Finally Feeling

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Dec 4th, 2010 | 1 comment

For years i’ve felt afraid and scared to ever be attached to anyone. I love my family in the sense that they are who I live with every day, but beyond that I just didn’t want to feel and wasn’t willing to compromise that. Finally, you make me feel and for that I think I love you.

Never Good Enough

Posted by anonymous in Love on Nov 29th, 2010 | 9 comments

A year ago, I fell for a boy who I shouldn’t have. I was thirteen and I didn’t believe in love. We dated for four months straight, and during that time he dated another girl and cheated on me with multiple people. I forgave him because I liked him so much. We got back together multiple times, and ended up dating a total (on & off) of ten months. He hurt me so many times then, but I gave him a chance repeatedly because I loved him. Now, two months after our final break up, he’s dating the girl that I always had to compete with while we were dating. Truth is, I never thought I was good enough and it kills me inside to know I’ve lost him..especially to her. Now he treats her better than ever, and he loves her.

Why don’t I feel guilty?

Posted by jjfemme in Love on Nov 26th, 2010 | 6 comments

I’ve been carrying on a flirtatious relationship with an ex-boyfriend that finally resulted in us having the most amazing sex I’ve had in a really long time.

My boyfriend of 5 years has no idea.

We’ve had conversations about scenarios like this before and he’s said that he doesn’t want to know unless I’m leaving him. So, I’m keeping it to myself.

The weird part though is that I feel absolutely no guilt whatsoever. I’ve never done this before and am usually an honest person. I’m completely baffled about why I’m not feeling a shred of guilt.

Clearly I’ve justified this in my head somehow, but I really don’t understand how. I know it’s wrong and that I should feel terrible. But I don’t.

I want you to be unhappy

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Nov 20th, 2010 | 0 comments

Because I can’t stand the thought that someone else can make you happy when I couldn’t.
I am with someone else, too. But, I still think about you every day. I still think about what it will be like if we ever see each other again. I want you to regret everything. I want you to need to be with me again. I’d probably just tell you to go away. But it would be great if for once in your life you realized what you had. And what you lost.

A letter of aplogy

Posted by M.E in Love on Nov 10th, 2010 | 19 comments

My dear unborn child,
I’m writing this letter because I want u to know I’m more than happy to have you. Although I wont be carrying you in the next 24 hours, it’s a pleasant feeling the fact that u exist somewhere inside my body.
Today I had the ultrasound (sonography) u r still too young to be seen in mommy’s stomach , but the blood test shows that we have you. ( seeing u would make way too difficult)
It’s not that ur dad and I don’t love u or anything but u see we’re living in a country where unmarried people can not have children. It’s against the law and we will face severe punishments and eventually u wouldn’t get a birth certificate. There are many reasons why we cant get married and I’m sure you’ll understand.
On the other hand, there are countries in which people would call you a love child. we believe that u really r a child of undying love.
You are my first child and u will always be.
There r kids up there in heaven and there are probably angles who would read u the letter. I believe in ur existance and so does your ur dad.
Please forgive us for not being able to keep you.
With love,
Your mother

Confused

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Nov 4th, 2010 | 2 comments

Im an 18 year old girl.
I have been dating this guy since year
We broke up for a month but it wasnt really a breakup since we’d still talk so much
During this time. A new guy, very handsome charming one, entered my life. He was all nice to me and very sweet, wanted to date me. I started liking him too.
We went out but i felt he didnt like me.. I feel i wasnt as pretty as he thought i am.. He started ignoring me
But He one day suddenly he showed up again.. took me for a long drive and made out..
And ever since that day has been ignoring me.
The guy i was dating before , Knows all this. Is ready to accept me..but i dont feel the same for him.
I dont love him the same way and now he feels more insecure about me too.
Another thing here is, ever since this rejection .. Ive been feeling that im ugly and not goodlooking and it makes me really sad.

What should i Do?

I am going to get over

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Nov 2nd, 2010 | 1 comment

I don’t know what it is about you, but you’re all I think about. I am so sad that we broke up. I can’t believe that anyone would try to come in between us and that it worked. I’m sad that you said you wanted to start over, but you never call. I slept with you hours after meeting you. You were the first person I told about the “incident”. And your response was to ignore me after. I kept going back to you, even after you got colder and colder. No more. You’re out of my phone. I’m not coming to you anymore. I’m going to live my life. I love you so much. But, I can’t do this anymore. My hearts broken and I don’t know if it will recover. You’ve treated me awfully, but I still would go back to you if you wanted me back. I don’t know why you told me you loved me. I don’t know why you told me you wanted to marry me, when you so easily broke up with me. I had my guard up and let it all down for you and you broke my heart. I still love you though. But it’s done on my side. I can’t keep coming to you.

