Secret Confessions

I’m involved with a wonderful man who I love very much but who will never be able to make me happy because of my jealousy. What am I jealous of? The fact that I’m not the first person he slept with (he had sex with one girl and was intimate with another three). That probably wouldn’t seem so unreasonable if I hadn’t slept with fourteen men myself, one of whom I was married to and have a daughter with.

Hm.I hate it when my Mom and sister let it all hang out instead of looking presentable in front of their husbands.
But I’m actually really jealous that they have some to be so comfortable around.

I am going to find another man just so I can see the look on your face when you realize I wont wait for you anymore

I’m a Junior in high school, and I dated this guy, let’s call him Bob, in freshman year for about a month. We only wen’t on about 4 dates and there was no real connection since we didn’t have any communication so we broke up. We didn’t really speak for the next two years because we didn’t have any classes together. This year, about a week into the school year, he commented my facebook with a cute video. After that, we started talking more and more, and since we had about 4 classes together this time, we teased each other, talked to each other, laughed and just had fun. I only thought of him as a friend, but I knew that deep inside, I kind of liked him again and I felt that I actually had a connection with him. I’ve heard from friends that he had a crush on one of my very good friends, let’s call her Susan, and was even going to try to break her up from her boyfriend at that time. I didn’t really care because I didn’t know that I liked him then. But today, after school, I stayed at school with him, Susan, and some of my other friends. We were having a great time when him and Susan left us to go “talk.” The others and I jokingly bet that they were doing inappropriate things and whatnot, and I was joking with them. I kept a smile on my face, but when they left, I knew he was going to ask her out, since she didn’t have a boyfriend anymore. I found out later that evening that they were officially a couple, but he texted me saying “hey baby.” (it’s an inside joke). I noticed that the conversation was different this time like “you can’t flirt with me anymore” and “let’s try to keep our cordial dignity alright?” It may not seem like much, but I was CRUSHED! I knew our friendship would change, but I felt like it was too drastic. I couldn’t even respond and I couldn’t focus on my homework all night which is why I’m writing this. I’m really happy for him and Susan because they’re really cute with each other, but at the same time, I wish that something would happen so that they would break up. Although our last relationship ended in failure, I wanted to try again with him. I don’t know what to do, and I feel so icky inside. I know our relationship is going to change at school and I know I won’t be able to laugh with him like I used to. I don’t want to say something I regret around Susan or him so I’m going to keep on congratulating them while I watch them from the sidelines, with jealousy and regret.

My boyfriend has gone back to school and all I can think about is
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I’ve been going out with my boyfriend for about a year now. I love him more than anything in the world. However, about 3 months ago he got a new job at an insurance company. He was being paid great money and he seemed pretty happy. The only thing that made me upset was that he kept spending long hours at the office and I completely knew I was blowing the whole situation out of porportion. However, I couldn’t help wondering what he was up to. Was he cheating? I was being paranoid! So, on Sunday, we were going into church and Clark(my boyfriend) spotted a lady named Karen, who worked in his office. He immediately went over and said hi and they started talking. Right off the bat, I started to become jealous and I started thinking that he was with her really, when he was staying late hours at the office. I knew it wasn’t true but the thought of it, kept eating me alive. I got so miserable, that I went out and confinded in my friend, Blaze. Things led to one another and we ended up having sex. I didn’t have any feelings for Blaze but I thought of having sex with him to get revenge at Clark. I know it wasn’t right and im miserable. Im so ashamed. I can’t even get the nerv up to tell Clark. I know that if i do, however, that the relationship will be over. I have some serious thinking. :/

I am jealous of those who are born with mixed races. They are so unique, unlike me.