I cheated on my bf online…

I was bored one night, and decided to go on an IRC sex chatroom, not with the intent of actually engaging in the stuff they do there, but just out of curiousity to see how many idiots I could find. This one guy started talking to me in a personal window, and things got weird really quickly… Like, he was talking about all the things he wanted to to do me, and I was making no effort to stop him because it was giving me a sick thrill… So I was basically some random guy’s good time, while my caring, loving boyfriend is clueless. I don’t know why I did it and it hasn’t happened since, but as soon as I left my computer screen I started crying and the memory of it disgusts me…

A kiss

I am close to someone and spend alot of time with her. Suddenly, without warning I started wanting to kiss her so bad that it hurts. I try to keep this feeling locked inside but I can’t help it. If she were anyone else in this world I would find a way to win her over and make it happen but there is no one more out of reach to me. I can never tell her this. I can never let it become obvious. I’m afraid that this feeling may one day ruin the close frienship we have. Sometimes I think there is a tiny chance she would do it someday. Like maybe deep inside she wants to kiss me too. But that thought is like torture to me. There is too much to lose to find out. I do not understand why I want this so bad with this person. It’s just a kiss. I hope this feeling fades away as fast as it can.

Love my wife, but crazy for another

I love my wife. She’s the best thing that’s happened to me and we have a good life.

But I’m crazy about another. I’m not trying to cheat, and thankfully she has a serious boyfriend, so I doubt she’d pursue anything with me anyway. But she’s fantastic, and I can’t breathe unless I hear from her. She left for a week and I was sad that she was gone, just felt incomplete. I enjoy spending time with her personally and professionally. She’s fun, smart, beautiful, caring, cute, nice to everyone, and we just click.

I don’t want to leave my wife, its not even an option in my mind. But I do wish I could spend one day free with this other girl. Just one day where I could take care of her, not even do anything sexual. Just enjoy each other’s company in private, and hold her close. We’re already close colleagues/friends. To just once feel that closeness with her in mind and body, forgetting about the outside world. Just once, that would be enough.

Am I too young to love?

I am a young (Just about 15) and always liking different girls every year, but two years ago a girl got my attention and i have not been able to think about anyone else. She Beautiful (Not Hot, Sexy, or Delicious), and this year we go to different schools, so contact has dropped drastically from the point were we hung out every day after school to just barely seeing her on Facebook. She’s smart, clever, fashionable, sweet, and even a bad girl if she wants too. I would rake a bullet for her and lay down my life for her safety. I know you are thinking I am too young but unlike most people I have been known to be cunning and to think things to the fullest. She is like a drug to me and I don’t want to stay sober.

Why does nobody like me?

I like a girl in school, but i think she doesn’t like me. I can’t stop thinking about her, sometimes i can’t sleep because of her. Im so lonely. I have thought, if i die suddenly, would she know that i am gone or will she miss me? Why do i feel so bad about it. Some guys don’t give a shit if a girl doesn’t like them, but i get so sad, loneley, and i can’t sleep. I wish she would like me.

Went out on a limb for you..

So I decided to send you some carnations for Valentines day, hoping that you would somehow figure out it was me and we’d fall deeply and madly in love.

What the hell was I thinking?

You still don’t know I exist.

By the way, Taylor, it was a calculus equation, not a code, and when solved, it would read “69??” It’s a cheesy pick up line, and I thought you’d get it.
I was wrong about that too.

Love for my step-daughter.

I write this now as my feelings have become too strong to ignore or suppress. Do not mistake that I am somehow confused over my feelings only deeply saddened. I am tormented by them. I lie awake at night reliving small moments of time with her. I wake ridden with anxiety over the possibility of not seeing her. I linger over pictures of her for periods of time that seem infinite. I am lost and in pain. My adult step-daughter has become a young woman with striking beauty, gentle grace, intelligence and all of the things I desire in one I wish to spend my life with. My thoughts are consumed by her and I am helplessly captivated by her smile, her words, her smell…her. Even as I write this, tears overwhelm me. I long to hold her and kiss her as I would the love of my life, as I am sure she is. We share more together than I can honestly admit to sharing with anyone else. Simply having her close to me fills me with warmth and I honestly bask in her sweet and gentle nature. I watch over and protect her as a parent should but the selfishness of my love for her consumes me and blurs my role. There are flickers of a passionate love in return but I can’t bring myself to capture those moments. I recognize something different in her love for me; shy and nervous but a consuming knowledge that something else is between us. I hear in her words small hints of loneliness and longing. I see jealousy in her eyes when with her mother. I feel desperation in her hugs. Something about her manner towards me is destroying my sanity. I tread in dangerous waters as I admit to these feelings but I fear the thought of dying and never expressing my love or dancing with her again. I love her with all my heart and perhaps this forum will prove to be the only link to the feelings I have. Perhaps her search for her own answers will bring her to this passage.

im a cheater

i love my girlfriend but i always feel like cheating and sneaking around with other women, i dont want to be like this but i cant stop myself from wanting all of these women

My second kid

I love my 9 year old more then anything in the world… I feel no bond whatsoever to my 2 month old.

