Secret Confessions

I’ve had a secret relationship with a married co-worker for the past 2 1/2 yrs. I know his wife, kids and most of his family. We both tell eachother how much we “Love” one another daily. I’m so wrapped up in him and couldn’t imagine ending it…he is everything I want with 1 set back, he’s married. What he doesn’t know is my whole family knows about our secret.

I’ve seen it coming for a long time: I have fallen in love with someone “too old for me”. Not the creepy kind of age difference, but a senior dating a freshman would be “weird”. To make matters worse, he’s my best friend’s ex-boyfriend. (I’m partially responsible for their breakup; the first time I called him on my own was to apologize. My friend was secretly hanging out with her ex. He guessed, I confirmed.)

My parents can’t stand it. They say that I should be hanging out with “people my age”. They complain over and over that I don’t have “friends” my age. I’ve tried, Mom and Dad, to make friends my age. It doesn’t work.

My friends can’t stand it either. My best friend from a long time says she “couldn’t see it working between us”. My other friend (his ex) says she doesn’t care if I’m friends with him, but when she found out that we talk almost every day, she seemed a little more than shocked.

My only connection to see him in person, since my parents won’t let me go by myself, would be through his ex. He doesn’t want to be around her. I have no idea when the next time I see his face is going to be, and it hurts.

What’s worse is that by the time I’m eighteen, when I can date whoever I want, he’ll be enlisted in the army. He’ll be there for six years, possibly more. Then I’m really screwed.

He doesn’t know that I like him, and I don’t know if he likes me. I’m afraid that I’ll creep him out. He says that I’m easy to talk to, I never get on his nerves with my constant phone calls, and we can talk for hours and hours about anything and nothing: classic cartoons, life, Tim Burton, and the fact that my cat is morbidly obese. He’s also way overprotective of me and gets really mad when he thinks I’m not being treated right.

I love him, I love him, I love him.

But I don’t know if I can.

I really am in love with this girl. She’s amazingly beautiful, and some of the things she does in bed are…amazing to say the least. The one thing is that I never cum. Her room mate gets back sooner than expected, or it’s too late. She says she wants to have sex, that she trusts me. She keeps saying that since she hasn’t had sex in a while, it would hurt. I’m being extremely patient. I just want a blowjob or something. Just so I don’t have to keep using J.I.L.L all the time. Foreplay lasts forever, and it never goes anywhere. She wears this little school girl mini skirt when she’s been hinting all day at having sex that night. Then when the time roles around…nothing. She goes to sleep. The feeling I get when her skin presses against mine is unbelievable. I do love her, I just want some kind of physical interaction more than a kiss and a hug. I feel like a horrible person.

I’ve fallen in love with someone at work and can’t stop thinking about her even when I’m with my wife. Nothings happened and it’s not going to, she wouldn’t want it to and she wouldn’t want me to leave my wife for her. It’s just at times, when we’re out after work in a group for a drink, we flirt and occasionally hold hands. I feel like a child again when I’m in her company, always wanting to be near her, possibly touching.
I just don’t know what to do, if anything, about how I feel

I love you so, so, so much. I really need you to be there for me. I wish I could tell you how I feel, but I know for sure you’ll never want to talk to me again. I really want to tell you so bad, but I don’t want to lose you.

I Can Count My Favorites On One Hand.
REDToasters.Robots.Vampires.
Candy.Piercings.
I Can Count My Love On One Finger.
You.

But the number of butterflies in my stomach is endless.
<3

[Do you want to die with me.?]

first let me start by saying im a lesbian and i was trying to live a lie before, until i came out, but thats not what i want to talk about.

i met this girl like 2 years ago, we dated and we fell madly in love, i was the happiest person alive, when we were together i felt like nothing could go wrong and i felt like i could do anything. she has the most beautiful blue eyes and perfect blonde hair, she is just gorgeous.
after 3 months of dating, i was supposed to go on a trip to another country, to visit my moms family and stuff (my mom is the biggest homophobic, tho she didnt know about my relationship) when i was there, somehow my dads part of the family found out that i was dating a girl and my aunts started telling my mom, so i was stuck in another country while my mother was getting brain washed by my own family..

well my mother found out and decided that i wasnt gonna go back to the states, me and my gf continued our relationship for a few more months, i neve actually knew i could miss someone so much to the point ur heart hurts, just the urge to hug them and kiss them and just look into their eyes, its was unbearable.. my gf decided that we should take a break cause she wanted me there and it was too painful not to be with me.. we would still talk everyday on the phone and the computer, it didnt feel like we werent together anymore..

