Very confused

Posted by Anon in Love on Oct 1st, 2010 | 11 comments

Okay so i guess i will just start at the beginning.

When i was 15 i met a boy, he was 18. We spent time together as friends and eventually it turned into something more, i fell in love hard, we were together for a year when my family finially put there foot down and told me i should not be involved with someone so much older, they told me i was not allowed to see him ever again. A few days later we ran away together,long story short i was arrested and taken back home and he was sent back to his town. We didn’t speak again until i was 22 years old when he found me on facebook, we started talking and he told me that he had desperately looked for me and tried to make contact me for almost a year after all of that stuff happened, all that time and i still loved him just as much if not more than when i was 15. Eventually we decided to try again, we visited each other and planned on moving in together in time. A few weeks before my 23rd birthday things got strange and he stopped calling me, a few days pass and finially he tells me he wont be coming to see me, that he is confused and freaked out and perhaps we should just slow it down. We didn’t talk again after that and i remember being so devastated over it all, it took me awhile to heal from it. Cut to now i am almost 25 and he makes contact with me again, tells me how sorry he is for being an idiot and says the reason why he did what he did was because he was afraid to get hurt again, i still love him. He wants me to move to the city he lives in and live with him, he tells me he wants to marry me and that after all this time he still loves me so much and wants this to happen.

I am so confused, while i do love him i am afraid that it’s going to happen the same as before, that he is going to get scared and back off. I have talked to him about this and he assures me that he has grown up and given it serious thought and wants this to happen for real. I guess i am just here to see what the anon on this board feel about my situation. If you want any more information just ask me and i will try my best to help.

i don’t care

Posted by mjj in Love on Oct 1st, 2010 | 6 comments

i dont care that you left me to hook up with an old high school flame a thousand miles away, and gave me two hours notice to say goodbye to our son. i dont care that you stole our money to get there, money from my unemployment that we needed to survive. i dont care that you couldnt go without starbucks, but i had to beg you for pocketchange from my own check for coffee on cold mornings. i dont care that i walked three miles to work every day because you ‘needed the car’ and you didnt want to get up and drive me. i dont care that our son isn’t biologically mine. i dont care that you lied to all your friends, saying i beat you, just to justify it to others, when i’m the one with scars inside and out, not you.

i dont care that she treats me 100x better than you did, and actually respects me. i would drop her in an instant if you came back. i love and miss you.

I’m in love with my bestfriend

Posted by living4me in Love on Sep 30th, 2010 | 2 comments

I have been married for 10 years. Somewhere down line I stop loving my husband. We had some problem about 6 years ago and our marriage never recovered. The last year or so, for me has been awful. I can’t tell him the truth because I don’t want to hurt him or my three boys. My heart is no longer in this relationship anymore. And to top it off about year ago I came back in contact with friend mine from school. And I have feelings for him. Sometimes I think those feelings came from me not being happy in my marriage. But we stop talking to each like we were because we felt it was best , out of respect for my marriage.I think about him all the time. My heart feels like its missing something cause we hardly ever talk anymore. I care so much about but him. he doesn’t know how much. He knows I care but not to this degree, I love him. It’s unconditional love with no strings attached; it doesn’t matter if he doesn’t love me back. I just want what makes him happy. I’m sure I sound crazy but I’m in love with my bestfriend.

the flame has gone out

Posted by lonely in Love on Sep 27th, 2010 | 0 comments

I come home after a three day absence and you don’t even kiss me. Then you accuse me of spending money ??? The trip was a Parental responsiblity-and I was the only parent that could go.
Now we move on to the house being a mess, and your check being three hundred dollars short (again). Sometime I think I evoke my own pain and problems…….

Where is the love we once had?? the quite nights of sharing dreams and holding hands?? Can we ever get that back?? Probably not.

You’re Beautiful

Posted by Ark in Love on Sep 24th, 2010 | 4 comments

I love her…so much. She knows this; she feels the same. But we’re caught between an in between; I just want to reach out, touch her, hold her, tell her everything that I feel.
But I can’t; something’s stopping me.
I just want to be with her, no matter my school’s hatred of homosexuality.
I want to tell her I think she’s beautiful, that I love seeing the way her eyes light up when she’s happy; that I just want to ruffle her hair under my fingers, feel if it’s as silky as it looks.
I want to tell her that I love the way she’s unique, that she’s a fabulous poet, that I could spend every hour with her in complete silence, and yet still feel at peace.

I love you.

Wondering what it is I am doing

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Sep 22nd, 2010 | 4 comments

I have a partner of 12 years who is all that I should want or need. A good life in all aspects but I am considering flying out to meet someone half my age to meet and hang out.

I have a problem.

Posted by Anonymous. in Love on Sep 19th, 2010 | 13 comments

I am 19.. I have slept with over forty people.
it’s not normal, I know this.
I suffer from Bi Polar & Aspergers Syndrome.
I have made numerous attempts to take my life.
I just want to be loved.

