I lost you

Posted by Fallen Anon in Guilt on Oct 18th, 2010 | 4 comments

I tried to commit suicide by overdosing. Obviously it didn’t work. I lost the little baby inside that was in there for only a couple weeks. I wasn’t sure I was pregnant but I thought there might have been chance. Now for sure I know because I bled when I’m not supposed to.
I’m sorry my little one. It’s all my fault. I love you, I’m so sorry. I told your daddy last night, my little one. He didn’t even know that I suspected that I was pregnant before. He forgives me, but I don’t know if I can forgive myself.

Older married man

Posted by ashamedandconfused in Guilt on Oct 9th, 2010 | 33 comments

OK, it’s not a massive confession or really THAT bad compared to a lot of confessions on here, and I’m not doing it to impress or entertain anyone, I just need to get this off my chest before I burst.

I AM HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH AN OLDER MARRIED MAN!!

I am also married, 2 years (no kids), he has been with his wife for 20 years and they have 2 kids and that makes me feel bad, but I can’t help how I feel about him…. I know people say that all the time but I mean it! I can’t sleep, can’t concentrate, I feel lost, I lose my appetitie and feel ill when I am away from him.
We work together, for the same company but not in the same office so I don’t get to see him very often but have been keeping in touch almost daily for the last 6 months. What’s worse is he is 15 YEARS OLDER than me.

Don’t get me wrong, I adore my husband and there is nothing lacking in our relationship, and he says the same about his relationship, but it’s just like a magnet!
I am positive I would have stayed faithful if I hadn’t met him. I had never cheated on any past boyfriends.

I do not want him to leave his wife or children and would just die if she found out, so I am trying to convince myself to end it but the thought makes me feel sick….. we’ll just have to see how this plays out.

I only said yes to the ring because his dad has cancer

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Oct 4th, 2010 | 3 comments

Confession: I only said yes to marrying my boyfriend because his dad is dying of of cancer and I wanted him to see his son happy before he passed on. My first reaction when I saw the ring was to say that I wasn’t ready for this. I am not doing well in school any more due to stress. All my boyfriend and I do is fight these days.

My marks fell 10% when I heard his dad was pronounced terminal. They fell another 10% when I found he was admitted to the hospital and probably has mere weeks left. I am close to failing out of a program that I have worked hard to get into.

ive been lying to my parents for 6 years

Posted by stuck in Guilt on Sep 30th, 2010 | 4 comments

how do they not realize it doesnt take that long to get a 2 year degree. ive dropped so many classes over and over because i used their money to support a lingering drug problem. im addicted to everything. i cant help it, smoking drinking masturbating eating anything that feels good, i lie constantly, wtf is wrong with me. im always mad and tense, maybe i should just tell them.

I felt so bad about msyelf

Posted by hopeless in Guilt on Sep 28th, 2010 | 1 comment

I got into my first car accident today while driving to school. And it was my fault initially. Luckily, no one got hurt. I felt so bad about myself. My mom had work her ass off just to put me in school and everything. I’m a full time college students and got a job in school. But the check wasn’t that good since I could only work 10 hrs a week because of my heavy schedule. Because of the accident, my mom got to pay in order to fix the car or there wouldn’t anyway I could get to school.Plus, it going to cost a fortune to fix. I never did anything that could help her out except doing good in school. I felt so useless and guilty about myself. All I did was bringing troubles into her life. When she found out that i got into a car accident. she wasnt saying anything but walked away. I wanted to cry so much but tears didn’t come down. There was not anyone that I could honesty shared my feeling with. I know that people got worst problems in their life but i think i need to get positive, stay strong, things happen for a reason. but sometime i just want to know that reasons.

still in love….

Posted by anon in Guilt on Sep 26th, 2010 | 3 comments

I’m married with a family and a life, complete with curtains and throw pillows. It all feels fake though. Like I have been forcing myself into each step forward and now I look around and I am in way over my head and I don’t know why I let it get this far. I have been in love with my ex since our first date years ago, but I broke his heart early on because I freaked out at how overwhelmed I was by him. He made fun of marriage once and while I had been known for slighting the concept of marriage often, his joke made my throat close up and tears burn my cheeks. I ran because I was scared. When I met my husband it had been awhile since the break up, but I was still recovering. Things started out slow, then got very fast. I was still in love with the ex, but I also didn’t want to hurt this great guy who didn’t really date much. Now we’re married and have children and a life and every day I wake up and the ex comes to mind. I keep hoping that one day it will end, he’ll fall away from me and I can just be content with my life. But after so many years of this I wonder if this is just the way it is. When I was younger I thought this kind of love was a myth, now it surprises me to know that it isn’t. You can love someone with so much of yourself that time and space lose meaning. I feel guilty for not being more for my husband. He wants me to love him this way, but I don’t. I kind of hope he leaves me so that he can find happiness and someone who he can have an amazing love story with. He deserves that.

its my fault

Posted by lise in Guilt on Sep 22nd, 2010 | 2 comments

my bestfriends dead, and its my fault. i knew she had a few beers and i still let her drive. im sorry, i will never forgive myself..

no daddy

Posted by zoey in Guilt on Sep 18th, 2010 | 4 comments

you left for school and never came back… we have a two year old daughter named lizzy and for the first time today she said daddy, it’s gonna break my heart when i have to tell her that she doesnt have one.

my fiance

Posted by nikki in Guilt on Sep 15th, 2010 | 6 comments

im not in love with him, i only said yes to him is because he asked me and you didnt.. whats better to be with the one you love or the one who loves you? i guess second best isnt so bad…

i went fishing

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Sep 15th, 2010 | 3 comments

i went fishing by a bottle shop and got alcohol behind my mother’s back.
ps. i am 14

I Feel It’s My Fault

Posted by JM in Guilt on Sep 13th, 2010 | 0 comments

It was the night before fall break, I told you I wouldn’t turn my cell off just in case you wanted to do something later that night. Well, a few hours passed and I turned my phone off to let it charge.

I woke up the next morning to two texts from you:
1. Help
2. Please come

I blew them off thinking they were a joke or something. Possibly you were locked out or needed help with groceries. I drove the 45 minute drive home without thinking about it. I had breakfast and a friend called me. Told to me to check in on you, they got the same texts.

I called you, no answer. I figured you were asleep. I kept asking other people about you, and I finally got the answer… you were raped that night. And I let it happen.

It’s all my fault, I turned off my phone and you got raped. I still came back faster than ever to be by your side. To help you out that day, to make sure you ate, to get you to a doctor, everything I could think of. But to this day, I still feel like I could have stopped it, but didn’t.

I hope you aren’t mad at me for letting you down.

Im scared

Posted by Emily Rose in Guilt on Sep 8th, 2010 | 7 comments

Im scared to tell my mom I love her. She was diagnosed to die in a year. Shes been suffering from MS for 6 years now. Her spinal cord was severed. And no matter what, shes always been there for me. When I need her, she doesnt care about her own pain, she puts it aside and comes to help me. I treat her horribly, and I cant change no matter how hard I try. I love my mother.