I tried making love with my girlfriend for the first time last night, and I couldn’t perform. This doesn’t surprise me – I’ve been angry, irritable and impotent for over a year. My family and friends think I’m all doing well, but when the end of the day comes all I want to do is crawl into bed and ignore contact from the outside world.
She said it’s not a big deal, but it’s only a matter of time before she gets fed up with my inability to get an erection and leaves. I’m so filled with rage I can’t even articulate it. The only thing that pisses me off more than my impotence is the advice, “Seek a therapist and exercise more.” Spare me your dogshit, overly simplistic diagnosis that you ripped off of WebMD. Do you think I haven’t tried that? Honestly? I’m depressed, not ******* stupid…although I’d gladly swap my intelligence for some relief from the crushing, exhausting pain of my pointless existence. (If you’re going to comment on this to rip on me for being dramatic and emo, save yourself the trouble and get bent.)
As u know, u got me pregnant the day before u deployed… We were together and in love, we were going to get married once u got back. Fast forward 9 months, i have your son, and ur home on r&r, where are u? In Cali for 16 days, where am i? In a friggin hospital bed holding our newborn son across the damn country. You eventually come see me and our new member of the “family” for 2 damn days before u leave for war again. I hated you for that, but oh the hatred gets worse. You return from a 12 month tour, we are a happy, loving, beautiful family. You got out of the military, move, and leave me and my son. I hate to say this, but i wish he wasnt yours, or didnt have your last name. He looks so much like you it makes me sick inside.
Thats why I hide myself in my own dreams and pretend everythings ok. I’m scared of the world. I know that it isn’t possible to be with one person throughout life without something going wrong. My ex boyfriend of 11 months promised me everything and then I found out he was cheating on me. With more than one person. He never wanted to leave me though. I left him. I loved him and he was the only person or thing that has ever made me actually HAPPY. He doesn’t even care. I’ve been looking at the confessions on this site…I believed it before…but now I know there is no hope for this pathetic world or the people in it. There is no love. I wish I could dissapear…
Life is not about sex.
Life is not about being able to cheat on who your with. You ruin lives that way, idiots. Including your own. You’ll realize it at some point.
Life is not about who you can hurt.
Life is not about drugs.
Life is not about alcohol.
Life is not about getting what you want no matter what the consequences.
I wish there was something I could do to make this world a better place.
But when I read some of these confessions or even see people in public places…I realize that I hate them more and more. I know I shouldn’t hate…but its so hard with everything everyone does.
NOBODY cares. NOBODY.
When will the world end?
I just want it to end…
When Jesus comes back…we’ll see whos left. I’ll probably be one of the ones that is left. I’ve done a lot of things wrong but I’ve finally forgiven myself for them. I’m living right now and I have God in my life. I don’t believe that I deserve Heaven. Now matter how much I’ve suffered for the things I’ve done. I hate myself and everyone else on this stupid planet.
my fiance (haw haw) loves porn! he loves porn that features women who look NOTHING like me – it’s his favorite. In fact, he loves porn with skinny blondes who are young. I am older than him, fat , and brunette. I mean, why go out with me – why marry me if I am not your type?? maybe you just think i’m “all you can get”? Well **** yourself asshole – I had boyfriends that love big busted brunettes, loved my size and my experience. the kind of porn with women like me -we watch it only when I am around. he would NEVER watch it on his own. I hate his guts. why doesn’t he marry some skinny blonde?? it’s not like they don’t exist!! I want to be loved for my body too, not just my “soul” whatever the hell that is.
I hate her so much cos she is such an good for nothing….we grew up together and her morals and values are so low. We come from a conservative background, no drinking, smoking or meat and we are very holy. But she is the opposite…she smokes, drinks, cusess, even sleeps around…and her life is soo perfect…she plagirised her honours(took it straight off the companies intranet) and now has a job that is paying over $7000 a month..and she’s only 26….she is such an arrogant bitch..I cant even secure a decent job, even though im a really good person, with outstanding values, morals, drive and ambition.Im only earning $500 a month now beacuse of the recession, but im still surviving.
She’s always broke…cos all her cash is spent drinking, best of all she actually has no real problems at all..she creates them:issues with her boyfriend,family…and makes everyone feel sorry for her and to pity her…even though she is the cause of her problems…best of all, her stupid family falls for it…even her step-father gives her money to survive.WTF???
I hate cos she is so lucky in life inspite of her wicked ways.
If you only knew the selfish bitch that she is , you will be horrified.
i hate you so ****** much i honestly want to push you in front of a speeding bus..or truck whichever one would hurt more you are the biggest dick i’ve ever met in my entire life who the **** goes around calling girls baby babe gourgeou beautiful etc.. and sends them hearts and tellss them how much they like them everyday for a month and then randomly one day when asked whats up goes and tells them that they almost had sex the night before and acts like its not a big deal i mean really can you not tell i ****** like you we’ve only been sexting for ****** ever? do you think im just a stupid whore you can use to get you off whenever your horny and no one else is around? well im not and i can promise you next time you call me cutie ;) and ask me for sex im going to tell you to go **** yourself because i couldn’t ****** care less :) no wonder your ex cheated on you its probably because your such an oblivious stupid ****** asshole! im so tired of your mixed signals and all your bullshit so thats it i give up im tired of feeling like shit every time i dont feel like having “sex” with you and im tired of crying whenever you tell me about how you hooked up with your ex girlfriends so just bye its over go **** yourself im ****** done!
When I see secrets about affairs, it makes me so angry.
Because every single one reminds me of what my father did to me, and how he regretted nothing.
I just wish people would stop and think about what they do to the other person
and
their
children.
When I’m confronted with a stressful issue I just disapear. No one knows where I’m at for months or even years. What people don’t understand is I am a very angry person on the inside. All I want to do is take a gun and shoot everyone in sight then burn their bodies just to make sure they’re dead. I run away so I don’t act on what the voices inside my head tell me to do… If you met me you’d never believe what I just wrote
I’m the quiet, reserved kid at school, though I’ve been getting better at that. I still have all these secrets bottled up inside me.
I’m bulimic, I was abused as a kid, I’m dirt poor, and my father would rather spend his time and money with ‘friends’ than with me. I’ve taught myself pretty much to hate everyone, and somedays I just wish I would die, but for some reason, I can’t bring myself to it, for some funny reason, I’m afraid of pain.
I know this isn’t written well, but it’s just everything that was on my mind.
I know my family and friends will accept me when I come out. It’s me that is the problem. I still can’t accept it because I hate myself for it.
After I had a c-section the baby’s grandparents were in the recovery room playing with the blinds being complete assholes. My bff was in town helping me out & they didn’t even offer to drive her home, she had to call a cab from a convenience store. Now they come over every few weeks to visit with the baby for 2hrs. and come bearing gifts produced in sweatshops, when we specifically told them we don’t want cheap crap. Assholes!
He broke my heart almost a year ago and I’ve barely gotten over the searing pain.
Somebody broke his heart and I’m ******* on air! Now you feel what you caused me! All the tears! All the heartache! I hope you contemplate suicide like I did.
I’m fine and you’re not! When you need me to comfort you the most I’m not there like I was! When I needed you, you didn’t care! Well bastard, I don’t give a rat’s ass about you!
All the happiness you took away from me when you left is now taken away from you by someone else! It’s only fair you asshole!
You ****** up my life. Now you’re silenced to feel the misery alone like I was! No one wants to hear your bullshit, they didn’t want to hear mine.
You are the WORST mistake I ever made!
I am OVER you ***** *********.