Stunned

Posted by Tor in Friends on Jul 18th, 2008 | 3 comments

I love my best friend. I really do. But to her, I’m just the crazy, sarcastic, friend that’s walked with her to school every day since 1st grade. It’s been years now. And we’re still stuck like glue. But she made a mistake today. She lashed out at me unintentially, stunning me within seconds with her words. I sat there, next to my computer, thinking that her email was a mistake. But she did it again. My best friend told me to ‘piss off’. She never swears, not Sam. I left, and now she’s crying, saying that she didn’t mean it. I’m reading her emails, not knowing if I should reply. But best friends can become strangers in mere seconds.

Change

Posted by Breathing in Friends on Jul 12th, 2008 | 0 comments

I’m about to start cutting off our frequent contacts together. Well to be honest I don’t have a car anymore and because of that I can’t surprise you at work and see your face light up. I won’t be able to do the things that I used to. I’ve been praying for change and I wonder….yes I wonder, is this it? Is this the start of change that I need in my life. I’ve even considered talking to a friend as I’ve already called and am waiting for a call back. I want to be whole and right now I don’t think I can do this on my own. You have no idea how deep I feel for you. You love your husband even thought you questioned it in the beginning, but you have made it clear to me that you do. I would never hurt you like he has or I would never put you second like he has, but he has been coming around and I’m happy that he is wising up.

We are the best of friends and I love it that way. I think of you as the younger sister that I never had and always wanted. I love your heart and I think I always will, but I have nothing to offer you and you have much more to lose. I need to start this distance, but I don’t know how and I also don’t want to. I just don’t know what to do.

I do not want to hurt you, but I need to see you as the friend that I cherish instead of the “almost lover”, and right now I’m not able to do that.

Oh God I just know that I’m going to hurt you somehow and this is going to kill me….

Bad friend good friend

Posted by kinskins in Friends on Jul 6th, 2008 | 2 comments

My best friend told me that she was a lesbian 9 months ago. I pretended to be okay with it but the more time goes on the more I feel like she is just afraid of being alone, but if I tell her this she’ll hate me forever… so I’ll let her make the biggest mistake of her life and be there to help her when it is all over.

Secretly Lovin A Friend

Posted by Dry Sunshine... in Friends on Jun 4th, 2008 | 0 comments

I knw i love this guy…hes kind and cute and caring….all these things made me like him…i even liked him more because he cares for me…were just friends hes got a gf….i knw im on the wrong track but…I’m still hopin that he would love me back….

Threat.

Posted by KJ in Friends on May 20th, 2008 | 2 comments

I hate to say it, but I hate my best friend’s boyfriend. I want her to be happy, but not with him. Not when he sees me as a constant threat, not when he tells her not to be friends with me just because I make her happy too.

He wants to be the only thing in her life, and I want him to be gone.

Anytime I try to tell her that it doesn’t seem like a healthy relationship, she tells me that I don’t see them together – of course I don’t! He doesn’t allow her near me when they’re together! He literally drags her away and brushes me off.

She’s not going to college so she can wait for him when he goes into the armed forces.

I can’t even tell her what a mistake that is without “trying to ruin they’re relationship.” I’m not a threat, I’m a friend.

I hate my best friend

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on May 18th, 2008 | 3 comments

I can’t stand seeing her date anyone that actually lives here because I am jealous.
I feel so alone the majority of the time.
I want to be more like her.
I wish she didn’t see our friendship as an obligation.
I don’t like seeing her happier than I am.

i hate her…=[

Posted by Cassandra in Friends on May 7th, 2008 | 4 comments

i hate my bestfriend,she is so much prettier than me,so much more popular than mee.but thats not even the worst part,not to long ago she was the frumpy fat girl who everyone hated and now everyone likes her,everyone wants to be her and everyone wants her…and its never fair…is there somthing wrong with me? i have lost respect for myself because not only do i hate my bestfriend who i have been friends with since second grade but i’m willing to do anything to be better than her…=[*

A Friend?

