw that ?? wrng in ths is it wrng to tell u felling to some one if i m wrong if i hurt uuuuu but pls talkkkkkkk……

now evry day is like to live in hell pls i m begging uuuuu n saying sorry ?? i did

sorry DAd
you gave me so many chance to be something in life,u permitted me to do whatever i wished to do but i was not upto to ur mark,instead i always lied to u and still u trust me in me.. i”m worth of ur trust ?
i am sorry dad
sorry for every thing

When I was a 16 year old boy one of my 22 year old male cousins had sex with me and when he got done I was in love with him. For the next year I’d ask him for more and got it, but now that I’m older than he was then I regret those times.

I’m 21 now and even though I don’t live where this happened, it’s with me always and I think if I share it I will take a load off? I don’t know, but not being able to talk about something because of being judged or losing friends is a terrible feeling.
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You told me that sex was for after marriage. End of story. There was never any question as to what age was appropriate and what age wasn’t. I knew inherently. Still, a part of me wanted to know what it was all about. A part of me decided to ignore you.

So I did it at 16. And it wasn’t great, but it wasn’t bad either. So I kept doing it, right there under your roof, and you never knew.

When I finally got around to admitting it to friends, I told them I had sex when I was 18. For some reason, 18 sounded better than 16. Was it because of your incessant claims that teenagers didn’t know any better that had actually impacted on me? I don’t know. I just knew 16 sounded awful. And for the first time, I wished I hadn’t had sex back then.

It’s been quite a few years now. I still lie about it. I lie about the first time. I lie about the frequency of times in that first year. I make myself sound like someone I’m actually not.

But you still don’t know a single thing. To you, I’m not tainted yet. I only wish it were that way.

I have a rep of being a player and to tell the truth I never really cared about it,
but since some months ago I´ve just decided that i wanted to change and become a nice guy, im trying to make my way into a nice and decent relationship with a friend we always date but when i told her about my feelings for her, she replied, that as friends we are allright, but that she just does´nt trust me enought to be something more than it, its tough for me, because for the firs time in my whole life im giving my heart to someone special to me, and its not like if I wanted anyone to price me for the effort, but i just dont know how to get her to belive that i mean it, to me love is a decision, AND I JUST MADE MY CHOICE I WANT TO LOVE HER AND NOBODY ELSE, HOW DEEPLY I REGRET MY OLD SELF knowing the way she feels towards me makes me feel down.

The only thing that i know for sure its that whatever happens and even if i never get my chance I dont want to lose my dearest friend
the most important girl of my life.

I loved you so much. But I didn’t want to let you know. So I “became” a lesbian and told you about it so you wouldn’t have to find out.

But later you were mad at me.

this is what happend, i had a fight with my girlfriend last 21st of july. It was late night, it all started when i ask her that is it ok to watch movie at your house? then she sed yes it’s ok then i told her that have asked permission from your mom? then she sed no, the i answered why have you not asked permission to your mom? she well it’s ok, you got nothing to worry. yes, i’ve got nothing to worry but atleast you’ve ask your permission so that your mother will know about our plan. now, we yelled all over the public place that to the extent all people are watching us so i was not able to control myself so i hold her hands tightly like i was holding a man then i hold her neck that to the extent i’d like to kill her so after that i told her lets go to my place and there we will fight. so we went to my place and there we continued our fight after that, we lost all our energy we sleep when we woke up all over her body i saw some small spots of injured muscles. so after that day she said lets see other for awhile lets have a break so that time i was so down that i would like to die if without her my life is useless living here on earth.

I slept with my best friends little sister, all of our friends know, but he doesn’t.

I’m 31 yrs old and I’ve never kissed a guy.