I love her.

Posted by Found in Love on Sep 19th, 2010 | 6 comments

Im a girl, and yes I’m in love with HER. We’ve been together for two months.. And have been talking for a total of 5 months. Her friends are very accepting and support her.. Not one of my friends know. My bestfriend of 3 years would be the one person I would trust enough to tell.. But when I told her that my ‘friend’ was a lesbian, she freaked out and I eventually told my bestfriend that she converted back to boys.. I told my bestfriend she was ‘experimenting’. I don’t trust any of my friends. So i cant tell them that I love my girlfriend.. I cantrell them that I’m gay.. I can’t tell them howhappy I am because of her.. I can’t talk about my weekends, because they only involve her (sense she goes to a different school). I can’t bring her around them because something might slip.. Or we would get cought. My parents know, her parents know. Most of her friends know.. But I can’t tell anyone. I can’t brag about her, like all my friends do with their boyfriends. I’m finally so happy, so truely happy.. And I can’t even tell anyone.

neighborly love

Posted by Triumph in Love on Sep 3rd, 2010 | 2 comments

I’m married… maybe not happily, but not really unhappily either. My problem is that I have thought for quite some time that my husband was just not a good match for me. Now it’s even worse because I’ve developed a crush on my neighbor. He has an amazing personality and good looks to match it. I know a relationship would never work, even if I wasn’t married… because my family would not approve. Anyways, long story short… I have the major hots for my neighbor. I actually had an excuse to touch him a week ago and it was awesome. I mean it was so awesome that I don’t even feel bad about it. I hope it happens again. I’m pretty sure I would cheat on my husband with him.

I know this makes me a bad person… my confession is that I don’t really care that much… and that makes me wonder what kind of person I have turned into..

Frustrated & Confused

Posted by anon in Love on Sep 2nd, 2010 | 5 comments

I’m a married man of 15 years and I love my wife. But due to circumstances beyond her control the intimacy is dead. I have always loved women of all shapes and sizes and have been faithful to my wife. But in the last year or so I find myself getting infatuated with women I have no business being so with.

I generally like women my own age 38 but I recently met a woman (25) and I can’t stop thinking about her. She actually does some freelance work for me and that’s how I found myself in this position.

I’m around beautiful women on a regular basis so it’s not that this girl is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen but she is a total package. Good looking, sense of humor, same taste in music and beautiful on the inside. She’s also mature for her age group.

A couple of weeks ago we had to go out of town on some business. One night after work I asked her if she wanted to go hang out for a bit. We spent all night just talking until the early morning hours.

Now she already had an idea that I think she’s great but I made sure I told her so there was no confusion. At this point she tells me she is in love with her bf of 7yrs and I should have found her 3yrs earlier. I walked her back to her room and ended it with a hug and kiss on the cheek.

It was the best night I’ve had in a long time!

The next day after work I asked if we could do it again and we did. We just sat and talked until the sun came up. Another great night!

Problem is I can’t get her out of my head. I only see her once a month so this is killing me. Part of me wants to play the friend roll and see where this goes and hope I’m in the right place at the right time. Or I may discover she’s really not what I thought she was.

I understand she’s in love with her bf but if she didn’t have any interest would she have spent both nights with me? Or is it just my male DNA telling me there’s more there than there actually is?

I’m so confused! I want to see where this leads but maybe it’s just wishful thinking.

Why my marriage is ending.

Posted by Joshua in Love on Aug 21st, 2010 | 4 comments

I believe the barest, simplest answer I can give for my marriage coming to and end is unmet want and need. Someone opened my eyes to what I wanted and that vision wasn’t well enough aligned with who I am or what I have for me to be at peace. I was agitated, hungry and desirous. I allowed the want to eat at me. I fell in love with the woman that planted the seed of want within me.

I don’t know that I will ever be able to adequately explain myself to anyone who questions me about my decision to allow my marriage to dissolve. All I can say is maybe I know how I allowed this to come into my life. Boredom will leave doors open. Not understanding emotional boundaries and disregarding warnings allowed a relationship with another woman to flourish. Finding an emotional connection to her that surpasses all that have come before put something deep in my heart. Knowing that this deep emotional connection had been missing from my life lead me to pursue it. That woman has turned me away, for the time being at least, but the desire remains. My wife asked me what I would do if she won’t have me and the only answer is to keep looking. To keep looking for that emotional connection. The trouble is she’s probably the only one that my heart, mind and soul would accept completely.

I want his friend.

Posted by Pixie in Love on Aug 16th, 2010 | 6 comments

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 9 months, last night i went to a party and one our mutual friends was there. My boyfriend didnt attend the party and during the night, our friend kissed me, and i kissed him back.
However, this feels different, i feel like he meant it and he said he loved me, and I told him I loved him too… now all i want to do is kiss him and be with him.
The only other problem is… He has a girlfriend.