Friends

Posted by anonymous in Friends on May 28th, 2010 | 4 comments

I hate every last one of my friends for what they’ve done to me, and what I go through every day. I consistently feel abandoned, whenever I just want to hang out, or talk to them, I get blown off. It’s been happening this way for two full years now. I get new friends, and it keeps happening. What am I doing wrong?

Every time I feel like this, I’m reminded of every time in the past that a friend rejected me, or said something about me that wasn’t theirs to share, or just generally ****** with me when things we’re already bad enough. I don’t know how to deal with it anymore.

I just want to be in a group of people where I feel at home. I keep thinking I find it and then this happens again. I always end up crying alone in my room, afraid to go out anymore. I keep telling myself that things will get better, I keep telling myself that I can make friends. But now I’m starting to wonder and worry, is it my fault? What can I do. Please, someone, anyone. Help.

what the?

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on May 12th, 2010 | 1 comment

I’ve been hanging out with a group of people about once a week since I moved to a new town a couple of years ago.
A couple of months ago, a female in the group actively cheated on her partner who she had previously bought a house with, in front of me. I was shocked at her lack of remorse, and this unspoken rule of hers, that I wouldn’t say anything to her partner (also a friend of mine). So, I had to say how it made me feel. I explained I felt really uncomfortable going to their house, because I wasn’t sure how to look him in the eye, that I felt she was asking me to be an accomplice to something I really strongly disagree with.

I am still really angry, because she really doesn’t care how hurtful her actions are, she would be gutted if her partner cheated on her. She’s so darn selfish and self absorbed.

Why on earth is she still inviting me for dinner? She asked me to ‘forget all about it’…in other words, I had to shut my gob.

I havent been to their house since, and it’s not fair because I’m the one who is now lonely, and SHE is the one who did the deed.
She got angry with me, because I was ‘disloyal’ to our friendship!

ANyway, please explain why I still care, why I am still angry!

Thanks!

I’m a greedy bitch

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on Apr 22nd, 2010 | 3 comments

I’m letting my friend move in with me just so I can save money. It sounds so innocent, but I can’t stand her. She is unrefined and stupid. Not to mention she is bossy and over steps her boundaries to the point where I want to choke her. It is going to be a long summer.

i need new friends

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on Apr 21st, 2010 | 1 comment

I feel so used by the people in my life right now. Some only come around when I have money. Some think my garage is their personal storage area. I’m tired of being a welcome mat for these slackers. I just wanna scream at them. Oh, don’t worry I will have my day with them all soon.

Can’t wait to leave town

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on Apr 16th, 2010 | 0 comments

I can’t wait for my boyfriend to graduate college and leave town. Not because I want to be away from him, but because I think his friends are the most despicable people on the face of the earth. I wonder sometimes how I can date someone with such horrible people in his life.

Angry with friends who are trying to “Help”

Posted by Angry with friends in Friends on Apr 14th, 2010 | 4 comments

I am going through a rough time. Separating from my husband, we have two children 5 and 2 yrs old.

Just found out that I’m losing my job in a few months (at least I have time to find a new one, if there’s one out there).

Because of money, Ex and I are still living in the same house (been separated for 5 months and he has a new girlfriend).

When I talk to my best friends about it, they just say that I’m crazy and give me all sorts of advice. I don’t necessarily WANT the advice. All I want is a friendly ear, not people who will talk down to me and tell me that I’m nuts for doing what I’m doing. They aren’t and have never been in my situation. Do they not get that all I want is the proverbial “shoulder”? I have told them that before, but to no avail.

Now, I choose not to talk to them at all, nor to talk to anyone because all I want is someone to listen. My friends aren’t listening. They’re just talking.

You never noticed…

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on Feb 14th, 2010 | 0 comments

You never will. I’ll be moving out next year and we’ll carry on this charade.

You never cared to look for the signs, just pass over them and talk about yourself or my sibling. I just wish for once you would notice and talk to me. Help me.

My best friend was raped when she was 14. She swore me to secrecy so when you all spoke shit about her because she was going off the rails slightly, I couldn’t stop you.

You talk about me having all these “friends”. When I was little I was bullied physically. You even pulled me out of school to one near by because it got so bad. This new place was apparently brilliant to you. Yes… brilliant. A few times I ran home and hid under the windowsill in our house because these lads were chasing after me! I was terrified. I was only a little girl! These boys were 3 years older!

My so called friends hated me. My supposed best friend told me to shut up all the time. Would never let me talk. She made me feel so stupid. They’d all look down at me and make fun of me. They never wanted me around and I would always catch them making fun of me. They played mindgames with me and I just wanted to curl up in a corner and cry. I’d always be forgotten to be invited to something or I just wasn’t wanted.
Was I not worth friendship?

