Wracked by guilt

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Dec 17th, 2010 | 0 comments

I feel like a convict on the run, I feel like everyone knows I am a morally reprehensible criminal. I’ve let it take over my life and out of guilt I don’t allow myself any opportunity to be happy. The worst part is that I don’t even know that I did anything, I was blacked out drunk and this all started from a flash of a memory that might have been from a dream(nightmare) and the fact that everyone started acting weird. Now it has gone on so long even if I found out that I didn’t do anything it’s become a part of my personality. I wish constantly that I would die or wake up from this nightmare.

I am sorry

Posted by Luna in Guilt on Dec 14th, 2010 | 12 comments

I lied…It wasnt an accident…I stopped taking my birth control…I wanted to have her…I planned to have my baby girl…I knew you would say no…I lied to all of you…I am sorry…

Sorry

Posted by sorry in Guilt on Dec 12th, 2010 | 3 comments

I lied. We didn’t just kiss. We had sex. Now, I’m infected. It’s not serious, but I’m so scared that I infected you too. Most people life fine with this infection, but I’m so sorry. It was a one time thing, something I never ever thought I was capable of doing. I don’t even remember his name and I wouldn’t be able to recognize him on the streets. I deserve contracting this virus, but you don’t deserve it. You have given me nothing but love, but my lack of self esteem has hurt both of us.

I’ve decided I won’t confess 100% of the truth. I will make sure that you get tested and vaccinated, but you don’t have to know when I contracted this. I want to tell you, but that would be much too selfish. I would feel better by relieving my guilt, and you would suffer. I swear on my life that this will never happen again, so what is the point of confessing if it only serves to make me feel better and make you feel miserable? I deserve the sleepless nights from that hour long mistake. I deserve the mental agony. But, I appreciate you so much more after going through this and experiencing the consequences.

Please, please don’t be infected.

My dirty little secret is about to explode.

Posted by scared in Guilt on Dec 8th, 2010 | 9 comments

I have been married 10 yrs. I have three wonderful children. I had a good job. My marriage was rocky as my husband is away on business 20 days a months. I work at a prison as a guard. I began to have a connection to one of the inmates. Months after he was released I myspaced him.. just to see how he was doing. I used a fake profile. We started talking and to make a long story short I had an affair. I told my husband and everyone that he was an old friend I was just helping. But this person was bad..he did drugs, he manipulated me..finally I had enough and made him leave.
He did not leave quietly. He threatened to ruin me.. make me lose everything that I have. He sent me hundreds of text messages..thousands of calls. I told my work the police.. family.. that I knew a friend from a long time ago.. did not recognize him when he came to prison..and I helped him after prison but when he started to act creepy I stop talking to him and that is why now he is harassing me.
My job fired me. My husband bought a gun and put locks on the doors.
Then I find my CC is charged. I know he is responsible. A $400 purchase for a sound system. Make a long story short, police are conacted.. he is arrested.. now facing prion for fraud. I lie on the police report (the same story I have been telling everyone). The guy must have wrote down my Cc# when he was at my apartment.

Well I know I will have to testify in court. I am scared shitless. I txt and called this guy romantically..not sure if he saved these.. or what he could prove by showing these ( besides to ruin me). I know he plans to play dirty. On his myspace it says that “my old g.fried will have a few surprises when she comes to court”

I understand I made a mistake. I have prayed to God everynight for forgivenness. I was guilable and stupid.. I put my whole family at risk. I just want this to end. the has shown me that I do really love my husband.. I want to work to make things better.. if he finds the truth out though we are DONE.

Im so very scared to go to court. How can I keep up this lie in court? Im wondering if they will even bring it up.. I mean he is in trial for fraud.. but I puke everyday thinking of this

im sorry

Posted by jenny in Guilt on Dec 8th, 2010 | 4 comments

you raped me a year ago today, i never told anyone. today i seen on the news that you raped three more girls and they were taking you to trail. im a horrible person, if i could of just told someone those girls wouldnt have to feel the pain that i feel. as much as i hope you get the death penalty because you deserve to die, i feel like i should die more because if it hadnt been for me keeping quite you wouldnt of done what youve done.

relapse

Posted by cujo in Guilt on Nov 21st, 2010 | 3 comments

I used to cut myself for 4 years straight. Id always cut in the same 2inch spot because it was easily hideable. The scar tissue built up so bad that I had to wrap a long string around my foearm to raise the vains. I even lost some motor funtion in that hand… I quit 2 years ago because I thought I got better. I guess not…. I had a relapse tonight. It felt nice to slice open my skin. Intoxicated by the pain, yerning for the sight of spilled blood. What a night… I almost hope it happens again. It wouldn’t be necessarily bad if I got caught. It’d almost be a break from life. Or I go too deep and not wake up the next morning. Whatever comes first…

Your boyfriend

Posted by Your sister in Guilt on Nov 19th, 2010 | 3 comments

Everytime I see him with you I wish I could tell you. I cant bear to stand to tell you but whats worse is that I enjoy it. Everytime im with him I feel so alive and its like some crazy game we know one day you will find out. It was some sort of crush between us to start but now we do it just for fun. We used to feel guilty but now we just cant stop everytime your back is turned or your not around we will do something… maybe we are both hoping we will ge caught and it can finally end… i cant hope anymore u will understand or forgive me. I have betrayed u so much…

Long time illness…see no way out

Posted by Anon in Guilt on Nov 1st, 2010 | 3 comments

I am on dialysis. I keep getting horrible blood infections. I have 2 kids and a wonderful husband who I feel is being pushed past his ability to cope. Im in the hospital again getting treated for another blood infection…the second this month. I want to off myself badly, so that maybe just maybe my kids and husband can have a less burdened life because I can’t see anyway to get through it right now other than this

He or she would be 1 year old on 11/8/10

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Oct 30th, 2010 | 7 comments

I was 18, pregnant, and terrified. No one knew anything. I was only 7 week along.
I couldn’t bear to think what my family would say. My grandmother hasn’t even accepted my 40 yr old cousin moving in with her bf of 5 yrs without getting married. What I could tell them. That it was only once. That I lost my virginity with a guy because I was feeling bad about myself. Yeah like they would believe the truth.
I panicked and started looking at my “options.” I found out that all it would take is parsley infusions and a high doses of ascorbic acid (vitamin C).
I hate myself for this. I go on with my life and keep my suffering silent because I can’t tell anyone.

I’m a Good Wife on Facebook

Posted by Anonymous Online Wife in Guilt on Oct 30th, 2010 | 4 comments

I post nice things about my husband on Facebook to assuage the guilt that I would rather be with someone else.

Adultery

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Oct 27th, 2010 | 5 comments

My husband of 2 years is going to prison… We have kids together… He was picked up and took away at a bad time in our relationship. I selfishly had sex with a family friend, one he knew I’ve liked since we first even got together… On one hand I looked at it as revenge for a lot of stuff previous and the pain I’m going through. But yet I know 2 wrongs don’t make a right… I want to tell him, but he’ll go even more insane especially hearing it while locked up. His stuff may be getting over turned so he may actually be getting out, its in the air right now. I know the man I was with won’t tell, but what should I do…

its not to late

Posted by josalynn in Guilt on Oct 18th, 2010 | 2 comments

our bestfriend died from a alcohol/drug overdose, when will we stop telling ourselves that we are partying in his memory, and start realizing we have the same problems he had.