Secret Confessions

She kicked me out over a year and a half ago for some guy she met online.

Everything reminds me of her. I’ve tried so hard to move on and find someone else, but christ– I can’t do it. I loved her so much. I had never even considered marriage until I met this girl. Even something as mindless as an advertisement reminds me of that one day, that one moment, something that occured between us. Every girl I’ve been with or slept with evokes a memory of her. I haven’t seen her in months and her face is still fresh in my mind– not that scowling, angered face that countered mine of horrified confusion, but that of her just-rare-enough smile, with that tinge of a blush.

I wonder sometimes, what she would think if she knew I still loved her this much.

I’m married, with 2 children & I have fallen in love with another man.

I used to think heartache was just something that was made up to write cheasy songs about. Unfortunately, now I know how real it is.
I’m a married man that fell in love with a married coworker. I’ve never acted on it. She just thinks of me as a good friend. Rather, she did. I’ve been ignoring her lately, trying to let my feeling subside, so who knows what she thinks now. Its been over a year. I still think about her all of the time. It’s hard not to. I see her more than my wife. I know that only time and distance can help me fall out of love but its hard to make that happen given the situation.
It’s not a physical or lustful thing. I just think about a time that I could tell her how much I care for her and love her. I know she knows how I feel but not to the extent that I do.
I’m trying to make these feeling pass. Every time she enters my mind I literally feel a pain in my heart. Its a little less strong these days. I feel like I am slowly getting over her, now that I don’t speak to her as much, but I have a long way to go.
I feel bad that we can’t have the friendship like we had. She’s an amazing person and a wonderful friend but I know I can’t continue to be her friend if I want to get passed this.
I miss her. I’m sorry I fell in love and screwed up our friendship. I mean no disrespect to our families. I didn’t ask to fall in love. I’m trying not to be. I really am.

I really don’t know in witch category this should go so I put it in love… Well it is just another love story I guess, but it’s mine. See I am head over heals for this guy well I think his the best and his not any guy, his my best friend. I know here goes someone else who falls in love with there best friend but, well he also feels the same way he told me a week ago that he has always liked me, no actually he said that he loved me, but when he said this I just couldn’t get myself to tell him I also care about him the same way… yeah I know I was stupid but I just couldn’t because I know that if I tell him how I feel I would ruin his life I know that I’m just not right for him my life is going to shit and I know he has a good future ahead for him and I just don’t want to take him down with me. Besides he has a really nice girlfriend who I know will make him happy specially since I was the one who presented them with those intention exactly. I know this sounds like a really bad soap opera I guess but I just had to get it out of my chest.

I fell in loved to guy who is already married, have 2 kids and I believed having an affair with another female officemate (i felt). We always greet each other as in, everytime see each other in the office (weird did you think?). I always pray for him as in EVERYDAY, for heath, his family and good fortune. My officemates always tease me to him which i always denies it and treat them i will burn them to stakes (im so evil….). But, deep inside i really, really, really loved him. Btw im gay.

I’ve only known you for two weeks, but I already love you so much. The problem is I can’t really tell you, because you’re from my same gender. I’d love to hear you love me too, but we’re 4,000 miles away from each other. You’re the only one I think of when I feel down or in trouble. I guess I’ll never tell you. I don’t know what you think about me. I feel so sad when we don’t talk.

God, I love you so much. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much i love you… <3

xx

After we’ve been done dating for 2 years we are closer than we’ve ever been. You are my best friend. I can tell you anything and everything about me. Nobody understands me better than you, and no one understands you better than me. Can’t we just give it another go? If not I think we need to stop talking all together, because I can’t imagine ever not feeling this way.

The best moment in my life was hugging him goodbye, and simultaneously looking into each others eyes and realising that no words were needed.

He lives half a world away, and I’ll never tell him, but I’m in love with him.

I love her so much. We hang out whenever we can. I used to call her out and now she calls me out. It’s so frustrating to look at her and feel the way I do and not be able to act on it.

She has a boyfriend.

