neighborly love

Posted by Triumph in Love on Sep 3rd, 2010 | 0 comments

I’m married… maybe not happily, but not really unhappily either. My problem is that I have thought for quite some time that my husband was just not a good match for me. Now it’s even worse because I’ve developed a crush on my neighbor. He has an amazing personality and good looks to match it. I know a relationship would never work, even if I wasn’t married… because my family would not approve. Anyways, long story short… I have the major hots for my neighbor. I actually had an excuse to touch him a week ago and it was awesome. I mean it was so awesome that I don’t even feel bad about it. I hope it happens again. I’m pretty sure I would cheat on my husband with him.

I know this makes me a bad person… my confession is that I don’t really care that much… and that makes me wonder what kind of person I have turned into..

Frustrated & Confused

Posted by anon in Love on Sep 2nd, 2010 | 2 comments

I’m a married man of 15 years and I love my wife. But due to circumstances beyond her control the intimacy is dead. I have always loved women of all shapes and sizes and have been faithful to my wife. But in the last year or so I find myself getting infatuated with women I have no business being so with.

I generally like women my own age 38 but I recently met a woman (25) and I can’t stop thinking about her. She actually does some freelance work for me and that’s how I found myself in this position.

I’m around beautiful women on a regular basis so it’s not that this girl is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen but she is a total package. Good looking, sense of humor, same taste in music and beautiful on the inside. She’s also mature for her age group.

A couple of weeks ago we had to go out of town on some business. One night after work I asked her if she wanted to go hang out for a bit. We spent all night just talking until the early morning hours.

Now she already had an idea that I think she’s great but I made sure I told her so there was no confusion. At this point she tells me she is in love with her bf of 7yrs and I should have found her 3yrs earlier. I walked her back to her room and ended it with a hug and kiss on the cheek.

It was the best night I’ve had in a long time!

The next day after work I asked if we could do it again and we did. We just sat and talked until the sun came up. Another great night!

Problem is I can’t get her out of my head. I only see her once a month so this is killing me. Part of me wants to play the friend roll and see where this goes and hope I’m in the right place at the right time. Or I may discover she’s really not what I thought she was.

I understand she’s in love with her bf but if she didn’t have any interest would she have spent both nights with me? Or is it just my male DNA telling me there’s more there than there actually is?

I’m so confused! I want to see where this leads but maybe it’s just wishful thinking.

Why my marriage is ending.

Posted by Joshua in Love on Aug 21st, 2010 | 4 comments

I believe the barest, simplest answer I can give for my marriage coming to and end is unmet want and need. Someone opened my eyes to what I wanted and that vision wasn’t well enough aligned with who I am or what I have for me to be at peace. I was agitated, hungry and desirous. I allowed the want to eat at me. I fell in love with the woman that planted the seed of want within me.

I don’t know that I will ever be able to adequately explain myself to anyone who questions me about my decision to allow my marriage to dissolve. All I can say is maybe I know how I allowed this to come into my life. Boredom will leave doors open. Not understanding emotional boundaries and disregarding warnings allowed a relationship with another woman to flourish. Finding an emotional connection to her that surpasses all that have come before put something deep in my heart. Knowing that this deep emotional connection had been missing from my life lead me to pursue it. That woman has turned me away, for the time being at least, but the desire remains. My wife asked me what I would do if she won’t have me and the only answer is to keep looking. To keep looking for that emotional connection. The trouble is she’s probably the only one that my heart, mind and soul would accept completely.

I want his friend.

