Secret Confessions

i voted against gay marriage, even though i was apart of the vote no on 8 movement. i’m sorry to all of my gay friends.

My best friend’s husband made a pass at me a couple of years ago when he was drunk and walking me home after a party. I pushed him away and ran. I never told her. I’m not the first he has tried it on with. I know he cheats on her regularly. I wish I could tell her what he’s like but it would break her heart and I can’t do that to her. She’s been through so much heartache. He’s a jerk.

Tonight I burst into tears when I walked into the door after you and your husband dropped me off at home. In front of your parents, his brother, sister and husband, his cousin and all the friends assembled he insulted you!!!

I could not believe that he used the phrase “make me” after you righteously told him to control his outburst of expression. I sat frozen, but [name withheld] who was to my right on the same sofa looked at your husband with total shock. After your correct chastising comeback to him your father patted his hand on your knee. What a gentle way of expressing to you that “this was not the time – not in front of everyone.”

You had every right to say whatever you had to say because he was wrong and had it coming. It was your house, but if the same thing happened in my place, your husband and I would have gone outside and I would have had a “Come To Jesus” talk, and told him to apologize to you!!!!!!!

I sense that you two made up, but I think he should have manned up and told everyone that what he did was wrong and that he was sorry for it and that all of it was his fault.

My heart is sad because I know how much you try in this marriage and I’m just an outsider who only knows how much you hurt when you have needed and ear to nibble on.

I will say nothing more of this matter to you when we hang out again, because you will tell me that he apologized and so on, and so on, and so on………….

I heard it with my own two ears; those two words that were said purposeful to pull you into a fight and showed a lack of maturity and a disdain for YOUR correct chastising!!!!

I hurt also, ……because I would never treat you like that……and I think YOU know that.

Back when I was a sophomore in college, I was best friends with my roommate (we still are). One weekend his mom came for a visit. She was pretty cool and went out to the parties with us Friday night. All three of us got very very drunk. My roommate was finally going to hook-up with this little blond girl he had been eying for months so he asked me to take his Mom back to the dorm. I did and ended up hooking up with her back in our room. We spent most of the night together before she finally slipped over to her son’s bed to catch some sleep before around dawn. To this day that 42 year old lady was the most amazing women I have ever been with in bed. Much to my disappointment I was not in for a repeat performance Saturday night as all three of us spent a much more sedate night together in town. I have remained close friends with me roommate over the years. I would never dare tell him about sleeping with his mom. I do feel a little guilty about it. Sometimes that makes it hard when I am around him. Despite having seen his mother many times since that, both during and after college, including at his wedding, I have never had a chance to talk to her about what we did together. Even though its been over ten years and I am married with children of my own I still think about her and that one awesome night we spent together.

you your smoke drugs in front of your grandkids your house stinks dog feces eberywhere and you expect me to comeyou visit
i don’t even want to touch anything in your house when we try to dicuss this you get mad just to let you know i don’t hate you jsut clean up your act if not for you your family

it’s true, you’re so terrible yet you really think your good. I don’t have the heart to tell you the truth. you enjoy it so much. but there it is, you suck. now if you would please make way for someone with skills.

I met her when I was just transferred to my new primary school. In the beginning I used to tease her till she hated me. But after half a year, we grew close. Wrote letters to each other, talked to each other every day. She lived near me. Her birthday was in the same month as mine. We all had our flaws, but one thing I could never get over was her selfishness.

Could never imagine a person to be so selfish after all these years of friendship. Perhaps was the closeness that made the person more direct to you. Saying ‘no’ whenever she did not feel like it, disregarding of your feelings. Always only doing as she pleased and rarely sparing a thought for your feelings. Making you feel like the friendship was one-way most of the time, like how you would feel in a one-sided relationship. I felt, sad. Constantly thinking of what I had to do to make her give a little back to me instead of just selfishly receiving from me.

In secondary school, she back stabbed me and she hurt me so bad. Until now, I cannot forget about the whole incident. I feel hatred and at the same time, always having to do nice things for her to cover up my real feelings towards her, which is hate. It is very tiring to have to keep pretending. But who will care anyway?

From what she tells me, about her boyfriend and her, doesn’t make me see her from another light. She gives him an option to come over or not, if he wants to see her. She doesn’t think much about rejecting his invitation to have dinner with his parents. Yeah, it’s not my business, but seeing my friend behaving this way, irks me, and I cannot reason why.

I think I am slowly drifting away from my best friend, and beginning to hate her. I cannot control my real emotions anymore and I’m afraid this friendship will end.

However, I always feel like I’m the only one trying to maintain it. She keeps me waiting whenever we meet regardless of knowing what ticks me off. She gives lame excuses when she wants to reject you. She has a bad attitude. Perhaps she feels that way about me too. I don’t know, and I don’t want to know stuff about her anymore.

We are so vastly different it’s shocking how we can even label ourselves as best friends in the first place. Maybe it was just a status, there was never anything real to begin with. I hate myself so much sometimes for trying to hold something together. Something that wasn’t meant to be…

I feel so hurt by her. Her words, her actions, or her no-actions.. I don’t know. I wonder time and time again whether our friendship meant anything at her to her. Perhaps it did but she doesn’t know how to show it. I wonder if she’ll ever read this someday and hate me for speaking ‘ill’ of her but in fact, this is all that I feel.

