I Don’t Know Why I Did It

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Oct 17th, 2007 | 2 comments

You told me that sex was for after marriage. End of story. There was never any question as to what age was appropriate and what age wasn’t. I knew inherently. Still, a part of me wanted to know what it was all about. A part of me decided to ignore you.

So I did it at 16. And it wasn’t great, but it wasn’t bad either. So I kept doing it, right there under your roof, and you never knew.

When I finally got around to admitting it to friends, I told them I had sex when I was 18. For some reason, 18 sounded better than 16. Was it because of your incessant claims that teenagers didn’t know any better that had actually impacted on me? I don’t know. I just knew 16 sounded awful. And for the first time, I wished I hadn’t had sex back then.

It’s been quite a few years now. I still lie about it. I lie about the first time. I lie about the frequency of times in that first year. I make myself sound like someone I’m actually not.

But you still don’t know a single thing. To you, I’m not tainted yet. I only wish it were that way.

Will Karin ever give me a chance.

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Oct 12th, 2007 | 1 comment

I have a rep of being a player and to tell the truth I never really cared about it,
but since some months ago I´ve just decided that i wanted to change and become a nice guy, im trying to make my way into a nice and decent relationship with a friend we always date but when i told her about my feelings for her, she replied, that as friends we are allright, but that she just does´nt trust me enought to be something more than it, its tough for me, because for the firs time in my whole life im giving my heart to someone special to me, and its not like if I wanted anyone to price me for the effort, but i just dont know how to get her to belive that i mean it, to me love is a decision, AND I JUST MADE MY CHOICE I WANT TO LOVE HER AND NOBODY ELSE, HOW DEEPLY I REGRET MY OLD SELF knowing the way she feels towards me makes me feel down.

The only thing that i know for sure its that whatever happens and even if i never get my chance I dont want to lose my dearest friend
the most important girl of my life.

Something

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Oct 8th, 2007 | 0 comments

I loved you so much. But I didn’t want to let you know. So I “became” a lesbian and told you about it so you wouldn’t have to find out.

But later you were mad at me.

the fifth and final chapter of my life

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Sep 28th, 2007 | 3 comments

this is what happend, i had a fight with my girlfriend last 21st of july. It was late night, it all started when i ask her that is it ok to watch movie at your house? then she sed yes it’s ok then i told her that have asked permission from your mom? then she sed no, the i answered why have you not asked permission to your mom? she well it’s ok, you got nothing to worry. yes, i’ve got nothing to worry but atleast you’ve ask your permission so that your mother will know about our plan. now, we yelled all over the public place that to the extent all people are watching us so i was not able to control myself so i hold her hands tightly like i was holding a man then i hold her neck that to the extent i’d like to kill her so after that i told her lets go to my place and there we will fight. so we went to my place and there we continued our fight after that, we lost all our energy we sleep when we woke up all over her body i saw some small spots of injured muscles. so after that day she said lets see other for awhile lets have a break so that time i was so down that i would like to die if without her my life is useless living here on earth.

best friends little sister

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Sep 24th, 2007 | 2 comments

I slept with my best friends little sister, all of our friends know, but he doesn’t.

Celibate

Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Sep 22nd, 2007 | 7 comments

I’m 31 yrs old and I’ve never kissed a guy.