Homewrecker

Posted by anonymous in Love on Oct 16th, 2010 | 6 comments

I met this guy in a chat room 6 months ago and we pretty much fell in love over the internet talking everyday for hours. When we finally saw each other 3 weeks ago it was exactly how we thought it would be; special, sweet,… and I was REALLY happy…
After a couple of dates he said he had something important to tell me… He told me he was still in a relationship with his ex-girlfriend 2 weeks ago and that she is pregnant with his child… And it wasn’t an accidental pregnancy! But now he broke up with her to be with me and I feel SO bad. He lied to me for 6 months saying he was single, living alone, etc. Now I just learned the truth and told him we can’t be together in this situation. I don’t want to break up a family (they also already have an older child that I was aware of and totally o.k. with)… But at the same time I love him a lot too… But I can’t see myself going out with a guy who’s soon going to be a father! I don’t think I could accept the new baby ever… He’s sending me flowers and telling me he wants us to have kids together (someday) and is really serious about us… But how can I be in a relationship with a guy that lied for me for 6 months and left his pregnant girlfriend… I told my friends and family and they’re telling me to run away but I just can’t… I love him and hate him so much at the same time… Being in that kind of relationship is against everything i believe in or wants for my future… I feel really bad for the pregnant ex but at the same time I hate her and her baby cause they are stopping me to be with the one I love… I know what I should do since that’s how I fell… But still I can’t manage to cut him off… I know people are going to say if he did that to his ex he could easily do it to you too, but it’s not like that… I don’t know what to do anymore… But the shittiest thing is what bothers me more… it isn’t the thought of breaking up a family… I’m not o.k with him having a baby with another girl I’m bitter and jealous… Scares me how selfish I am…

Just can’t tell everyone about it

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Oct 15th, 2010 | 1 comment

I’ve been the guy in girl-guy-girl relationship for almost 9 months now. They want to start a family and that’s cool, except only our closest friends know she isn’t just a roommate. I don’t want to come out to our families, I don’t want to lose something most men would kill for either, crap crap crap!

I feel guilty for breaking a heart

Posted by anonymous in Love on Oct 14th, 2010 | 5 comments

Around this time last year I met a girl and began to go out with her a few times. I knew at the time it was just a casual thing for me, I wasn’t head over heels about her but I found her good company, attractive enough and I had a laugh with her. After we had met up a few times she started pushing me to start a relationship with her. At the time I reluctantly agreed as I wasn’t sure how long my heart would be in it, but decided to give it go.

From then until around January this year it was all going well. We were seeing eachother a few times a week and enjoying eachothers company. Although I don’t think I loved her I did like her alot, I knew she had strong feelings for me because she would tell me.

She started to put a lot of weight on around March, and as shallow as this sounds I just stopped fancying her. I’m not cruel enough to tell her I thought she was unnatractive because she’s very sensitive, but our sex life did suffer. In truth I was just waiting for the right time to finish it from then.

Then she got sick and found out she would need an operation around July time. She was very worried and would give me a lot of ear ache. I thought she had enough on her plate so I couldn’t possibly finish it then. I decided to stay with her to support her until after the operation. The problem was I was just treading water.

The operation came and went and I stuck with her until the end of last month when we finished. Since then she has been broken hearted, bombarding me with messages. Often some of them have been nasty accusing me of cheating, and saying I’ve stripped her of her confidence, and making up stories about how she has another man now. In the others she pours her heart saying how she loves me.

I’ve been upset since we split because I miss her but I don’t love her, but the overwhelming feeling is guilt. I feel so guilty that I didn’t end it sooner and cause her less pain. I’ve hurt someone I care about and it feels horrible.

Am I crazy?

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Oct 10th, 2010 | 5 comments

I feel sick. I told you I love you because I didn’t want to hurt you. And in a way, I *do* love you. I don’t think you take our “relationship” seriously at all, and I know I don’t. I’m already trying to date another girl, and she confuses me so much. I can’t express myself rationally to you. I feel like I have to dumb everything down when I talk to you. And in the end, I know it’s just a stupid high-school infatuation. So, in closing, I feel less like a man, and more like a “little boy” whenever I talk to you. I love you, but I need someone I can fall in love with, not a highschool crush. And honestly, long distance relationships *rarely* work……

I love you. And now I know what I have to do.

truth is

Posted by kc in Love on Oct 5th, 2010 | 3 comments

i didnt have a abortion, i had a 9lb beautiful baby girl named sara. i just didnt want to tell you because i didnt want her to have a alcoholic father.