Posted by Pixie in Love on Aug 16th, 2010 | 2 comments

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 9 months, last night i went to a party and one our mutual friends was there. My boyfriend didnt attend the party and during the night, our friend kissed me, and i kissed him back.
However, this feels different, i feel like he meant it and he said he loved me, and I told him I loved him too… now all i want to do is kiss him and be with him.
The only other problem is… He has a girlfriend.

stupid crying

Posted by Anon Girl in Love on Aug 14th, 2010 | 0 comments

I saw you tonight for the first time in 3 months. You my ex-fiance, my first love. We were at a mutual friends birthday party. You are still as handsome as you have always been. We’ve only been broken up for 6 months.I left you. I left because I knew you stopped loving me. I just couldn’t be in a relationship with you if you didn’t love me anymore. It nearly Killed me leaving you. It was so hard.

We were together for 1 year and 9 months. We were going to get married this past May on our 2nd anniversary. When our anniversary rolled around, I hurt so bad. I wanted to be your wife,your soulmate. I remember when we used to say that we were each other soulmates.

I know you loved me before,because I noticed when it was slipping away. I could literally feel the difference. I tried so hard to keep you,to have you love me again. Why did you stop loving me? You promised me forever. You even wanted to have children with me before. What did I do to make you stop loving me? You were such a good man, and still are. You don’t cheat, you don’t abuse people, you are a generally nice guy.

I remember crying my eyes out on my hands and knees begging you to never leave me. Even though in the end, it was I who left. Then after a couple months, I find out you like my best friend. Why was she better than me? I gave you everything.She doesn’t even want you in that way. How can you have a crush on her? Wasn’t I good enough for you? Did I have too many problems? It felt like a jagged knife was shoved in my heart and twisted when I learned you wanted her. COuld you ahve not chosen anyone else besides her. It honestly wouldn’t of hurt as much.

I was with you for almost 2 years… I pined after you for 2 years before that. I always wanted you; heart,body,and soul. I gave all of that to you. We were more than lovers. You were my best friend. You know Everything about me, more than Anyone. That is still true.

I doubt I am still in love with you anymore, but I will always love you. Always love you and have you in my heart. My first love was a very good man..but I guess I wasn’t good enough for him. I was also his first love and first lover.

I just want real love again. I’m so afraid though. To give everything once again…and then the same thing happens.

5years on+off

Posted by love/hate in Love on Aug 11th, 2010 | 2 comments

I have known this guy for 5 years. In the last 3 our feelings for each other have become stronger even though we have been on and off for the 5years I have known him for. Every guy I go with I compare them to him. I never get why though; he’s nothing special, he’s put on weight, he’s rude, worries what everyone thinks when he’s with me, the sex isn’t exactly amazing – I wouldn’t even say it’s good and it drives me ******* crazy, at times I even hate him!

But when I stop talking to him, I cant get him off my mind, he’s all I think about, all I want. When I talk to him, we don’t have a proper convosation. The only time he talks to me is when he has a free house and his parents are away and I know then that he wants sex and nothing else. Even though I don’t want to go, I end up going. I don’t always have sex with him but I still sleep in the same bed as him.

My friends hate him, I hate him at times, but I can’t forget about him!

I am afraid of your debt issues

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Aug 9th, 2010 | 2 comments

I love you and our relationship, but I am afraid of your debt issues. If we combine our resources, and split our costs in half, sharing everything, I am afraid of getting lost in that.

You have lots of goals to accomplish in the next year… getting a masters degree, buying a house, traveling, and, um, paying off your debt. But I don’t know how it will be possible unless you develop a plan of action and follow through. Be realistic!

Right now, all we do is spend, spend, spend. We do not live an expensive lifestyle at all…. but can we humble ourselves a little more and cut costs? Can you humble yourself and ask for help from your parents, even though, as an adult, you are embarrassed by that?

I am afraid of your debt issues because I am disorganized myself. I fear what I see in you because I have a tendency towards it myself.

I am frustrated that the issue is too “emotional” for you to talk about. It needs to be talked about and a plan needs to be made. I want to see action taken!