Posted by allforwhat in Friends on May 2nd, 2008 | 2 comments

My best friend, I love her to death but she is very selfish and for the past year has been trying to hang out with this younger crowd of people, half of which are still in high school I know none of these people are he “True” friends, Although I’ve known her for much much longer than any of these kids, she treats them with way more validity than me, and when she goes out she hardly even invites me anymore and when she does she hardly ever introduces me to the people who I haven’t met yet even if I’m right next to her when she’s carrying on a conversation with them, It used to be we’d go out together and invite people, now she goes out with others and hardly invites me. I am a loyal person and hold friends very close, we are much older than this crowd and she is swept up in this whole high school popularity contest at nearly Thirty years old( sorry to say but it’s kind of pathetic ). She treats me differently as if she has a new life and I am just some reminder of a old boring life she has tried to leave behind. Mind you she has child and an abusive ex-husband, I was the only one their for her when they split, I just feel that she is not really my friend anymore I don’t think I could ever truly talk to her when I’m going through something, at least not without her judging me and criticizing me afterwards. She is also a compulsive liar and tells me outrageous exaggerations, ones of which she should know that I know she’s lying about. ugh its so annoying

Best Friends

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on Apr 30th, 2008 | 2 comments

I told my best friend I had feelings for him. I know he used to like me but he was so young at the time and it took a while for me to realise how deep my feelings were for him. He said he didn’t want to lose me as a friend, wasn’t sure of how he felt. He confessed he might have feelings for a girl we work with, a 15yo girl…5 years younger than him. He said she made him happy. I tried to pretend I wasn’t hurting but now he can’t even look at me. Everything is falling apart around me and now I dont have anyone to turn to. I miss him..every day I miss him and I wish I had never said anything.

I’m a liar

Posted by jsl in Friends on Apr 29th, 2008 | 5 comments

I wish I knew who I was deep down. In reality, I’m only a guy who trys to please others…

When my friends are down, I’m always the one who they come to if they want to vent, or need advice. So when they come talk to me, I always need to be happy, and secure of myself, so the negative feelings don’t rub off on them. Half of the time, I feel like total shit, and can’t even put up with their crap. I have no idea how I do it. I just wanna die, I’m so bogged down with their stuff.

But then, when my friends are OK, and they ask how I am, I can never tell them that I’m not doing well. I don’t want to bog them down with my emotions…they have too much going on. So yea…I take everything in, but don’t have anyone to talk to.

Sure, I’ll tell people that I know I can come to them if I ever need help or advice or just want to vent, but I can never bring myself to do it when the time comes down to it.

It’s all been going downhill recently. Worse and worse. I’m more depressed, more emotional, more suicidal. I want to show this post to my friends, so I can get help…but then I’ll just scare them away from me. They’ll be afraid of my past, that it’s coming back.

But this isn’t what I went through when I was younger…and that kind of scares me. Because I (now) know how to deal with what I was dealing with then. But this is new. Different. Unique.

And I can’t take it anymore. So if any of my friends see this…please…help me.

I want my own

Posted by Insignificant in Friends on Apr 25th, 2008 | 3 comments

I have a lot of friends. I love them all, really. They’re great.
I love how we’re all so different, but still have so many things in common.
Selfharm and depression is something we’ve all been through, and talked about,
but the problem is that I still get depressed sometimes. I think they do too, but they don’t admit it all that much.
I have this one friend that told me to call her if things get real bad,
but I can never trust her to be there or get the small hints I drop,
because I could never just say that I feel bad.

The problem with my friends is that they are too distant. They have other friends that I feel they trust more than me, and you might say I’m jealous, but it bothers me a lot. I want someone for my own, my friend. The kind I can call or visit any time and know that they won’t mind. Truth is I had a friend like that once, but life split us up.

I just want one friend that I don’t have to share.

I cant believe you.

Posted by Anon in Friends on Apr 21st, 2008 | 1 comment

I hate you. I cant believe what you did. You promised me. You swore on your life. But you broke that promise. Now people dont see me the same. They all think I have a problem. And its all your fault. I thought you were my best friend. Thanks alot.