Gay and In Love

I’m gay and I haven’t told my parents. I’m also in love with a girl who already has a girlfriend. She completes me…and I can’t imagine my life without her. She knows, and says she loves me too, but doesn’t want to break up with her girlfriend because it would ruin their friendship. Also, we live on opposite sides of the world. I feel so guilty but at the same time I wish she would just admit it…and come to me. I would die without her…I really would.

KILLING ME

I was looking at stuff I shouldn’t be looking at after I was told not to look t it an feel EXTREMLY guilty

I Can’t Stop Cheating

I cracked last year after 9 years of loving but sexless marriage. Now I have to pay the price..juggling 4 part time girlfriends, 3 of whom are married also. What I can’t do now is go back to zero.

ITS KILLING ME

I am in the greatest realtionship ever I’m with a guy I love to death But there is one and only one thing i am hiding i cant stop smoking. I kills me but I can’t he thinks I have quit but I cant i want to. I tell myself every day I will but my life gets crazy I will quit i swear but I hate lying it killing me

I Want to come clean

These are the things that I wanted to come clean about.

As a child if my parents and I would get in a huge fight resulting in my dad giving me a butt whooping I would go outside to my swing set and jump off of it onto my legs until my legs were bruised. That was when I was 8. Last year when I entered middle school everything was fine until this year began. Right now I am in seventh grade. At the beging of the year my favorite band director quit because a senior was sending him text messages that were not appropriate. He would have gotten fired anyway. He left me a letter saying why he quit and that he was sorry. This year My mother forced me into a high language class and a high math class. I diddn’t understand anything in the math class and usually had to leave class early from the stress I was faced with. Before Winter break I changed Math classes since there was somehow an open class. When I had a study hall every Wenesday the school Counsler would come talk to me. In band I would sometimes have panic attacks and a couple times on the way to the Clinic I would end up fainting because we had pop quizzes on song that I had no clue on how to play since I usually spent 7 hours on homework a night mostly trying to figure out my math. I diddn’t make it on the honor role for the first quarter of the school year. I’ve been an all A and B student since we started getting letter grades. the second quarter I got a D in all of my classes execpt band. This year my dog also died.
A coule times since the first quarter I’ve thought about killing myself. I have also developed EDNOS or Earing Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. I have also considered purging (making yourself throw up). Every night after I finnish my homework I go to my room and review the days events and after that I usually cry my self to sleep. I have also gotten high once.

If anyone has anything mean to say about the above please don’t say it.

married and feel guilty

i have been married for 4 years to the most beautiful woman ever, however i have a secret that iv never told her.

i have liked porn for a while, in fact many years i dont get turned on but am just intreaged by it and i found my self craving for it from time to time.

i wish i can stop, but i always find something new to look at.

Punished and rightly so

I believe in God. And I had promised Him I wouldn’t watch porn anymore if He made the shit in my life flush out. Well, He did help, in a way, but I broke my promise. I don’t know what gets into me, I keep wanting to watch. I like to see people have sex in front of the camera. And ahh I see I’m being punished. My boyfriend is lost for the last 6 days, I dont know whats wrong or is there something even wrong. His cell isnt reponding and he isnt home. I miss him. Well I confessed it so I could promise my God again, God I wouldn’t watch porn anymore. Actually after I’ve watched and materbated I regret it. Because it doesnt seem worth it. So I guess, I am making another promise here, along with the confession. I wouldnt watch it anymore. Just let my boyfriend be safe and bring him back. I love you God. Just this one time and I’ll prove it and make it up.
Yours me.

There is no god

I’ve seen human life at it’s lowest points. I have seen a family of 14 nearly lose 6 members in what was supposed to be a great vacation out on a boat but the generator blew up. I have seen a young man wreck his motor cycle and was thrown close to 50 feet into a ditch. I have seen a grandmother and her granddaughter t-boned by a drunk driver. I have seen all of them breathe again because I was close enough to save them. It wasn’t Gods will that they survive, it was my training that kept them alive. I’m not an EMT, Nurse or Doctor. I am just an everyday man that has been tested. I’ve passed the test. I’ve saved/helped save 9 people and I am only 24. How many more will I have to save or how many will I not be able to save?

That is what I fear the most….not being able to save. I’d rather die myself.

My secret confession

I have to stop thinking about the past. I was 21 and pregent still living at home with my parents. I was seeing two men. I know both of them very well. I stop seeing one before I found out I was pregent. I prayer that it was the one I was still with. I did advise the other that I was pregent and told me that I prayed to god that it was not his. I found out a month after she was born that her blood type was A pos, the man I broke up with is AB pos. I am B pos and my husband not is O pos. I never told the man I married that the baby was not use that it was the other mans. I have had guilt about this. I just recently called him but did not speak with him, I did leave my number though. I know he has a life and family, I do not disrupt that I just want to share want a awsome girl she is. I realy need to stop thinking about this because it is affecting my marriage and why husband lives me. I am hoping this helps me move on a stop worring about this.

i hate my twin

becuase i’ll never be asgood as her, ill never be a pretty as her, i’ll never be worth the same.

Attraction to little girls.

After coming into this site and reading some of the confessions i thought that it might help me to tell somebody in the world about my problem. I think im attracted to little girls. I have never touched one or laid a finger on one before but i always seem to get horney around them.

I know it is sick, and i can recognize that, and i honestly believe that i have strong enough morals to never harm or to touch little girls, but that is what gets me off.

I have looked at pictures in the past, but have never touched a little girl ever.

I think that what is wrong with me is that i completely understand that it is wrong, but what scares me is that once i get horney i cant stop. I try to keep things to my imagination, once in a while on the computer. It is not until afterwords that i feel any remorse.

I know that this is sick but i dont think that i can tell anybody. I dont know why i am not attracted to girls of my own age? Im 19, not bad looking, i have a good paying job, my own house, and i am getting 3.9gpa in my university program.

This is the small bump in my life that i cant seem to get over. Any advice?

I’m not attracted to my boyfriend.

I never was attracted to him.. I love him with all my heart, and always will.. but everytime I call him gorgeous it’s a lie.. :(