Dear mum,

Posted by Of Loving Hearts in Love on Aug 7th, 2010 | 2 comments

Hey, hi there. You think we’re good children, don’t you? Yeah we’re a bit lazy, kinda frustrating, but good children. Well let me tell you a bit of us three, the ones who in your mind still have a chance at succeeding since we didn’t get pregnant. My first sister, let’s call her Linda, yeah. Linda. She’s going to China, of course, and she’s really excited. She took Mandarin classes, so you think that’s why she’s going to China, because she’s being successful in college. Truth be told, she’s going to go see her boyfriend she’s been with for three years and she’s never told you. Strike one for one of your angels. Second sister, lets name her Morgan just because I feel like it. Morgan, she’s somewhere between the lines in your mind, but she’s going on, she’s the one who’s been the most truthful even if she is a pain in the ass sometimes. Well, she’s had 3 boyfriends you’ve never known about. She got her first kiss at 15, and you have no idea about that because of how closed minded you are. She had her first love at the same age I did and you don’t know about this. Strike two for your angels. Me? My name shall be Nova, just because I feel like it. I have my boyfriend right now and I love him, but you don’t know that. He lives far away but I met him the other day. I’ve been with him 8 months, and you don’t know that. You won’t take me seriously when I tell you I love him so I’ve never mentioned it to you!!!!!! IN YOUR EYES I’M ONLY A TEEN!!! I CAN’T LOVE!!! that’s your mentality, your closed minded mentality. And you were disappointed with the oldest, because she found love over the web and now she’s married and has a baby. How am I supposed to tell you of my first love? How are any of us supposed to tell you? It’s nearly impossible to do so, you having your mind. Oh and the other day, we made out. I got my first kiss that day, and I couldn’t tell you. I was in the arms of another teenager like I. And we held each other with love and didn’t want to let go. My sisters know, all of them do, but you and my dad do not. So much for your little angels.

not too strange…?

Posted by Renata in Love on Aug 7th, 2010 | 1 comment

My boyfriend treats me like a goddess. We’ve been going out for several months… but I have a best friend in high school, and found out she’s–yes, she– is in love with me. In the future I wonder what it will be like if a chance arises to go out with her, because in the past I had a crush on her. My family will probably kill me before they allow me to become a lesbian, ha-ha… I care about my boyfriend and love him too. Torn…

I’m in love with a married man

Posted by Anonymous in Love on Aug 1st, 2010 | 15 comments

We met online quite by chance… we were friends for almost 2 years then it turned romantic. I would never tell him but I wish he would leave his wife for me…I realize this is a foolish hope. He’s been with her 30-something years and he lives in another state. Ever feel like someone is your soul mate?? So unfair he belongs to someone else. And yes I know I will probably be the loser in this if it ever comes down to a choice. I will probably end up with a broken heart. I am divorced so nothing holding me back. But for now… I just love him! :)

I’m so STUPID.

Posted by so stupid ,so dumb in Love on Jul 28th, 2010 | 4 comments

i used to love this girl she was the most amazing girl ever , and the most amazing thing is that she loved me back , i spend many years studing in highschool with her and never had the guts to tell her “hey i like you” and when i finally do it’s to late because i’m in a different country and have cancer the worst part is that she said she liked me even though i had cancer and was really far away, but as i got to know her better i realised she was just using me to get to the states she had a lot of boyfriends and in all her relationships she was sexually active she was just using me, she was using me because she knew no one else would take her just a dumb**s like me would take her, and i felt for it , i mean i was so blind , i feel like dogsh*t i mean who can honestly fall in love with a loser that haves cancer WHO?! no one thats who…..

the other woman

Posted by the affair in Love on Jul 27th, 2010 | 2 comments

I was his other woman. It grew out of friendship and was (almost) accidental.

Finally, one day, I told him to just go. That I couldn’t keep doing this. He hasn’t spoken to me since that day.

Telling him to go is the biggest regret of my life. I love him more than I have ever loved another person in my life. I recently started dating someone new because it was the right thing to do and he’s a great guy. But he’ll never give me the butterflies that my married lover did. And still does everytime I think about him.