Secret Confessions

Sometimes I want to get ran over by a car and be hurt or in a coma or something so my Boyfriend would show that he cares and be sympathic towards me.

I don’t know whats wrong with me. I constantly find my self fantasizing about my husband having sex with other women. Just the idea of it gets me very aroused. Usually, I imagine him having sex with a random woman but, more and more I fantasize about him having sex with some one we know like our friends, an acquaintance (like one of my children’s teachers), or even my sister. Frequently when I meet someone new I immediately imagine what it would be like to see my husband to make love to her. I am totally afraid to discuss this with him or anyone for that matter! My relationship with my husband has never been better. I have never had any homo-erotic feelings either. I worry about it a lot. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I was unfaithful to my wife. I love my wife very much and want our marriage to work. I never should have let it go that far with this woman. It was extremely wrong of me. I am scared to tell her because I know that will be it for her and the marriage will end. I don’t want it to end, but i am having a hard time forgiving myself. This guilt is killing me. MAD please forgive me for doing this to you. I would tak it back if I could, but I can’t. I love you more now than I ever have and don’t want to lose you. God please forgive me for being unfaithful to my wife. Bring me peace and faith.

I’ve known this boy on myspace and his name was Ryan. I’ve loved him deep inside, but I never told him that(It made him love me more)… He loved me too and kept saying that to me… So one day, I tld him that it was time to end our relationship because we were miles away… he told me i love you for the last time in a voice recorder that was sent on my email… the next week, his parents talked to me online and said he comitted suicide and had a note saying I love her mom and dad tel her that I love her… now i keep crying and saying to myself i love you too Ryan, i love you too

I went out of town this week on business and the night before I left I go so smashed and I have no recollection on what happened. I think I might have done something that I shouldn’t have…I have flashes of that night, but I can’t put all of the pieces back together. I can’t imagine that I was dumb enough to sleep with someone else, but how can I know for sure?? My boyfriend is so freaking wonderful, and I am so incredibly sick to my stomach everytime I see him or think about Wednesday night…I don’t know how long I can handle feeling this way, I can’t believe I was so incredibly STUPID. I don’t know what to do.

I want to go away for a week and have no one know where I am, that I am gone, or when I will be back. I don’t want any questions or comments, I just want a break from my life.
Its really confusing. I cheated on my boyfriend with my best friend, now I want back with my boyfriend but I hate the thoughts of being a prick to either one..I really love them both.
I wish I could make things right again..but I am not sure what right is.. The trip away would help..problem is I have too many people nosing into what I do to get away like that…I wish I wasn’t 30 and still at home.

Today, I don’t know how to make this right. I stole your prized possession and sold for $$. I wish I could get it back… I tried and it impossible.

Someday soon you will find out it missing.. I lost your friendship after 30 yrs.

Ok, so this is kind of complicated and probably all my fault, i’ve been dating my girlfriend for almost two years now, my last relationship ended horribly and i only found out later that she had cheated on me. my g/f now tells me that she loves me and only me but every once in a while i get the feeling like she’s been doing something (i don’t know what exactly) behind my back, kind of like my ex was acting before we broke up. what’s worse is that i have a friend that i love spending time with, but every time i see her or talk to her, i get this feeling like i just want to end my relationship and ask out my friend. help please?

i know this isnt huge, but, i am a black girl and i like white guys. its not like i find black guys unattractive, i just find white guys more attractive sometimes. Maybe because where im from, black men are loud and annoying(not saying that they are all like that)I would like to find an nice black guy one day, but for now i find some white guys more attractive. i always deny this. A white guy hugged me and i really liked him, but if it was a guy from my school, i wouldnt have liked it.

4 years ago i did a terrible crime, i’ve almost killed a man. i was passing near him when my leg hit the ladder he was standing under it working,i kept walking and i was sure that the ladder was going to fall, but i didnt warn him. after few steps the ladder fell, i looked behind to see the poor guy was swimming in his own blood, it hit him on his head and went unconcious immediatly.peole gathered to see what happened,i was standing there in my palce and i said nothing, when the ambulance came i kept moving in my way and never looked behind again, i dont know if he is alive or he died, i never slept well from that day onward, i havent told anyone about this guy, i was sooooo scared to be cought and to be put in jail.
if he is still alive( i hope so) i ask him to forgive me, and that am sorry.if he passed away i ask GOD to forgive me.

I am a 20 year old woman. I have never had sexual intercourse because I want to want till I find that one special guy. I started masturbating in my middle teens and now that I am older and know it is wrong, I want to stop. But I get tempted esp. around my time of the month. I also found a site online where I can watch porn for free but I have stopped because it is kind of gross. I don’t like watching women give man blowjobs and having orgies. That is all free porn is it seems. I am a Christian and I know what I am doing is wrong, I hope God can forgive me and I hope that will be able to forgive myself.

:(( I’m not ready to marry him. Oh,God I don’t have the guts to tell him. Ive always wanted 2 have a big wedding party with a good reception. I wanted 2 wear a nice pouffy dress. Is it so big to ask? I don’t want to start my life like a miserable person in a small cramped apartment which is rented.. and the worst I can’t act like a happy bride anymore.besides he doesn’t respect me. I hate his family. Dear God, I was deceiving myself. I know this marriage wont last long time if we start it like this

Every day I think of you, and remember how bad things got. I’m so sorry for not fighting harder for you, trying to fix it. I know your addiction is not my fault, that your bad choices were your own to make. But if there was anyway I could go back and somehow make it all better, I would.
Please take care of yourself.

I hit a guy in Tuscaloosa and kept driving

I was a nurse in a hospice facility. I also had an incredibly bad drug habit and stole pain meds from the patients for about 5 years. I would do incredibly awful, deceptive things like replace a dilaudid with a vitamin C tablet or inject saline into an IV in place of morphine. My peers probably suspected but never spoke up. Eventually, I left the profession voluntarily and got sober but I still feel an incredible sense of guilt. To this day, I won’t tell anyone about my former profession, like those years just did’nt happen.