Secret Confessions

E,

You were my first true love. I still love you even today. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you.

There are days that I wonder why it wasn’t me that married you and had your baby. I still want that so badly but I am not willing to destroy your marriage.

Just know that I will always love you and miss you terribly.

K.

I AM AN 29 YEAR OLD WOMAN AND I’M IN LOVE WITH MY CO-WORKER AND IT’S DRIVING ME CRAZY. I SEE HIM ALL THE TIME, BUT HAVE ONLY SPOKEN TO HIM ONCE, I GET SO NERVOUS AND FLUSTERED WHEN HE COMES AROUND THAT I CAN’T CONCENTRATE ON MY WORK UNTIL HE LEAVES. I DON’T THINK HE LIKES ME AND I AM TO SCARED TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT ANYTHING.I HAVE TRIED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT
HIM BUT ITS HARD WHEN I SEE HIM EVERYDAY.IT MAKES ME FEEL DESPERATE AND FOOLISH ESPECIALLY WHEN I SEE HIM FLIRT WITH OTHER WOMEN.

WHY CAN’T I STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU!!!!

I spend so much time with you, No matter what happens, im always there, by your side. And yet, you continue to tell me how much you love others.
I sit here, wondering, you trust me more than them, but, you still love them more than you do me..
When I do see you around, you tend to have more fun with others than you do being around me.
But yet, when theres a problem, you come talk to me, and I do help you, but, only because I love you.

Some days, you make me feel unlike anything else I had ever felt before.
But others, I wish I could let you know how I really feel.

And at this point, I don’t know if I can keep on with this, I cant see you with another person that may hurt you again, I want to be the one there,

With you.

I’ve never been one for the epic sadness… But I guess that’s a lie.

I climb into bed only to stare down at it and realize it’s empty. And I feel empty. I always have to put on a face for someone, sometimes I have to be someone worse than I actually am to please people. And I love to please them.

My boyfriend, for one… I’m only seventeen but he means everything to me.

Sleep means nothing without him.

I just wish he wouldn’t ignore me, I wish he would scream at me and hit me and call me names. I wish he would acknowledge that I am here, and that he is safe and that I won’t use him like the others did. I could never use him, I could never hurt him.

And yet whatever he asks of me, even if it kills me, even when he shows me a picture that some girl sent him of her breast on his phone, even when he tells me I should get bigger breasts… Even when he ignores me, I still love him because he is the best I’ve ever had. I love him, and I wouldn’t trade him for the world.

I know everyone would judge me but I’ve been in love with this guy for about 3 years now. I only think about him and do anything I can to be around him. I finally told him I loved him a few moniths ago and we ended up getting very intimate. I believe I’ll marry him and even though I’m a christian, I have slept with him. The problem is that he is my youth director and 10 years older than me.

Now I can’t be with him cause I do want him to get into to trouble and can’t tell anyone what is wrong. I wish it could all be ok again. I wish I had never messed up his life.

After you decided I didn’t mean enough to you for us to carry a meaningful relationship, I drove all the way to California and slept for six whole nights in his arms…
We are getting married in a few months.

I still love my ex-boyfriend. We broke up about two years ago and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him. I wish I could forget b/c I know that nothing will ever surface again. He was the sweetest person in the world.

I am a 15 year old girl and i have been in love with a guy for 3 years, he is one of my bestfriends brother. i knew him before i even knew my bestfriend when it was the summer we went to the same place together and we practically spent the summer together they even slept over in our house and god how beautiful he is when hes sleeping. he is so not my type and hes nothing what im looking for but its something about him that my heart loves. i told him i liked him every single year of our friendship and the first time he told me that we should stay friends. the second time he said stay friends and i have tried but i just can’t when i told him the last time he didn’t say anything but after a while he told me that he didn’t say or do anything when i told him because our parents know each other and that he knows my brothers and that im his sisters bestfriend, but the thing is i see those as good things. i think its a way of seeing each other more than we already do but i guess he just doesn’t see those things the way i do. now its even more hard on me cause he has a girlfriend but the girl he is with doesn’t love him the way i do and im sure of it cause she told me that she used to love him but she doesn’t anymore and that she only likes him now and thats shes fallen for someone else i want to tell him that but i don’t want to break his heart. i really don’t know what to do anymore i love him so much i mean seriously and why can’t he just see that ive never felt anything like this before in my life, part of it is that im young but in the same time its just him. i want him to badly im actually at his house right now. everyone says we are perfect for each other. i need help i dont know what to do im going crazy!!!

Im in my final year of high school and recently a new guy came to the school, its been about 2 weeks now, and I’ve noticed I really like him. But the problem is he doesn’t notice me and im to afraid if I go up to him I will make a fool of myself. Also the popular girl likes him, but she has a better chance then me, because when he first came to school she took him under her wing, im so confused and don’t know what to do.

I’m married. I have a child. He is married. He has children. We broke up six years ago. He lives in another country. I’m still love sick and it is debilitating and embarassing.

Him and I met a few years back and became best of friends because of what we were going through. Our friendship grew and neither of us wanted a relationship mostly because he is 25 years older than me. We love each other very much but I am still ashamed by the fact that he is so much older than me. I can’t imagine my life without him. I have dated other men and they dont compare to him. I dont know what to do…I am so uncomfortable telling people how much older than me he really is. I hate it when people wonder whether we are father-daughter. I don’t know what to do…

i love being the girl you love; but i hate being the girl that doesn’t love you back.

Are my best friend. I love you more than I thought I could ever love anyone. But I can’t tell you.

I still love you and I’m scared to ask you to be mine again. I don’t love my current boyfriend, I barely like him. I did it to hurt you, and it worked. Now you hate me and I’ve never felt so alone. I just wish I could tell you this.

I am getting married soon to my most wonderful, caring and genuine, fiancee. This is his first marriage but not mine.My fiancee is the light of my life and the perfect guy for me. We both have accepted the past issues from my divorce and dealth with it and are moving on. But here’s the problem. My friends and certain members of our families won’t let the past die.They really liked my ex too even though I was friends with him for 10 years before I brought him into their life, it seems they’re choosing him. They constantly criticise our current actions saying I have no business remarrying without waiting like 6 years to “recover” and respectfully morn the past divorce. I think this is absurd and very antiquated. My fiancee does too. I think nearly all my friends have now turned on me, ladening me with heavy judgement and really hatefull cold shoulders but also giving big guilt trips when I try to pull away from their nasty treatment, saying that I’m wrong and know it and am trying to run away with my tail between my legs and ruin a perfectly good friendship. My fiancee wants to marry in a church and invite them all. He doesn’t know how bad they are treating me behind his back. I just want to elope. Besides hostility from his family and my friends, it’s becoming consitently harder to not go crazy trying to deal with all these other people’s drama and plan our wedding. My fiancee sometimes thinks I have some deep reserve of super-hero forgiveness and patience and can’t seem to see how much pain I’m in with the harrassing treatment I’m getting on all sides. Nowfor the confession part. I know he’s wonderful and the perfect guy for me. And I don’t want anyone BUT him and if I weren’t with him there woudn’t be another go at this for me. But I’m thinking about breaking it off it he can’t help me and support me and protect me (instead of just blowing off my feelings.)