but not long ago she started dating, she has dated a few girls and i just get so jealous and i start bitching.. then she would tell me that she misses me and that she thinks of me when she was with any girl.. then it doesnt work out with them. but now she has found one and she is in a relationship with her.. when i saw her status i just wanted to break down and cry, it felt so horrible, my whole day was just weird and i couldnt take that off my head, just made my daily activities harder than ever.. today was the first day that we talk in weeks, i miss her terribly..

ive tried so hard to move on, tried dating, tried being with someone, just tried everything.. i dont know how to do it, i dont know what to do to forget her. its so scary to read and hear of people that cant forget their first true love..
im gonna be 20 by the end of the month and if wished would come true, id wish to see her one more time.
but ive wished so much and so hard that i stopped believing in them..
i would give anything to be able to hold her in my arms one more time, maybe thats what i need to finally realize that she is not mine anymore, even if her actual relationship is not going well and its only been 3 days

if anyone know what to do to forget someone, please tell me, cause i just dont know how

You are my first love and i love you so much
Even though you are too far away from me,my love is growing more and more…
I can’t stop loving you because you are my first real lave
I think of you all the time and i can’t stop it
I think of you in my sleepless solitude night
I think of you every day
I miss you so much and i can’t live without you…
Amir , I love my darling

your massages suck!! i actually hurt worse when you’re done! i tell you and i show you, and you still try to fix me like you fix a car! but something is better than nothing, and i want you to feel like i need you anyway.

We were together but i ended it.. i regret it but its something i did.. you didnt want to get back. you were my first and i was your first. you say you love me and you always will.. we are friends now and im okay with it… honestly.. but the thing that kills me is today after we talked you told me that your love life is on hold because when the right girl comes back to you.. it will be active again.. and i thought i was the one.. but i was mistaken.. even though the same time you told me who the girl was.. you still do love me.. and you still admit you do. why am i not the one, after everything we have been though.. after all those years of you wanting me and loving me!!

She kicked me out over a year and a half ago for some guy she met online.

Everything reminds me of her. I’ve tried so hard to move on and find someone else, but christ– I can’t do it. I loved her so much. I had never even considered marriage until I met this girl. Even something as mindless as an advertisement reminds me of that one day, that one moment, something that occured between us. Every girl I’ve been with or slept with evokes a memory of her. I haven’t seen her in months and her face is still fresh in my mind– not that scowling, angered face that countered mine of horrified confusion, but that of her just-rare-enough smile, with that tinge of a blush.

I wonder sometimes, what she would think if she knew I still loved her this much.

I’m married, with 2 children & I have fallen in love with another man.

I used to think heartache was just something that was made up to write cheasy songs about. Unfortunately, now I know how real it is.
I’m a married man that fell in love with a married coworker. I’ve never acted on it. She just thinks of me as a good friend. Rather, she did. I’ve been ignoring her lately, trying to let my feeling subside, so who knows what she thinks now. Its been over a year. I still think about her all of the time. It’s hard not to. I see her more than my wife. I know that only time and distance can help me fall out of love but its hard to make that happen given the situation.
It’s not a physical or lustful thing. I just think about a time that I could tell her how much I care for her and love her. I know she knows how I feel but not to the extent that I do.
I’m trying to make these feeling pass. Every time she enters my mind I literally feel a pain in my heart. Its a little less strong these days. I feel like I am slowly getting over her, now that I don’t speak to her as much, but I have a long way to go.
I feel bad that we can’t have the friendship like we had. She’s an amazing person and a wonderful friend but I know I can’t continue to be her friend if I want to get passed this.
I miss her. I’m sorry I fell in love and screwed up our friendship. I mean no disrespect to our families. I didn’t ask to fall in love. I’m trying not to be. I really am.

I really don’t know in witch category this should go so I put it in love… Well it is just another love story I guess, but it’s mine. See I am head over heals for this guy well I think his the best and his not any guy, his my best friend. I know here goes someone else who falls in love with there best friend but, well he also feels the same way he told me a week ago that he has always liked me, no actually he said that he loved me, but when he said this I just couldn’t get myself to tell him I also care about him the same way… yeah I know I was stupid but I just couldn’t because I know that if I tell him how I feel I would ruin his life I know that I’m just not right for him my life is going to shit and I know he has a good future ahead for him and I just don’t want to take him down with me. Besides he has a really nice girlfriend who I know will make him happy specially since I was the one who presented them with those intention exactly. I know this sounds like a really bad soap opera I guess but I just had to get it out of my chest.

I fell in loved to guy who is already married, have 2 kids and I believed having an affair with another female officemate (i felt). We always greet each other as in, everytime see each other in the office (weird did you think?). I always pray for him as in EVERYDAY, for heath, his family and good fortune. My officemates always tease me to him which i always denies it and treat them i will burn them to stakes (im so evil….). But, deep inside i really, really, really loved him. Btw im gay.