I love you but I need more.

I love you husband. You are the kindest and most gentle man I have ever known. Your touch still makes me giddy even after 12 years. Last April I made the decision to pursue an affair. Since June I have someone else that I am falling in love with in my life too. In addition to that precious man, I also have very close friendships with men and we flirt heavily all the time. I want more or many more I can’t tell.Everyone around us loves you because you are a great and wonderful man. I make sure I do my best to make others think the worst of you in case I leave and need to justify myself. I can’t help wanting more even though you are more than I could ever hope for. You found out about my friend and it broke you into pieces even though it wasn’t sexual. I am going to divorce you baby to save you from any future hurt I could cause you. I am divorcing you for your sake even though you beg and plead for the love that I want to give but don’t know how. I am truly sorry.

I love a woman who’s completely out of reach

There’s a girl (now a woman) that I’ve been attracted to since high school. I spent three years waiving and saying hi to her, but never had the courage to have a conversation or try to become her friend. I’m almost 23, and have never been on a date, kissed, or had any other romantic contact. I can’t see any reason why a woman would want to be with me.
It’s been five years since I graduated high school, and six years since she has. She’s dated a professional footballer, graduated from an expensive, high-quality Jesuit school, speaks two or three languages, is a second degree black belt in Kyuki-Do, has lived an entire year in Germany, and placed pretty well in the Kommerzbank’s 26-mile Frankfurt marathon.
I know all that through my obsession with and research about her, although I’ve never directly bothered or stalked her. She probably doesn’t know anything about what I do, unless she can tell that I visit her profile on Facebook to see a picture of her; just to get a glimpse of my ideal woman. Ultimately, I’ve stayed well away and let her live her life. I’d like to think that I truly care about her more than I do myself.
Despite that respect, I can never stop thinking about her, which makes me feel hopeless and suicidal. I literally get a feeling between elation and a stroke at the thought of her. She is so far above me that I can’t even see her.
It’s ruining my life. I don’t see any other woman as even being in the same league as her, although I am starting to understand more and more that she’s just another selfish yuppie Caucasian female. That doesn’t stop me from idolizing her, though. I base my life goals around trying to prove to myself that I’m good enough for her. I’ve improved my own life a lot just trying to reach that standard: exercising, eating right, losing weight, language learning, going to a university, entering study abroad programs. I’m even ready to sell out and become a yuppie, if it will bring me closer to her. I’d abandon my interest and selfishly focus on going to Europe for her. I’d adore Starbucks and where North Face and Columbia Sportswear for her. I’d believe in a religion for her. I’d adopt certain values for her. I’d move where she wants me to move. I’d have her ideal size of family. I’d change my major. I’d do almost anything for her, except kill.
I’ve already wasted most of my youth. I’m thinking about committing suicide, because I don’t think I have what it takes to find any happiness in life. Even if I did somehow meet her again, I’m sure there would be the same lack of courage that has always kept her at a great distance from me. If you got this far, thank you for reading my disheveled opus of my own mediocrity.

i dont know what to do

i care about the person i love very much and i think about her every night and day,and i think its wrong because im agirl too, and i keep harming myself with basicaly anything sharp i can find, my learning mentors tried to say i self harm and ive deniedit to him completly so im now abig fat liar! and i really want to tell my friend how i feel but im too scared of losing her as a friend and her hating me and maybe even wanting to kill me, i dont want to keep ,lying to her when she asks me ” why do you self harm “.
4 of my friends allready know how i feel about her and i dont think i can trust them to not tell her and if they figured it out for thwemselves how long will it take for her to figure it out? i dont want her to find out from anyone else ii thgink if she does ever find out she should hear it from me, but every time i try to tell her i cant find the words and the truth is its slowly killing me inside cause i cant resist punnishing myself and drawing blood its like a need or something!