MY BEST FRIEND LIED TO ME ABOUT CUTTING HERSELF, YET SHE WAS OKAY TO POST A PUBLIC BLOG ABOUT IT ON MYSPACE.
SHE HAS NO REASON TO BE SAD, ITS BECAUSE OF SOME BOYFRIEND. SHE’S LIVED A GREAT HAPPY LIFE.
I’VE TRIED DOING EVERYTHING FOR HER BUT SHE WON’T LISTEN, SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF!!! I TOLD THE SCHOOL COUNSLER SO…NOW SHE’S GONNA GO TO THERAPY I DON’T WANT TO WATCH HER GO THROUGH IT DAMMIT I HATE HER SO MUCH RIGHT NOW I DON’T WANT TO BE HER FRIEND, I JUST WANT HAPPINESS
SHE ISN’T THE SAME FRIEND I KNEW LAST YEAR, SHE’S A MONSTER BECAUSE OF HER SELFISHNESS I DON’T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL AND I DON’T WANT TO DO ANYTHING!
I HATE THIS SHE USED TO BE SO HAPPY
I HATE THIS
I HATE THIS
I HATE THIS
I HATE THIS
I HATE HER
I LOVE HER
I WANT HER TO DIE
I WANT HER TO LIVE

I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO BE ALRIGHT!
PLEASE I JUST WANT THIS FRIENDSHIP TO END
BEFORE I GET HURT AGAIN!

i feel like i don’t know who she is when i see her walking down the hallways anymore.. i’m scared and confused and i feel so alone now. she says everything changed when i came back from vacation.. that i hadnt talked to her..but i was catching up on my work and she didnt make any effort to talk to me.. im lost and confused… i want to know what went wrong, what i did wrong.. im scared i’m going to lose her forever.. is this something inevitable? will i lose her? my best friend.. i have no one else to turn to.. i cannot lose her.. i want to fight for us. but i dont know how.. i dont know what more to do then to explain myself.. over and over.. explain my feelings.. again and again..

1ts been 10 yrs nw since we separated our ways.but i want you to know that still you’re the most special girl in my life.despite what u did.im not blaming you for that.i had my shortcomings.i just wish you a happy life.a happy and contented life!!!!!!!thank you denden!

I love my best friend. I really do. But to her, I’m just the crazy, sarcastic, friend that’s walked with her to school every day since 1st grade. It’s been years now. And we’re still stuck like glue. But she made a mistake today. She lashed out at me unintentially, stunning me within seconds with her words. I sat there, next to my computer, thinking that her email was a mistake. But she did it again. My best friend told me to ‘piss off’. She never swears, not Sam. I left, and now she’s crying, saying that she didn’t mean it. I’m reading her emails, not knowing if I should reply. But best friends can become strangers in mere seconds.

I’m about to start cutting off our frequent contacts together. Well to be honest I don’t have a car anymore and because of that I can’t surprise you at work and see your face light up. I won’t be able to do the things that I used to. I’ve been praying for change and I wonder….yes I wonder, is this it? Is this the start of change that I need in my life. I’ve even considered talking to a friend as I’ve already called and am waiting for a call back. I want to be whole and right now I don’t think I can do this on my own. You have no idea how deep I feel for you. You love your husband even thought you questioned it in the beginning, but you have made it clear to me that you do. I would never hurt you like he has or I would never put you second like he has, but he has been coming around and I’m happy that he is wising up.

We are the best of friends and I love it that way. I think of you as the younger sister that I never had and always wanted. I love your heart and I think I always will, but I have nothing to offer you and you have much more to lose. I need to start this distance, but I don’t know how and I also don’t want to. I just don’t know what to do.

I do not want to hurt you, but I need to see you as the friend that I cherish instead of the “almost lover”, and right now I’m not able to do that.

Oh God I just know that I’m going to hurt you somehow and this is going to kill me….

My best friend told me that she was a lesbian 9 months ago. I pretended to be okay with it but the more time goes on the more I feel like she is just afraid of being alone, but if I tell her this she’ll hate me forever… so I’ll let her make the biggest mistake of her life and be there to help her when it is all over.

I knw i love this guy…hes kind and cute and caring….all these things made me like him…i even liked him more because he cares for me…were just friends hes got a gf….i knw im on the wrong track but…I’m still hopin that he would love me back….

I hate to say it, but I hate my best friend’s boyfriend. I want her to be happy, but not with him. Not when he sees me as a constant threat, not when he tells her not to be friends with me just because I make her happy too.

He wants to be the only thing in her life, and I want him to be gone.

Anytime I try to tell her that it doesn’t seem like a healthy relationship, she tells me that I don’t see them together - of course I don’t! He doesn’t allow her near me when they’re together! He literally drags her away and brushes me off.

She’s not going to college so she can wait for him when he goes into the armed forces.

I can’t even tell her what a mistake that is without “trying to ruin they’re relationship.” I’m not a threat, I’m a friend.