My dance group were horrible. I went because I loved to dance but my partners would leave or switch me. Then my longest partner spoke to me like I was an idiot but excuse me, you were the one who messed up. You ruined it. Not me. Don’t ever blame me. I went to a sleep over with some “friends” and they made fun of me because of the school I went to and made me feel like shit.

Entering secondary was worse. I was passed from friendship group to friendship group because no one wanted me. My “best friend” treated me like shit and then just left me. It happened again after that. I was just feeling down and she ignored me. Completely. Now it’s been a year and we haven’t spoken and she’s changed completely.
I got people making fake promises to me and faking concern. You haven’t heard from me in half a year, don’t you think something could be wrong? Obviously not. Am I really that easy to forget?
My uncle died and I couldn’t even go t his funeral! I don’t see any of my family anymore! I don’t have the weekends at the grandparents. I don’t see cousins. Nothing. I’ve seen them about…15 times in my lifetime. That is not a lot.

I’m so messed up at the moment yet you still don’t bloody notice! The scars are there but you don’t see them do you? I’ve had breakdowns and smashed things to pieces. I worry and get scared so much I make myself ill. I hardly sleep and when I finally do you yell at me for being lazy. You get pissy with me when dad and I apparently “gang up” on you with jokes. I’m scared about the future. My work isn’t good enough and I doubt it’ll ever be. I can’t get it right and I feel like just giving it up.

We’re so alike yet you won’t aknowledge this. Or maybe you do but don’t want to believe it. Maybe I’ll finish what I started when I was 13.

There is so much more I need to write but I don’t think I’m making sense and my heart is starting to go funny.

Dear Friend.

Posted by anoymous in Friends on Feb 12th, 2010 | 0 comments

Dear Friend,

you are the most annoying person I have ever had to live with. I want to go back home and just forget that I ever helped you here, because I regret listening to you,giving you advice, helping your husband move out, cleaning, cooking for the kids and getting them ready for school. You think that no one is good enough and whatever I do around the house or with the kids, you have to re do it in your own “better” way. I have lived here for a year, and it is enough. I can’t take your ungratefulness any longer.

You need to realize that no one is perfect, I’M not perfect, so stop thinking I can be. I do things for you and you walk straight past and don’t even notice. I feel like when i’m doing something while you’re looking, you are constantly judging me.

When i get home, I don’t want to have anything to do with you. But I will stay in contact with the kids.

I would like to tell you this myself, but I know you won’t care and kick me out before I have a chance.

just accept me for who i am!!

Posted by kebby in Friends on Dec 17th, 2009 | 11 comments

i’m asexual. i always have been as far as i can remember. i don’t want sex or a relationship etc. kissing and the idea of snogging makes me want to vomit. i don’t want kids either. i can’t stand kids!! the sounds of them crying just make me wish i was hard of hearing sometimes. i’d rather have a newborn kitten than a newborn baby.

i’m teetotal and hate alcohol. its disgusting!! the effects of what they do to you are disgraceful. and people see fun in ‘getting drunk/wasted/hammered’? not me. there is more to life than alcohol. my friends have only one love, and that love is alcohol. people choose others over me just because i don’t like alcohol or drinking. JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I DON’T WANT TO DRINK & THAT I WON’T DRINK!! i don’t really have much of a social life just because i don’t drink.

i hate her

Posted by caitlin in Friends on Jun 15th, 2009 | 9 comments

my closest friend tried to commit suicide, before she did she sent me a txt saying sorry and that she loves me…i called the ambo’s and she’s okay now…they got to her in time…but i cant stand to be near her or talk to her anymore. i love her but hate her because she had the guts to do what i’ve been trying to do since i was 13…her life is actually the closest to perfect u can get, but she doesnt know about my life, i always lie about it, she thinks my life is like hers, perfect…and she doesn’t know that i want to die.
she thinks i hate her for what she did and am disgusted by her.
the truth is:
i love her and envy that she actually could do it.

I hate my friend

Posted by Frenemy in Friends on May 11th, 2009 | 11 comments

secretly hate my friend. She is perfect, well close to it. She has straight A’s, and always comes to school. She doesn’t have any problems with people, and is extremely hilarious. We get along fine but secretly I wish she’d just fail at something, once in here life.

The Truth about friendships

Posted by Anonymous in Friends on May 2nd, 2009 | 4 comments

It has been 7 year since I was at high school and when my best friend killed himself, the horrible truth is I could have helped him but I did’nt.