I hate myself for this . . .

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Apr 24th, 2011 | 8 comments

This is the first time Ive even spoke about this dark and terrible secret outside of my own thoughts. When I was 15 I molested my younger 7 year old cousin. I secretly live in so much shame and so much regret it just paralyzes me when I think of it. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to admit it to anyone but this is the only way I know I can express my sorrow for the horrible act I’ve done. I feel like a fraction of a man and that there will be always an ounce of guilt left in my heart. I’ve prayed so many times and cried to god so many times for him to forgive me. I will regret that for the rest of my life and I am truly sorry!

hit and run

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Apr 24th, 2011 | 2 comments

last night i had been out having a few drinks. I wasn’t drunk or buzzed, i only had a few. I clipped a car on my way home, and instead of stopping to exchange information like a good person i ran. I got what was coming to me though as 2 cops were near by and they stopped me. I am lucky that the person i hit decided not to press charges, and the cops didn’t cite me for anything. I just feel like a terrible person for running despite having valid insurance, and no reason to run. I realize that in the end it will just be another fender bender on my record, but i feel like i learned something about me as a person. That maybe I am not a good person. Would a good person hit someone and try to get away with it?

The Guilt

Posted by Mummymissesyou in Guilt on Apr 14th, 2011 | 19 comments

My best friend just gave birth to her first child. I wish he had died shortly after birth, like my son, just so someone else can feel the pain i’m feeling.

It’s not fair that I had a perfect pregnancy that resulted in early neo-natel death while her pregnancy, which was anything but normal, ended in a slightly premy birth with a perfectly healthy son.

i had an abortion…

Posted by anonymous in Guilt on Apr 9th, 2011 | 26 comments

I had an abortion and I cry about it everyday. I killed my own child. Some days I just don’t even want to get out of bed. I feel that I don’t deserve anything good in my life anymore. I’m basically just living for my other two children. BTW, all 3 are with my husband. He didnt want the third one….I’m so sorry my little baby. I hope I can see you someday….God forgive me…

lost of control is now my enemy..

Posted by Ashley in Guilt on Mar 28th, 2011 | 8 comments

My own head feels like its going to explode,
Im a 16 year old girl living with my grandparents.
The fact that they raised me for half of my ‘childhood’ im very happy for. but, my fears are all comming too fast for me to control at once. my father is living with us as well along with his girlfriend. she is pregnant and is giving it up. it bothers me that im going to have a half sibling out thier, my brother is 13 and slowly losing himself to drungs and alcohol. My mother is constintly demanding for me to come back and live with her, but i really dont belive i can handle her mental abuse and the childish fitts she displays as an adult. It frustating. im worried sick constintly about my grandparents well being, well slowly trying to hold a stady pace at school.Im a jr in highschool. with shame of failling my familey by going to city instead of state like my friends are and how my father went. I hate myself for not being smart like my friend i feel like im letting my grandparents down. On top of this, im being constintly asked and in a way asked and questioned my verginity. This guy bugs me non stop about my virtue its annoying. I despise him but hate to be mean so i stay silent. I know its wrong, but i want my first time special like any other girl does. Am i weak? i dont know how to control everthing thats going on….

i should of told

Posted by jordan in Guilt on Mar 27th, 2011 | 7 comments

there was a girl at my school who always came into class with brusies on her arms and neck. today we found out that he father killed her, he pushed her down the stairs and beat he until her face wasnt even noticable. im sorry marissa, i noticed the brusies awhile ago, i should of talked to you about it, i should of told someone. if id had youd still be here

bullying

Posted by sammi in Guilt on Mar 26th, 2011 | 8 comments

a girl commited sucide from my school last week, they said it was because she was bullied. im sorry sarah, i bullied you along with many others. if i could take one thing back in life it would be saying those horrible things about you. you werent worthless and you seen that tonight at your candle lighting where 3,000 students showed up plus more!

Why do I not care?

Posted by anonymous in Guilt on Mar 24th, 2011 | 3 comments

I feel terrible, i care about this person very much, and they’ve never done anything bad to me. SO WHY DO I NOT CARE ABOUT THEM WHEN THEIR ABOUT TO DIE? I can’t live with the guilt, it’s killing me!

guilty

Posted by anon in Guilt on Mar 16th, 2011 | 14 comments

a friend, my husband and I where drinking and got drunk. While my husband passed out I flirted with my friend. Even though it was just harmless flirting I love my husband and I feel guilty. I don’t know if to tell him or not. It might just cause more problems and it was just flirting.

Some days I hate my child

Posted by Libby in Guilt on Mar 10th, 2011 | 11 comments

Some days I hate my child. I feel overwhelmed and alone.

I want to leave My husband

Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Mar 7th, 2011 | 5 comments

I cheated on my husband with my best friend. It wasn’t planned it just happened and now I am so lost. My husband cheated on me early in our marriage and I wanted to leave but I was pregnant so I stuck it out. 6yrs later I am standing here guilty of the very same thing I have loathed him for all these years. I love my husband but I am not in love with my husband anymore. I am in love with the pretty picture of being married, I am in love with the dream of living happily ever after. I am so in love with the thought of marriage that I may very well love someone else that could probably be my soul mate but I can’t bring myself to leave my husband because of our children. I am miserable and so depressed that this is my life and there is nothing I can do to change it….

Leaving my fiance for something less conventional?

Posted by Sheis Anonymous in Guilt on Mar 6th, 2011 | 6 comments

I am 33 year old woman. I feel as though I’ve almost never made the right decisions in my life. This may be no exception.

I live with a handsome, intelligent man who I have plans to marry in the fall. I have discovered that I am not sexually attracted to him. He is a terrible slob. He talks too much. We drag each other into a mutual paralyzing depression for no discernable reason.

I’ve been contemplating leaving my fiance and moving down the street from a close friend of mine who I AM sexually attracted to. She is bi, and happens to be looking for a third wheel in her marriage.

I only know this because I’m in love with her husband.