I’m just waiting now. I’m waiting for that one moment where she’s single and I can finally tell her how I’ve felt for so long. Even if she doesn’t feel the same way, at least there will be no more secrets.

It would be something if she did love me, too. But even if she did have feelings for me, I don’t think she would tell me. I think it’s best this way given the circumstances. Oh… how life can be so absurd…

i love my boyfriend.
bu my ex, i still think about him.
ALL the time.

I am completely without a doubt in love with a young man 16 years younger than me. He is 18, i am 34. Sigh. He has no issues with our relationship and i have..mostly because i feel as if i am doing something “wrong”, but, my heart says otherwise. There is no sex involved…for the most part, it is all communications, interests that is keeping us attached to eachother. I love him so much, that my heart cannot take being away from him much longer..

Even though i know we can never be together, there is part of me that keeps hoping, and keeps wanting the impossible…

I wonder how long its going to take for that wanting to go away…i keep waiting, i keep expecting that one day im going to wake up and not have these feelings, or that each day a little bit of them dies until one day i realise that they are gone…

It seems to be the opposite though, the wild infatuation has gone yes, but it seems to have been replaced by a genuine love and respect. One that doesnt fade, doesnt envelop me but haunts each moment. My waking thought, my sleeping dream.

I think i have accepted that he is with her, i have accepted that they are together. I have no choice but to either accept it or tear myself apart with it, i try not to think about it all the same..i dont want to face it, but i know he must kiss her goodbye, and tell her he loves her….

But every day that love i have for him seems to grow a little more. When all i want it to do is fade, to release me. Release me from the torment i put myself in..all of my own doing. I want to be able to think of him being with her and being happy for him, not for it to feel like its ripping me apart and wanting so badly for it to be me.

I am in love with my Mum’s friend who she has feelings for. I am 21, he is 45. I met him a year ago and we became friends but I knew instantly that I felt something strong and so did he. We have been together a few times and we recently admitted our love to eachother. My Mum doesn’t know.

I can’t take the guilt. I can never be with him properly because I can’t hurt her. She is such a brilliant Mum. It would destroy her friendship with him and she would be so dissappointed in me.

I have decided to be friends with him. But it is so hard. I am trying and am succeeding though. I am just scared that somehow one day she may find out and I will break her heart

I have been in and out of a relationship with this guy for 9 years. We started going out when I was 14 he was 16. we were madly in love. We started growing up and growing apart. We moved in together and he wouldn’t come home until the wee hours of the morning and I was always home waiting for him. I moved out 6 months later. We were still together. Since then we have been on and off, but never spent a full week without talking to each other or seeing each other. We still loved one another and cried at the thought of not being together. I finally started to see other people because he wouldn’t make a commitment and started drinking all the time. He would come to me and say everything I wanted to hear and I would break it off with other boy and after that he would not live up to his promises. We still always talked and spent time together but no commitment. That happened three times with casual relationships. I finally met someone who I fell for in a short time span. I was going to move with him. My ex of 7 years (at the time) completely ruined the relationship between the guy and I. He made his promises and I of course, fell for it and left the guy I was with. He did the same thing again and didn’t fulfill his promises. So, I decided that I would not go out with anyone else b/c I didn’t think it was right to put someone else through all that b/c I wasn’t over my ex. My ex and I did what we usually did and I would do everything for him, love him and treat him like a king. Then, I got pregnant. He yelled at me and treated me terrible. He even said that if I had it I would ruin his life. I couldn’t believe that the guy I have loved for 9 years would do this to me. During “complications” (abortion) he stopped talking to me so much and showed no affection. I went to appointments all by myself and got really depressed. After some time we mended our relationship and were together. But still no Solid commitment. He told me he loved me. Just a couple of days ago he said that he had met someone else. Nothing too serious just hung out a couple of times. He still wants to talk to me and see me though. I’m truly tired but I don’t know how to get away from him. It’s like my heart is glued to him. Need some words of wisdom. I can’t talk to anyone else. Thanks.